Thats exactly how I feel today guys!! Bloody bollocks to it!!......I had a crap time, I felt shit, I ate chocolate!! I didn't rob a bank or inject heroin for gods sake(!!!) so am gonna give myself a bit of a break.
Have got myself back on track gym wise today and am starting my 'f.i.t' group challange so yeah me!
I have gone over my cals today without really realising but I ate out today and I am feeling stuffed now so I know that my portion size at tea was too big but hey ho-...shoot me!! I exercised those bonus calories off anyways so have just worked out to be even rather than thinner lol Bollocks!! Lol
The way I see it this time is I'm starting a new journey with a completely new set of rules to follow and if I make mistakes and learn from them then I'm not gonna beat myself up too much....Just talk about it for hours on here trying to reason with myself lol!
I have to say I'm a bit mad with myself cos I am REALLY dreading WI tomorrow!!!
I always get to this point in the week and think for fu*ks sake you silly bit#h!! Stop eating, you moose!, and you'd have fu#k all to worry about!!! lol
Oh well too late now I guess... so will just go to bed early, dream about being chased by giant sized scales, Pluck my eyebrows and shave my pits in the morn to ensure all possible excess weight is removed and see how we go...lol
Well what can I say!! What a shit shit shit wend. Went out last night and bumped in to two ex boyfriend swith their new girlfriends on e mate who's mum had dies that day and one other 'friend' who's seeing another ex of mine and we don't dpeak anymore!!!
Came home depressed, ate chocolate...woke up miserable and had chocolate for breaksfast lol!!!
So much for my saintly 'will give myself a break at the weekends but not not not go over 2200 cals'
My friend actually shouts that evry morning when we're away camping lol....can't tell ya how annoying it is after a night sleeping on the ground lol xx
Forgot to mention yesterday what a challenging day its gonna be for me food wise. :-( Am off to my grandmas for lunch then out to a friends for drinks and canapes Lol...I wish what that actually means in Jennis world is Baileys chocolate and crisps AGH!!!!!!!! Send me don't do it vibes please
Ok heres the thing......How are us saintly dieters supposed to cope with social events??!! I bloody love my kid free nights and refuse to spend them sat in on my own munching a carrot stick!!
So, new logic is be extremely gd during the week, exercise frequently and stick to 1200 cals. (according to that calorie quiz I did if i stick to that i should lose 2 lb a week) Then, at the weekends (which in my head could easily become fri-sun lol ) allow myself up too but NOT exceeding 2226 which is what i need to stick too to lose half a pound a week. What do you guys reck? Can't see how that'd lead to an increase if i'm extremely honest about what i do eat........only one way to tell i guess.
I've just let weight rule my life for so long I don't wanna miss out on good times/ events for the sake of it. Does that make sense? I have in no way lost my focus or intend to stop this journey but I want a life too.
And quite genuienly and i am not making excuses for myself to eat/binge, I am worse if I just don't allow myself the odd treat! And if I do, the food doesn't have as much of a power over me. Check me out trying to make myself not feel guilty for something I might do!! lol
And an update on the old celevac....fab fab fab!!!! Had 2 doses of it today. Left half of what i cooked for tea (cous cous, tuna and beetroot salad) and half of the choc I'd budgeted for today!!!! So far I cannot recommend it enough!!
Am keeping the salad in the fridge and will have that for lunch tomorrow and not have to count it in tomorrows cals....fab fab fab!!!! Especially as I am out visiting friends tomorrow night....friends who've brought baileys in especially....is there anything worse a dieter could consume?! lol
Well I hope everyones had a gd day and hope to hear from you all soon
Hello guys. I am feeling SO much better today!! Sorry about being all miserable yesterday!- this whole dieting malarky really gets me down sometimes but I know I'm not alone so big apologies if I brought anyone down with me last nite xxx
Well my very exciting news is that my legendary boss introduced me to a pill called Celevac. Has anybody else tried it?
