I'm very scared...I've had a good week. I've stayed within points everyday except Saturday (curry) and have included ALL alcohol consumed. I've successfully clawed back most of those overspent now. I've also done more walking and jogging than normal and went to a bootcamp exercise class last night. I even did a half hour aerobics oz syle when I got in from work tonight. This leads me believe that I've lost weight and that's a dangerous place for me because it usually means I haven't!!!
The previous week was shockingly bad with me eating out 5 days in a row so there could be a STS or even gain on the cards this week despite my saintly behaviour. I know if I haven't lost I just need to do the same again next week and it'll come off but will be so dishearted if I gain as I'll nearly be back to where I started again.
I'm sick of faffing about with it now. There's just no excuse for me yo yoing - need to get into good habits and flippin stick to it! Other people can do it, heck I've done it more than once before. It needs to come off and stay off forever this time.
Feel terrible. Really queasy and wobbly. Definately need my own bathroom, have been 3 times already - sorry if that's TMI!!! Don't know if it's something I've eaten or a bug. Was up half the night feeling really hot and sweaty but face and arms were freezing. Very weird! It's also TOTM which isn't helping me feel any better.
I feel awful for work as I've just had 2 days leave to do some xmas shopping and as soon as I'm back I have to go home. Another girl's phoned in with the same thing too. At least we only have our own workloads to worry about so not putting on anyone which reduces the guilt slightly. Don't know why I always feel guilty if I take a day off sick...It's not like I'm skiving or anything?!?!
It might help the diet at least. Don't feel like eating anything although stomach is grumbling. Think I'm going to go for a sleep and maybe have a piece of toast at lunch and see if it stays down.
Weighed in last night and have gained 2lbs, which is less than I expected. Going to have to have a saintly week to prevent further gain and try and get back on track. Won't be exercising today though as think I might faint. I hate getting ill as it totally naffs up any exercise routine you want to start/maintain. Grrr! Stupid winter with all it's bugs.
It's not so much if I gain but how much this week!
I've had a really busy weekend and 3 meals out,1 with pudding (waffles...mmmmmhhhh). I've eaten everything I shouldn't and had wine in varying quantities on Tuesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday nights.
I've been brutally honest on my tracker and I'm 85 down if I don't have any tea!!!
It is truely disgraceful. Ah well I can only draw a line under it. I've had a great weekend so it doesn't really matter. Just delaying my weight loss by another couple of weeks!
Got one more day off work so I get a lovely lie in tomorrow and will try and go for a run if the weather's not too bad to get back into exercise.
WI will be interesting tomorrow!!! My bets on 3lbs on.
Just eaten 3 bags of walkers baked crisps and 3 mini kinder chocolate bars...don't know why. Just binged and now feel really really awful. That's about 9 points. So now about 13ish points over already and 1 day in to supposed new start.
Aaarrrghhhh there is no hope for me. Sh1t sh1t sh1t!!!
All I can do is draw a line under it and move on. I know that. Just need to wake up on the right side of the bed tomorrow. Think I'll go and take a couple of things out of my packed lunch.
Chilly! Heating's been on for an hour and it's still freezing because I've just noticed OH has turned it right down without telling me. Tucked up on the sofa under a big furry throw to try and get warm but my poor fingers can hardly type they're so cold!
Anywho, stayed the same this week. A surprise only because I thought I would have gained as had a couple of binges and did noooo exercise whatsoever. Good news really although I would like to report a loss one of these weeks!
This week's not looking good though! I'm 4.5 (3.5 taking into account walking bonus points) over this week already because one of the girls at work bought me a cream dohnut which I ate in about 30 secs flat. 6.5 points...eugh...I also had an M&S chicken lasagne for tea which is 10.5 points.
I'm going to try and do my best despite the initial set back. The weekend's looking scary diet wise though. Meal out in Bradford on Saturday as seeing Frankie Boyle at St George's Hall then Jimmy Carr in Leeds with a load of friends on Sunday night which means booze and food out. Monday brings a trip to the designer outlet in York for some xmas shopping and pub lunch. I've got another day off on Tuesday so will have to spend all day running or something to burn it all off! Ah well what will be will be.
