06/03/2010 00:28
My form of punishment... FOOD
I haven't been on here since January. I've done alot of self work on myself since then... the good news is. I haven't gained a pound. But I haven't lost a pound either. I even went on Nutrisystem and that didn't work.
I'm really convinced that I have to fix whatever is making me eat like this and treat myself this way... I love food, I don't really enjoy eating it two minutes after I eat it... but it's kind of like my therapy. Well i'm gonna get back on my horse and ride her no matter what I have to do.
I'm just going to keep trying until something clicks...until I "CAN" be better. It's not a matter of wanting, because the want is there.
There's always so many reasons not to isn't there? And how many times can we start a diet.... saying today is my last day for eating anything like that...
grrrr....
Glasses of water up.... TO STARTING... once again... and to making something click...
01/18/2010 00:36
OH MAN!!! I'm getting back on track like a mad woman! I lost 21 pounds in 10 days. I think alot of it was Water, haha
I can't believe how well i'm doing. For the past 10 days I have ate nothing but the Cabbage Diet soup,(i'm going to continue the soup for another 8 days) I did have one bad day where I had Peperoni Cheese Pizza. I have been drinking Water with a tiny bit of Apple Cider Vinegar mixed in. (I really don't like water) weird I know and the Vinegar helps with water retention.
My clothes are starting to fit again. My biggest fear is that I will fall off the wagon again... I hope I can hang on this time.
Along with my diet I have been taking a postpartum multi-viteman at the advice of my doctor, he said these have more folic acid and iron then most multi's. At his recommendation I have been doing Yoga and Walking on the treadmill. He said that walking at a pace that I can still carry a conversation and not be winded will actually burn fat. Getting winded and going crazy will burn Carbs. He said doing the walking is way better for me at my weight and will help me lose more. HE'S RIGHT!!!
SO FAR SO GOOD!!! I feel like shouting from the roof tops. 
01/09/2010 01:31
Up 30 pounds since I last logged in...
I'm back, i'm here. It's been almost a year since I last logged in. Since then I have ganged 30 pounds. I can't believe this, wait I can.
MY PROMISE TO MYSELF:
I'm going to stick to it, i'm going to kick my own arse. I have to. This is no way to live.
I can feel myself dieing, it's hard to breathe, it's hard to tie my shoes... it's hard to feel sexy. It's hard to like myself. - it won't be when I get done.
03/12/2009 23:28
Bread vs Pita
I don't know if it's just my body type but switching from Bread to Pita Bread in the last week I have lost 2.5pds. That's amazing for me. I only eat bread for lunch (I have the typical sandwich daily of whole wheat bread... now i'm on whole wheat pita... i'm liking it.
Have a great week people out there :)
03/06/2009 01:53
RANT: Why is it that SOME people think it's ok to tell you how to DIET???? And they are usually the ones that have never had a w
This week has been going well, work has been crazy and usually and although I have been wanting to stuff my face with all my comfort foods... I HAVE NOT. Yesterday my mom did something that she has never done before, she bought me a Caramel Machiatto and left it with our Receptionist as a nice surprise for me.
Yup I know it's full of calories and fat... and god knows what else... but LORD it tastes so good and I have been so good... and it was a treat/gift. So I was soooooo HAPPPPPPPPPPPPYYYYYY that someone thought of me....
Now knowone at work knows i'm dieting. I don't talk about it. Another employee noticed that I had just gotton it, rather than saying wow that was really nice of your mother... etc. She proceeded to tell me how many calories it was and how discusting it was and that being my size I should stick to coffee.
MAD???????????? I can't even go there, and being that this was coming from someone that was just hired, I can't belive the unprofessionalism. oh and the fact that she looks like Paris Hilton totally on a nother level.
Set all that aside and well, yup she hit a nerve. I should'nt have let that get to me but I guess I am now realizing how much my weight is bothering me.
Anyways that's my rant for the week. Thanks for reading 
03/01/2009 22:55
A BLOG VIRGIN
Well this is my first post. I'm very new to this, I hope I find my way. 
Today the weather is horrible, I hear that brand new Treadmill in my spare bedroom calling my name, however I can't seem to find the energy to get on it. I wish I had a personal trainer yelling at me 24/5... that way I wouldn't feel so bad when the weekend comes. I feel guilty because i'm to tired to exercise when I get home and on the weekends i'm to tired again... then I feel guilty because I should be lucky that I have legs to get on the treadmill... awwww
I'm going to search for some energy now.
