So I just wanted to say thank you to all my ep buddies and your great comments and support. I actually cried reading them last night (maybe I'm PMSing). Then I laughed- you girls are awesome and brits are funny if I may say so!
Today was a way stressful day. We got a call from DD4's doctor saying that her bloodwork came back positive for MRSA. I started freaking out! We had him test some sores on her fingers that we thought were ingrown fingernails, but that was 3 weeks ago and he gave us an antibiotic for that. he said that if the infection did not clear up to call him back. Well with the antibiotic the infection cleared right up so we didn't call him. And he didn't call us so we thought that all was well until today.
SO I took her in and he was shocked that the infection had cleared up. He said that the antibiotic he gave us shouldn't have killed MRSA, so he thinks that her body is killing it on its own. He gave me a perscription for a shampoo and now I have to clean the house top to bottom and get her new towel and sheets (he said I could just wash mine, but I am not taking any chances). I am just peeved that it took three weeks to tell me this and she is not contagious now, but was 3 weeks ago. So now I have to try to think of all the places she was 3 weeks ago and let those people know. Of course he told me that it was just in her hands and it can only be transferred if there are open sores, but I still think that I should tell people. Plus, she is going to have this until she doesn't whatever that means. I am thankful though that it is not as bad as some of the MRSA cases I read about while I was freaking out this morning.
I did not do so good on the diet today. I am an emotional eater and dd wanted a happy meal so we went to Mcdonalds and I told her that if she was good I would get her ice cream after the doctor so we had ice cream cones after. Tomorrow will be a better day.
So, at my daughters dance class all of us mom's were talking about excercise a few weeks ago, and my sister in law mentioned that there were enought of us to make an aerobics class. So, the teacher called up one of her instructors and today was the first class. I actually forgot anf had to go home and change. I really enjoyed it though. It was pretty low impact and I am a pretty coordinated gal, so I had fun. Until that is my ds2 decided that watching mom excercise was not so much fun. He threw a royal fit and I had to stop. I will have to see if I can get Granny to watch him next week. It is only for 45 minutes while the kiddos are dancing. Now the sad part, well sad for me because I am kinda dramatic- I am so fat!!!!! I know that is not positive, but looking in the mirror while excercising was sooooo depressing. Why is it that our minds play tricks on us? That fat girl is not the one that I see every morning in my mirror. Why do I look okay in the light of my own bathroom, and then next to the skinny moms look like a beached whale shaking her groove thing?! I am so depressed. But I guess that it is just more incentive to get skinny. sigh!
So I am stopping weight watchers for awhile. The money is just not there for meetings right now. But I don't want to stop losing weight. My mom has the ww online and I have my ep buddies so I think that I can stay motivated. WW was most affectivie from the accountablility so I am going to weigh in at my mom's each week (she is still going to meetings), and I plan to keep track of what I eat and continue to excercise. This is my year and by the end I want to be more of a cute dolphin shaking her groove thing!
So, i have not been on here lately, my life has been really busy. but drumroll please i finally have lost 10 pounds! I am so excited. It is just what I need to get serious and realize that I can do this. I am thankful for the support of friends and all the encouragement that I receive from my ep buddies. I will do this this time! I will lose the weight.
So on a really fun note. I get to get a pedicure now. I can't wait. I have wanted to get one since before Christmas, but promised myself that I would wait until I lost 10 pounds. Now I can't decide if I want a classic look, or a french tip, or something crazy and fun since it's winter and no one really sees my feet except for at church. All the possibilities...
So I can't decide what my present to myself for the next 10 pounds should be. I want it to be something fun and selfishly just for me. Any ideas? Gotta run laundry.
So I feel like crap! my throat hurts, my nose is all stuffy, and my head hurts. I am so tired b/c I can't sleep when I feel like this. I haven't excercised in 2 days and I am not planning on it today. And the kids have today off school so ds is home. And I am supposed to clean the whole house b/c we have company coming tomorrow. And I am still in my pjs. I am definitely needing some motivation here.
So I don't really feel like blogging but I needed an excuse not to get started on the cleaning. Okay I am just going to suck it up. Oh but first while I am complaining--I dragged (is that a word) my sick body out of bed and down to KFC to bring my hubby lunch today. (Chicken breast without skin 3pts, mashed potatoes and gravy 3 pts. and corn on the cob 1pt) I thought it was a pretty good lunch. When I brought it into him, he said he wasn't hungry and didn't really like chicken anyway. How about "Thanks my sweetheart for dragging your sick self and 3 screaming kids out of the house just to make sure I didn't starve or worse eat leftover pizza"? Nope. I know I am being such a baby but I don't feel well.
So that's all. i'm going to take a nap--I mean start the laundry. *wink*
So, last night we had a family night. When dh got home we went to the park (the weather is gorgeous) and played "baseball" with a tennis racket and squisy ball. The kids didn't really get the concept- well ds did. DD-4 said that she didn't want to play and couldn'e we just watch the boys and say "yea team?" She is so not a tomboy. But she did join in after a while. When they lost interest we pushed them on the swings for awhile and then went to McDonald's for dinner. The kids had gift cards from Christmas and wanted happy meals. They were out of salads!! Can you believe that? So I had a kids size hamburger, diet coke and ice cream cone. Ice cream cones are 3 points according to my book. I did knock off about the top half though just incase. It was so much fun. To just be us. I mostly did it cuz dh needs to fit excercise in somewhere and if I disguise it as fun he is more likely to do it. The kids loved it, and I decided that we need to do more as a family. maybe we'll go see that veggie tales movie this weekend.
