maybe just a towel someday

So, today was my third time at the gym.  I really love it.  I took my dh's ipod b/c the treadmills have tv's above them and you can tune your radio to the channel under the tv and listen to whatever is on the tv.  It really made my walking fly by.  Plus, then I didn't wonder if anyone was watching me.  I am still a little self concious because I am bigger than anyone there.  It's not that I think people are judging me or that I care, I just i don't know well like, I am the only one that takes my clothes with me to the shower- all the cute little girls (and even so me not so little and cute girls) walk around in towels.  i don't know if there is any amount of weight that I could lose that would make me comfortable with people seeing what God gave me.

My kids actually love it there and are now asking to go, so that makes it easier for me.  And it is nice to have a small rest from them.  I feel like I am finally doing something for myself.  Not that I don't love being a wife and mother, but it is nice to feel like I am taking care of myself, too.