What a weird day I'm having. Thought about going to the different Monday meeting down the road from me at 6pm but I've had such a bad day at work that all I want to do is hibernate under a blanket on the sofa (which I am doing). I know I should do some exercise but I genuinely cannot be bothered. At all. No motivation whatsoever.
At least I had a brisk walk to the supermarket at lunch time. It was only brisk because I was trying to get there and back in half an hour but it was exercise nonetheless.
I think I'm feeling like this as I've got some 'unresolved issues' with some friends at the moment and people at work seem to be taking out their issues on me! Honestly the way I get talked to by some people is ridiculous. People who should know better too!
Anywho I'm sure I'll wake up in a better frame of mind tomorrow and might try out the Monday meeting next week.
It was 6 months on Wednesday since I went back to meetings and re-opened my gold membership (yes I was thin once). Just over a stone to lose. Thought it would take until the end of July. Signed up for monthly pass. Gained first week but soon started to lose. Got to silver 7 after 7 weeks and then it all went wrong...
I've done nothing but faff about since then and have wasted over £100 on Weight Watchers membership. In 6 months I'm only 5 lbs lighter than I was when I started. I stopped going to meetings in July and have been tracking on my own since then. Have kept track of most of what I've eaten and weighed in every week apart from my holiday in September. Looking back over the stats today was horrible. My graph looks like something out of the stock market!
I don't know whether to go back to meetings...I don't think I want to go to my usual one (the one I lost the weight with before) and there is one that's nearer to my house which I can walk to...But then I'm really skint saving for the wedding/paying for xmas etc and £5.50 a week is not really in the budget at the moment. Don't know what to do. I'm soooooooooo mad at myself. So so so so mad.
On a more positive note I have saved a whole 1/2 point today which is a miracle for me in my current mindset!
I was doing really really well this week. Lots of jogging and stuck to points all week until Friday night when we went to someone's 30th and I drank a severe amount of wine.
Said wine consumption had a negative effect when someone said something a bit off about one of my best friends (who wasn't there) and instead of having an argument - or indeed ignoring the comment - drunk brain thought it would be better to quietly pick up coat and leave.
Other half was left behind feeling rather embarrassed (don't blame him) so he made some excuse and chased me up the street. Blazing row follows and drunk brain thinks it would be a good idea to call parents (at midnight) and ask them to pick me up as I didn't want to stay at home!!! What a t*t I really am. Parents persuaded me to go home with OH who proceeded to go to bed saying he didn't want anything to do with me. Didn't get much sleep and went to parents as soon as I was sober enough to drive in the morning as OH still wouldn't talk it through...spent all morning sobbing and eating anything and everything I could get my paws on.
We made up in the afternoon once he'd calmed down...
I then had a family do in the evening which was lavishly catered (hot beef sandwiches, hot chicken sandwiches, potato wedges, every conceivable nibble going, wine, cocktails etc...) so still feeling slightly scarred from the argument I ate and drank until I could fit no more in! Worked out rough points total and it was about 35 or so over and that's being conservative...I'm also a fair few over today as we've had a chinese takeaway and I had a chocolate muffin and some cheese and crackers as snacks this afternoon.
All in all I've ruined the hard work of the week. Haven't even done my housework to burn off some calories there! Have just been sulking in my own misery all weekend. Pah! Must be better tomorrow! I will get up at 6am so I can get ready and walk to work for 8am. I WILL!x
Well at lunch time today my brain did a u-turn and I was, all of a sudden, in a good mood after being in an almighty huff since getting back from Stratford on Saturday afternoon.
I've had 2 really good days before WI tonight and has restricted damage to only 1 pound on and as it was the 'light week' of my cycle last week that's quite an achievement.
So feel like I'm back on track both WW wise and mood wise (for now!). Hopefully I can keep it up on both counts :-) x
