Can't be arsed

Working. I am sitting my office, alone, and do not have the inclination to do any work. So i have spent all morning surfing the WW site and here and various other sites regarding diet and excercise. I can feel myself becoming addicted to food and diet. I cant become addicted, i dont want to be one of those people who's lives are ruled by what they do or do not eat. I just want to be healthy.

On the plus side, those lovely ladies at the petrol station next door have made me a lovely fruit platter with strawberries, pineapple, melon and blueberries. They have also promised to faithfully slap me should i hover over the chocolate section too long. in addition, they told me they can already see the results of my healthy eating (note i did not say diet!) and excercise regime ( I have been doing it now for about 4 weeks, i just joined EP yesterday) which has put a huge smile on my face and upped my motivation and determination. Which has got me thinking (uh-oh i feel a carrie from SATC moment coming on)

What do we hope to gain from weight loss?

Do we wish to be happy in ourselves? or do we wish to alter the perceptions of those around us? Does the answer to this question ultiamtly decide whether we are successful or not? So, I ask all you guys and gals out there the same. What do you hope to gain from your weight loss?

Me? I want to be fit and healthy and do all the things I cannot currently do at my present weight, i.e Kitesurf. Go skydiving, swim with the great whites in africa (please, if i got into the ocean at present in a wetsuit, the sharks would think oooh what a juicy great big whale for lunch). But I also want men to find me attractive, women to envy my physique, to walk into a pub or club and not be heckled by strangers who think that they have a right to pass comment on me because "i'm a big girl" And i never want to hear those words again. "Your a big girl" words that have haunted me since primary school, partly on account of my height and partly on account of my weight. My height I can do nothing about (short of sawing off my kneecaps. Anyone good for a few extra inches??) but my weight, I can. I want to walk into any high street shop and buy any outfit I like without being relegated to a special section, or even a dedicated store. And, I want any future children i may have to grow up fit and healthy. how can they eat well and enjoy excercise if their mothere cant.

But most of all, I want to enjoy food for the taste and the sensation and not curse or praise every morsel that passes my lips. I dont want to eat a chocolate bar and feel useless after. I dont want to wolf down an entire loaf bread (and I can, and i love bread) then berate myself for doing so. I want to learn what is good for me, what i can have in moderation and enjoy it.

So, back to work .

til next time

Angell

Good Luck!

You've made your first step, and trust me its the hardest!

Keep it up!

Wii Fit :o)

Wii fit is brilliant isn't it?! I didn't realise how bad my coordination was until I started this. First time I did the hula hoop I couldn't bend down for 2 days afterwards! I'm just glad no one can see into my living room :o)

Hmmmm....

To sum it up, I just want to be normal.  But is there really a normal?  I want to feel good about myself inside and out.  And I want my daughter to see a positive HEALTHY role model in me.  And I DON'T want her to have to deal with any of the weight issues that I have.

Response

angel127,

I tried to respond to you directly, but the website wasn't working properly.

Thanks for your concern.  I have checked my plan out with my Doctor.  It is extreme and that's the point.  I've tried the "slow and steady wins the race" but found it hard to stick to the race toward the middle.  I'm looking for a big jump up front and then I will attempt to maintain from there.  I get 2 servings of dairy, three fruit and two veggies, so it's WAY more healthy then when I was eating whatever I wanted.

P.S. Definitely make your own flash cards!  That's why I included it in my blog.  I wanted others to see if it might work for them!

Good luck to you!

Love it : )

I have just sat and read your blog from the start.

So much of it resonated with me...and it made me laugh out loud as well, many times.

Thanks! I shall keep reading. All the best,

Rach xxx