What should I do...?
Stark realisation...
It was 6 months on Wednesday since I went back to meetings and re-opened my gold membership (yes I was thin once). Just over a stone to lose. Thought it would take until the end of July. Signed up for monthly pass. Gained first week but soon started to lose. Got to silver 7 after 7 weeks and then it all went wrong...
I've done nothing but faff about since then and have wasted over £100 on Weight Watchers membership. In 6 months I'm only 5 lbs lighter than I was when I started. I stopped going to meetings in July and have been tracking on my own since then. Have kept track of most of what I've eaten and weighed in every week apart from my holiday in September. Looking back over the stats today was horrible. My graph looks like something out of the stock market!
I don't know whether to go back to meetings...I don't think I want to go to my usual one (the one I lost the weight with before) and there is one that's nearer to my house which I can walk to...But then I'm really skint saving for the wedding/paying for xmas etc and £5.50 a week is not really in the budget at the moment. Don't know what to do. I'm soooooooooo mad at myself. So so so so mad.
On a more positive note I have saved a whole 1/2 point today which is a miracle for me in my current mindset!