off I go

as usual I'm late to get loghan to school ( summer camp) and I am going to the gym after that.. hope everyone has a great day!!!

determine to loss this junk in my trunk

I HAD A AMAZING WORK OUT TODAY, I AM DETERMINED TO GET THRU THIS...

starting over

so here I am again.. over weight ... i am so mad at myself that I  did this to myself again.. It is like a roller coaster ride that never ends.. But This time it is going to end.. I hate looking  in a mirror because of all the weight i have gained. so the only way to fix this is to make a change.. I am going to lose 40 pds.. I am going to stay focused so nothing will take my focus away from  getting to my target weight.  This journey will be hard but so worth it at the end..<a href="http://www.myhotcomments.com/"><img src="http://lc.fdots.com/cc/lc/a4/a4fcc9dde97a2f9d3987cee221dfc837.jpg" border="0" alt="MyHotComments.com"></a><br><a href="http://www.myhotcomments.com/graphics/35172">MyHotComments</a> <br clear="left">

head out of the gutter

so i have been a pill popping  veggie for the last few weeks.. i hurt my neck and all i could do is sleep take meds and eat eat eat!!! and the results of this all is that i have gained alot of wieght back.. my legs are gross my gut full and i would never imagine this again.. i can not find the words to even tell you what i think .. i want my body back my sexy look.. screw this fat chunky leg monster who stares at me thru the mirror. time for change so

 Hello weight watchers

 Once upon a time before i had a child and  I would never chance  having my daughter she is the love in  of my life.. back to the story i was thin sexy and on top of the world.. i meet this man baby daddy and had this beautiful little angel along with that came 70 pds and a very abusive relationship.. it took me forever to get back to a size that felt comfortable 133.. but the emotional abusive that i suffred from my ex never left.. still today it haunts me with his evil words and mean ways. i was ashamed of being big I had no one except god and he thru all my pain stood bye me and i survived.. but today i feel again ashamed and lost i need support and guidance to lose this weight.. i feel GROSS!!  so maybe thru this journey again i will find some neat people feeling like i do..  Today is a new start a new day.. i can not do much exercising because of my neck but i can walk so i am gonna walk my legs right back in shape.. I am gonna stick to my weight watchers points.. and  i am gonna forget the monsters words that haunt me today.. that  look at me i am  a shameful sight i am nothing. i am something something great!!

another 10pds

well here i go again.. I actually got down to 132 and felt great.. but i gained back 10 in no time.. I was indulging way to much.. so my weight was 142. i lost 2 and here i am.. again.. I quess with starting a new job, getting a new house and not eating right all of it finally is showing... on my body.. my clothes fit to tight and i can not stand that.. it is terriable.. so i need to get back in shape ASAP!!!  well wish me luck.. here I go again

the flip game

 i sware my weight goes from 136 to 138.. so not fair can it just stay on 136....  maybe i should just just stay naked all day haha.. well i hope you guys are all doing well and having a great sat morning!!!! love ya!!!!

love is in the air, but not here

Happy  Valentines Day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hope Everyone is doing well..

happy new me!!!

so hello to all!!! I hope everyone has had a happy new year so far!! well i have gained back  4 pds so that puts me at 139.1 wow okay so i was feeling hungry...  time to lose some weight.. i have had a interesting last year that is 2006 and i can only hope to have a great new year!! i want to live better feel better and just be happy good bye 2006 six hello 2007. well i want to lose another 20 pds.. yes that is right i want to weight 120.. i will have to post a picture of what i look like now and what i looked like before.. i have come along way. that is for sure.. i have so much to say and write my goodness to tell you guys.. loghan my baby girl is doing so well she is in school pre school and loves it talking up a storm and i am still working managing to  make it well baby daddy still the same drama daddy nothing changes he acts okay then of courses has one of his relapeses and disapers for a while like now.. oh it is for  the better. he is nothing but trouble in our lives any ways still no money from him.. i am suppose to see a lawyer but i really just want the custody and that is it and no money than he will not have to see her.. he is so on and out of her life anyways you know.. well love life that is a joke there is no one really . there is this guy who likes me but my heart is not in it he likes me and i like him but not like he likes me and i am so screwed up from mister ex baby daddy that i will always be not alwqays but for awhile just not be able to let any one in and that is okay and  that is a good thing because i have a daughter... well  all i can say is i want to be happy!!! and i will.. bye guys

blogging again

so here i go again:

well life let's see i have lost 30 pds.. that i something good, to be very happy about.  i feel good about stuff in my life lately well about work and losing  this weight and being a mom and my beautiful little girl she is so wondrful taliking up a storm. she talks so much now. i love her so much..  i will post  pictures soon i us and her how much she has grown and how she looks so much like her dad. her dad that is a subject you know i just keep going back and forth with that one but hey i will not bore you guys with that one i kinda tried to see someone else and well that really did not work so i went back the  same old road and blah blah blah. so here i am again anyways i  ca not believe christmas is just next month how scary is that.. so i have started  trying to see what to but for my little girl of course i want to get her everything and some and of course i must control myself.... only child what can i say...... well i will blog later..  today is a good day good day to all

making a new start

I have not blogged for ever!!! mainly because i have felted liked i really have not connected with any one from the site in a really long time and also i have been super busy with muy job lately. i have been making alot of progress with getting back on top with my financial  part of my life finally and it feels great.. and i am only 8 pds away from my goal weight. my little girl is great!!! she is beautiful well i will poat later i hope all is well with everyone!!