Tomorrow is the Day!

Damnit! I got disconnected after I written a lot of stuff! AHHH! So I'm going to go quick because I have to go get my laundry!

1. I am going to start journaling everything I eat tomorrow. I need to keep better track and I want to feel better.

2. I am also going to start going to the gym tomorrow. I have taking the last couple of days off from exercise because of my breathing problem; however, I went to the doctors on Tuesday and have received medication and I'm feeling better.

3. I went and saw Sex and the City with my BFF and it was really good.

4. I can't get onto BCB again and I really want to!

5. I got a 92% on my test today! YAY!

I'll come back for more tomorrow!

Why Can't I Get On?

I'm still having trouble getting onto Bootcamp Buddies. Is anyone else having trouble? I really want to post on there, but I guess I have to wait. I'm going to write to Melissa and see if she's having the same problems.

I didn't get to the gym today, but I'm still having problems with breathing. I have an appointment tomorrow morning and hopefully they will give me something good for my breathing problems, my allergies, and hopefully something for my face.

I haven't been eating well these past couple of days due to my problems. I just haven't been up to eating because it hurts my throat when I eat. I have been having soup and tea. I really hate tea, but it seemed to calm my throat a little bit.

I still haven't talked to my roommates and it's been like two weeks going on three. I don't know what to do about this situation. I'm not apologizing because that would mean I did something wrong and I honestly didn't do anything wrong. They are the ones putting me in a situation I don't want to be in.

I think I'm going to go to the gym tomorrow morning. I'm ready to go so I better get up early. I did good on my quiz. I got a 92%! YAY! My first A this semester. I'm determined to get all A from now on... lol We'll see how we do! I'll write more tomorrow. See you guys later!

The Start of the Rest of My Life

...and I feel like shit! I am so sick. I can hardly breath.

Other than that, I'm doing great (that's kind of a contradiction huh). Even though I'm not feeling well, I will be going to the gym tonight. I feel better after the gym anyway. I wanted to get up early today and prepare my food, but I was so sick in bed. I tried to call in but I decided to just come to work.

For some reason, l I can't get into Bootcamp Buddies. I've been trying the past two days, but it's not working. I wanted to write some stuff, but it's not working so I will have to write here.

I worked with the teens yesterday and I got to know some of them. They are awesome kids wuth some problems. I really like going there. I only have 4 more Saturdays and I'm done with the first half of my classes. Thank goodness, the classes are a fourth over.

I'm so lost of thought right now so I can't keep writing. I'll write stuff later.

I Need Sleep!

I went to the gym today! I am so happy because seriously I was got even going to go. I went to class, did my quiz, went to the computer lab to finish up some homework, then I was off to my house. I was driving and driving, and I told myself, "I should just go." So I went and felt great. I need to make myself go because it's not a habit yet and I really want to lose some weight.

So, my plan for tomorrow is to wake up at 5:30am, eat some breakfast, get my lunch ready, drive to the gym. Workout for 45 mins, get ready and go to class. After all my classes, I have to go work from 3-11pm, so I need to make sure I bring stuff to study. I need to start studying earlier in the week so I can do good on my quizzes.

I feel so disconnected from my roommates. We don't speak, we don't interact, we don't hangout. I'm not friends with one of them, but I would still like to hangout with my BFF. But I don't like to hangout with her when she's hanging out with her girl... ugh!

I'm excited Sex and the City is coming out this week. Josephine and I are going to go see it next Wednesday because she's not going to be in town this weekend. 

Day #5 On Point! YAY for me!

New Phone!

So, I haven't had a phone in FOREVER! I really hated it, but at the same time it was nice to be left alone. But I just got a new phone today and it's very cheap. I only pay $10 a month for 1200 minutes and unlimited texting each month. It's going to help me out. I really think it's a good deal, but I had to buy a phone that I did not budget for, but oh well.

I gained 2 pounds this week. But I think that it's ok because TOM came to visit andI ate before I weighed myself. Also I've been working out so it could mean that.. I don't know.

I didn't make it to the gym today and I felt guilty. Can you believe that? I love going to the gym now. But no worries... I'm going to wake up early and workout for an hour tomorrow. I have a huge quiz tomorrow, so I can get some studying done.

I got to see my nephew today. It was he's birthday on the 26th and I forgot.. I can't believe it! But when he saw me he was reaching for me and laying on my shoulder. I love him so much!! He's just turning into my little man! He's getting so big!

I need to go, but I wanted to stop by and let you know my gain will not effect me!

I Didn't Notice...

I have been so consumed with losing weight that I didn't realize I have lost 22 pounds which is a big accomplishment. I didn;t realize that until I read the little thing on the right side of my blog page. Anyway, pat on the back for me. I still have lots to lose, but I'm on my way.

So today is Day #3 On Point. I didn't wake up early enough to go to the gym this morning and I wasn't even going to go, but I forgot I had to return a movie, so it really saved me. I'm happy that I went because it kept me on track. I want to be on track for as long as I can. My boss asked me if I was losing weight, so that made me feel good.

I had dinner with Josephine tonight, which was really nice. It was nice to talk to her and let her know what's going on with myself and all the drama I'm always getting into. I told her the story about my roommates and I realized that I did nothing wrong. I have felt guilty and I realized that it's not my baggage. It's their problem and they have to get through it without me. I just wish that a certain someone would just get the f**k out! We are not friends anymore.

So, I have to wake up really early tomorrow (5:45am) so I should get going. I just wanted to let you know what's going on and I'm trying to stay with my plan.