You can buy it over the counter from the chemist at £4.75 for approx 12 days worth ( a bargin I think we'll all agree! And less then we pay our wonderful friends at our slimming clubs for a weekly 3 second rental of their scales!)
As if it couldn't get any better its not even moderately related to speed in any way shape or form so it won't have you dancing the night away and feeling like hangin ya self through ya knicker leg the following day! Its basically fibre. Thats it pure and simple and it does exactly what 'it says on the tin'. It tricks your tummy into thinking its full so you don't get those awful hunger pans.
I've had a great day today and I put it all down to this. i've spent all afternoon at work just worrying about normal things instead of OBCESSING about my gut!!! Its been FAB!!!
Well surprisingly enough I am actually feeling quite positive at the mo. My problem is that I get so worked up about being hungry I frighten myself. Now before you think I have completely lost the plot, the history of that is that I used to suffer from 'bulemia with anorexic tendancies'. Basically put I used to avoid food all day because I was obcessed with my weight and then be so hungry come the evening I would binge on revolting amounts of stuff, feel repulsed with myself and then spend two hours in the toilet purging it back up!! Was an awful way to live and one I would not recommend to anyone! If any body reading this is contemplating it or actually doing it please please please get help!! It only gets worse and before you realise it it is in complete control of your whole life at devastating speed. The mental and physical torture you put yourself through is undescribable and it never goes away but it does ease with time.
I think I'm so frightened I'll go back to my old ways that I literally worry myself stupid ALL day thinking I'm gonna slip back.
This is what I hate the most about dieting guys.....It's 11:40am and I am miserable. I've got hours to go until bed time and already I am feeling hungry, tired and demotivated......Does anybody else feel like this?? I'm sure there is something wrong with me cos I just feel hungry ALL of the time!!!
Well after my disasters of the last couple of days calorie wise, I've decided to be organised and plan my days meals in advance. Good God isn't it depressing when you know by ten to nine in the morning that you're gonna be hungry and miserable all day lol loads....Power through Jen power through!!
Have work today so in theory that should keep me distracted but you should see the amount of biscuits and chocolates that are lying in wait for me by the kettle!!! For a doctors surgery we are a very unhealthy lot lol! Think its the stress of the job that only a chocolate biscuit can make better !!
You see thats the other thing...the sneeky minxes....why why why do chocolate biscuits and other delicious treats have that power over us anyway??!! Kill them all...by crushing them with our teeth and drowning them in our stomach juices obviously lol!!
Off to the gym now guys...or at least thats what I keep telling myself anyway lol
On god guys truly I am hysterically funny!!! Lol Years of dieting, or at least attempting too, I've done and I still had to do the 'how many calories does my body need' quiz.
I genuienly think that I actually live in denial all of the time!! I had over double it yesterday and 400 over it today!! Yesterday wasn't a diet day by the way, I did hear all your gasps and jaws hitting the floor lol!! xxx
Right drastic changes are called for tomorrow!! I must must must spend my 1199 calories wisely and take inspiration from some of you guys on here
Well I faced a challenge today and I almost won lol!! I had to take my son to a birthday party tonight. U know the sort, Cakes and biscuits galore and the mum had done the usual and prepared enough to feed the whole school never mind just the kids in her sons class!!
My problem is I LOVE picky food like that with a passion!! Sausage rolls, egg mayo sandwiches, Cheese and pineapple, crisps, chocolate fingers.....Ah Yum!! My mouth is salivating just typing the words!! And when the kids ask you to look after their plate so they can go and play for a minute its the equivalent of torture for me!!
I survived though people with only a custard cream devoured!! (She types with a smug grin) Oh how high and mighty we feel when we've had a rare success hey lol
I am sure their is something wrong with me though...cos seriously people I can pack food away like I'm never gonna eat again and still feel hungry. 3 jacket potatoes and two tins of veg I've had for my tea tonight!!! Thats insane. I'm sure even shrek doesn't eat as much as I do lol
