Well what a waste of time and diesel! I got to my meeting at the usual time and couldn't park. The school where it's held is having an extension over the summer which is taking up a third of the car park. Another third is then taken up with diggers,steel etc... After having a bit of a 'to do' with a fellow member trying to reverse very unwieldingly and unsuccessfully I decided to just go home. The estate the school is in is one of the worst areas in town and I'm not leaving my poor baby car out on the street for an hour. So no meeting for me! Meh.
Ah well, I weighed myself on the WW scales I bought last year when I did it online and have STS. They usually weigh heavy but will take the STS and start using them from now on. I've cancelled my monthly pass but asked to keep the e-source stuff. It runs out at end of August so bit of a waste but it will help me money wise in the long term.
To be totally honest the meetings just aren't doing it for me this time round...lost 2 stone in about 14 weeks last time and now 14 weeks in I've only lost 61/2 lbs and have been doing such an uncanny impression of a yo yo. It's the emotional eating that is the worst for me and I've had a lot going on...no excuse mind...need to get some sort of umph from somewhere otherwise I'm going to be such an unhappy, hefty bride :-(
I have had a bit of a confidence boost this weekend though. Went out with some friends on Saturday while the OH was on nights to have a good boogie and get smashed since I failed my exams so convincingly. A lovely, scrummy bloke came to chat me up!! (He must have been pissed - lol) Told him straight away I had a fiance but he maintained he still wanted to buy me a drink and being so wrecked at the time I accepted - can't turn down free drinks if asked too many times! We had a really good flirt and chat and he said there was no way I needed to go to WW!! This is the worst thing to say to me from a WW point of view as it makes me eat more but nice to be told you're attractive none the less. Thought it would be a really good idea to say I'd facebook him but OH expressed his distaste when I regailed the evenings events to him over the phone at 4am - which you can understand! Funny how things don't make much sense when you've had 4 glasses of wine and 7 smirnoff ice...(please don't tell me the points...) As if my future husband would want me to be mates with the nice looking chap that chatted me up in the local nightclub - lol...
Well this is less a blog and more a biography now...sorry to go on so much! Fingers crossed I can get a half decent loss this week to give me some sort of idea that I can do this x x x
Well I officially feel like cr*p and have taken an afternoon's leave to rest. My glands are up and my nose can't decide if it wants to be blocked or runny! A cold in July...it's so silly!
I'm still filling in my tracker though although only just got enough points left to get me through tea. Think I'm having a couple of reduced fat sausages, some mash and loads of veggies. Had some lovely smoked salmon and pasta at lunch...did add an ickle bit of cheese though which is where the points have gone gosh darn it.
The worst thing about being ill though is not being able to exercise. I've been so good with running and walking but don't feel like doing anything today. I know it would only make my cold worse as well. I just hope I can keep the motivation up once I'm feeling better. I've been here before where I've come down with something after a good few days and it's knocked me off track for weeks. I need to get better and get back to it!!
Well it's going ok so far. I've stayed within points, walked to work yesterday, went for a run last night. Think it may have killed me though as getting a cold now! Early night for me tonight.
I've points left for a cuppa and 2 jaffas so going to have them in a sec, veg in front of the telly for a couple of hours then off to bed.
Really annoyed with myself for being so useless and know I need to get back on it. Been to the Yorkshire Show today and stuffed my face so tomorrow's the day.
Am back to work after my time off with stress tomorrow too so feeling pretty awful about that as well. Generally feel awful today! Ah well. Relaxation MP3 before bed and get through tomorrow. That's the aim!
Well my tracker says I'm 17 points down...This isn't good! No one particular thing has gone wrong just a few points a day and some wine at the weekend.
I haven't earned at many bonus points as I wanted either. The rain has cancelled a couple of planned jogs with friends and I can't go with them tonight as I'm meeting a woman about my wedding cake. I'd go for a run now if it wasn't peeing it down! What has happened to summer??? I've found I'm spending a lot of time thinking about exercise and not doing it!
My doc gave me some relaxation exercises to do for my anxiety and I've found some free relaxation mp3s on amercian uni websites which have been really good. I'm on my last few days off and am back to work on Thursday. I'm actually quite looking forward to going back, missed everyone...well apart from the senior management who got me into this state in the first place.
Not sure how WI is going to go tomorrow. Was hoping to get off the 1.5 gain from last week but think I'll be lucky. Might have to sneak a peek...
I bet I gain tomorrow. I certainly should the week I've had. Because I've been signed off work I haven't been in my routine so even though I'm having healthy lunches they're more points than my usual soup/crisps/fruit combo which I can't seem to eat at home?! Also not been drinking the water.
As it was birthday week and I needed cheering up thanks to the mess at work I've downed my own weight in wine. Didn't do too badly on food at my meal or bbq but someone bought me one of those thorntons chocolate champagne bottles (loooovely!) and I've managed to eat it all already.
Ah well birthdays are but once a year. Back on track tomorrow. WI tomorrow night so we shall see what's occuring then!
Birthdays are great on one hand and scary on the other.
Lots planned to see family and friends BUT all involving food. My Mum and Dad have just left and I've polished off a bottle of wine with Mother (she's a bad influence when it comes to the vino). Tomorrow me and OH are having a day out, this will involve a pub lunch. Friday will be family meal with parents, uncle/aunty, honorary aunty. Then Saturday we've invited all our mates round for a housewarming cum birthday party BBQ.
If I don't go over my points it will be a miracle.
But then birthdays are once a year. I just really don't want to ruin the 5lb loss this week. Ah well what will be will be.
On a much less positive thread I've been signed off work today with stress. My blood pressure was not in a happy place at the docs this morning and I've been having anxiety attacks that are getting progressively worse. I'm also covered in some pretty angry eczema. All down to some pretty shoddy management at my workplace. Less said about that the better. The week off should help me get back to some sort of normality as I just feel I've lost all perspective at the moment.
But hey it's my 25th birthday tomorrow! Must celebrate 1/4 of a century in style!!! x