On to tomorrow and an On Point Day!

Starting Again

So, yes it's been like forever, but it was hard there for the past couple of months. My sister was staying with me and she always wanted to go out to eat and it was getting annoying. But also, she would eat all my food so I didn't buy food for the house because it would be gone the next day.

As much as I love my sister, it's nice to be by myself. But now I have roommate problems. They have secluded themselved from everyone and no one wants to hangout with them and they expect me to stay and defend them and be lonely cuz they have each other you know?

So last weekend, I went out to this birthday party that I was invited to and they weren't and then the next day I went to a graduation party. When I got home that night, they started yelling at me acting like I was not a loyal friend and this and that. It's so stupid. I don't like being called a bad friend because I think I'm a really good friend actually. I don't think I have to secluded myself from everyone because they don't like everyone. Do I have to hate everyone they hate? I don't think so.

Anyway, that night one of my roommates said the meanest thing to me I have ever heard and now we're not talking. We haven't spoke in a week and I don't plan on it. I can't believe what she said to me. I have never had a friend made me feel the way she made me feel. No one has ever told me I was fat or ugly and shit, and for her to suggest that... We are definitely not friends anymore.

Anyway, so I started going to the gym which is awesome. I always feel really good after working out. And I have been eating within my points since my sister has left! So I guess this is On Point Day #2.

YAY!

Drama Rama

I said I needed to post more and I left for more than a month… kind of funny actually.

I’m doing great. I’m still losing so no worries; however, I miss writing down my thoughts. I’ve just been so busy with all this stuff going on. The thing is I haven’t made any time for “me time.” I really need to give myself some time everyday where I can write down some thoughts and express myself.

I am having some major roommate issues. They are so annoying me, seriously. They are such a dysfunctional couple, it’s irritating. I really love them, but they need drama in their life, you know what I mean? It’s too much. I’m trying to get out of all the drama. I’m trying to be stress free, but they pull it right back in.  I guess there are some people out there who are trying to ruin our name. God, can you realize you’re in college and not in high school anymore?! These people are ridiculous! I’ve never known so many immature people in my life.

I Really Need To Post More...

I am in desperate need for some food. All I have in my fridge is: Jell-o, yogurt, strong cheese and celery. I have a couple of can of soup and Wheat Thins. But money is so very tight for me, I really can't go buy that much food.

Tomorrow though, I will be going to Fred Meyers with a gift certificate my boss got me for my birthday. I am going to buy the essentials, just enough to get me though this hard patch.

I can't wait until I'm done with school so I can start working full time. I plan to work my butt off for the next two months, so I can catch up bills and buy food.

Oh, to by a college student. I really need to start taking advantage of all the free food at school.

Emergency Surgery...

On Monday night, I was getting ready for my clinicals at Regional Hospital. I was going to start on the Ortho Unit and I was nervous. These people are always in pain and they have to be encouraged to walk and move around. So, Chelsea and I were doing homework. Puffin was sitting on my bed and he started growling. I was trying to get out of bed, when all of a sudden, I felt this shot of pain go up my left leg. I tried moving it around, but I knew I fucked it up.

I compressed my knee, elevated my knee and went to sleep. When I woke up, I could hardly move. I called my professor and let her know I wasn't going to make it to clinicals. So I called my mom and told her what happened. And you know what she told me? I was going to turn 23 the next day and after that, I wouldn't have anymore health insurance. I began crying because I knew I messed up my leg.

So, I called my doctor's office and told them I had to see him today because of my insurance. They put me down for 2:30pm. My mom came and picked me up and Chelsea helped me get up the stairs. I went to the appointment and the nurse who tookd care of me last time was like, "You don't look so good." Oh really, I thought. How about if I busted your knee with a bat, you'll know how I feel... but of course I just smiled and said I know.

My doctor came in and he tried these exercises, and I couldn't bend my knee or make it straight. He looked and was going to start giving some suggestions. I said, "Before you go any further, I just want you to know that I turn 23 tomorrow and I will not have anymore health insurance after today. So what can you do for me?" He was shocked and said, "What? Okay, well we're going to have to do emergency surgery on your knee. It's locked and something is wrong. I'm going to have to do an arthoscopy with a possible menicus repair."

I had to call my mommy. She came, I cried and told her what he thought. She said let's do it. I had to call my professor to let her know that I might not be able to go to clinicals tomorrow because I have to have emergency surgery. Thank goodness, she was totally like, "Take care of yourself. We'll worry about everything else later."

My doctor was nice enough to do this surgery so late, I had the surgery at 8:30pm, all the nurses were like, "Your lucky. Doctor's don't usually stay this late." I went to the OR and all I remember was them putting this pad on my back and then waking up in the recovery room. I woke up, and started asking all these questions. I wanted my mommy. You'd be surprise how much you need your mom at moments like these.

My mom dropped me off at my apartment, Chelsea and Ansley were wating for me. I was able to go to sleep and rest. I took these pain meds that worked beautifully mind you. I woke up and it was my birthday! Chelsea took really good care of me, but all I did was throw up. Not the kind of present you want on your birthday. Chelsea called my doctor all concerned and he changed my medications.

All and all, I'm happy I was able to do the surgery. Hopefully, now I'll be able to go on with life. My professors are being so cool with me not taking the test today. I get to take it on Monday. But seriously, I wasn't even worried about my leg. I was more concerned about my classes. Seriously, I literally only have two more weeks left and I have gotten A's on each of my tests and I'm doing so awesome and I didn't want to have to take this damn course again.