So my excercise has not been anything inspiring lately. I swear the eliptical at the gym must be a different one than I got for Christmas, b/c I can only do 5 minutes on mine before I want to die!! This week I am going for 6, but when I get off I have to lie down, and my legs feel like jelly. I know- so pathetic! But I figure that if I keep at it, I will eventually be able to do it for 30 minutes straight. Go me!
So, I had weigh in last night drumroll please.............I lost 5.2 pounds this week! I am so excited. Yes I know that it is the first week, but I am still so jazzed. My dh only lost 1.8 (hee hee). He didn't do so well on his business trip and he told me that he has been sneaking food after I go to bed. But now he is going to take it seriously. He said that he is not competing with me, but there is another guy at our meetings and he has lost 10 pounds so far so dh says "it is on" he can't let another guy beat him. Men- go figure!
So I am very motivated, I know that I can do this. This week my goal is to excercise everyday. My mil gave me her old "sweatin' to the oldies" videos. I love those! I know that it is way cheesy, but Richard Simmons and all those "big" people shaking their things just makes me smile. If they can do it I can do it, right?
So after the meeting, my sister calls me and tells me that she is pregnant. I am so happy for her b/c she has reallybeen trying for a while now. I am semi-bummed though b/c I always told her that if she got pregnant I would try to have another baby too, so we could have them close in age. But I am doing so well I want to keep losing weight, plus I don't think that my body is healthy enough to carry a baby right now. I don;t want the risks that come with being overweight and pregnant.
So we'll see. Right now I am focusing on me and getting healthy. maybe in a few months I'll think about getting pregnant. We'll see.
So, DH is away on his trip. Yesterday was an okay day for me. I stayed on points (accept for finishing off the french fried that the kids didn't eat, but that's what the points allowance is for right). But I didn't excercise. Plus, I didn't get much sleep last night b/c I never sleep well without my sweetie next to me. And I was worried b/c he didn't call when he landed so I figured that his flight was delayed. but then his mom called and said that she hadn't heard from him (he's a little bit of a momma's boy) and was worried b/c she had seen on the news that the weather was really bad where he was going. So then I started freaking out and imagining all the bad things that could have happened to him. So I ate 2 packages of those 100 calorie chocolate cupcakes ( thank goodness I had the points for them). What can I say? I stress and then I eat chocolate. It's a good thing that he called just as I was polishing off the second package, or who knows what would have happened! :)
So, this morning after getting DS off to school and already refereeing fights between the other 2 (Dora saves me again). I am tired and grouchy and do not want to excercise. So there!! my plan is to do the eliptical after the kids are in bed tonight. Did I say that the eliptical has a tetris type game on it that you can play while you run? It is pretty cool. Or maybe we will walk to get the mail today, it is about a quarter mile away, and dd has wanted to ride her bike. I'm not hungry so that is a good thing.
So, Monday I went back to ww with my hubby in tow. He did great. I had to laugh at him though, because I told him that he didn't have to do anything at meetings just listen and only say something if he wants to. Then the first thing the leader does is a group activity. She asks us all to find someone that we don't know and ask a couple of question. I gave him a "sorry" look which was returned with a "not what I want to do" look, but it all turned out okay.
So, I am fatter than ever. Nice! And now I can say that I need to lose 100 pounds. so that's great. I have to lose more than I have ever lost before just to get to my 10% goal.
So, our first official day on program my mil had surgery. It was pretty stressful, but she is fine now, and I did great staying on points. DH ate a cheeseburger and fries for lunch, but compensated by having no dinner so I guess that is okay. I got a salad instead of french fries and I am so proud of myself. I have noticed that I eat out of boredom a lot. I am way full, but was still looking for something to eat. At least I can recognize it though. So that's a step. I am going to take my measurements tonight. My sweet hubby has a business trip this weekend so I won't be there to tell him what to eat. I am nervous for him.
So. I changed the name of my blog. Hawaii was more than 2 years ago and obviously that ship has sailed. I decided that I am going to stay positive from now on. No looking back (or at least no dwelling on the past). Hukuna Matata as a dear friend of mine would say. So this is my year. The year that I finally stop giving excuses and do something about not only my weight but my health. My kids are getting to the age where they will notice that mommy is fat and I really don't want that. Plus, I was looking through pictures and I'm not in any. So, if anything ever happened to me there wouldn't be much left to remember me by.
So how is this year going to be different? What has changed? Well nothing really except I am now heavier than I was when my last baby was born. And frankly, that disgusts me. I have buried my head in the sand long enough. Also, now I have my husband by my side. He has always supported me, but now he wants to get healthy with me. We used to be so active and we miss that.
So the plan...First we (yes my husband too) are going to join weight watchers and help each other stick to the plan. We have set some mini goals and rewards for staying on plan. Next, I am going to excercise daily (except Sunday). There is this great thing on ivillage that is helping me track what I do. And lastly, I am going to try to reduce the stress in my life or at least learn how to deal with it better. I am going to take time for just me each week and a small block of time each day. And my husband is going to take me out on a date once a week.
I am not going to say that I am excited, because while I am happy to be doing this with my husband, I know that it is going to be hard work and not easy. However, I will say that I am looking forward to being healthy. I think I am a sucker for the placebo effect. I bought this lotion that said energy lotion and eventhough every ounce of me knows that there is no such thing as "energy" anything I felt more energetic. I can get myself to believe almost anything if I try hard enough. So, if I can get my self to BELIEVE that I can lose weight then I will. Simple right! I can do this. I will do this. 2008 is gonna be great!!! Hee hee so inspirational, right!
So I just got done writing this huge post about what is happening and how I am doing, then I went to preview it and it wouldn't come up so I went back and my post was gone. I am not happy. So this is my post for today, maybe I will feel like writing my other post later.
