I am so chuffed with myself!! I bloody did it!! I lost weight!!!
Was first weigh in at slimming world this week and I lost 7 lbs!! I got a nice shiny sticker to stick on my book and a big pat on the back from myself! Isn't it funny how the little stickers feel like such a massive reward lol!! Or am I just being childish! Oh who cares
Quite a bit is gonna be changing in my life actually. I've had my hours increased at work which I wanted because I need the money so but it means that I'll have to stop the gym . I know it sounds like a cop out but I struggle enough at the moment keeping the house/kids/life ticking over there's just no way I can add on another 10 hours a week working without letting something give and the only thing I have the power to stop is the gym.
Am gonna try and start doing stuff like walking to school then work instead and maybe try doing some exercises at home when the kids are in bed but we'll just have to see how that goes.
Anyways must dash have washing to put away and chores to do! Will check up on you all tomorrow xx
Thank god its Friday!!! I am so tired lol!! I feel like an old woman!!
Me and the kids are just so gonna chill tonight and have a lie in in the morning. J's football training was originally cancelled but is now back on again but I think we're skip that in favour of some much needed lazing in bed!!
I've had to wake the kids up every morning this week for school. They've both had exams all week and are exhausted!!
Have been inspired by a members blog to try and add in a bit of swimming too. Reck I'm gonna check out times and prices and see if I can fit it in. Might start going on a sat with the kids or summin. Am def gonna take out a membership at our open air pool this year. I think it'll be lovely in the summer to pop down there after school for an hour. the kids come out so hot having been stuck in stuffy classrooms all day!!
Diet is going ok. Am just plodding along really. Don't feel like I've lost or gained really. My moto at the mo is put the choc down and you can have the malibu later lol
I did it ladies....I bit the bullet and joined slimming world!
Leader was just as much of a sly cow as ever but hey ho.....Kinda hoping that I might be spurred on to never give her the oppourtunity to put me down in front of the group by always losing!
Sorted out our bikes today. Theres nothing much wrong with them except that I've assembled them lol! Cos I have lady hands I can't do up the bolts tight enough so it results in the gears/brakes messing up after a while. Went to go and book them into our local bike shop for a m.o.t but they were gonna charge me £35 per bike!!! No way can I afford that!! The bikes were only worth double that themselves so not gonna pay that sort of money!! Have just tightened them up and am gonna have to hope for the best I guess.
The idea is that every tues morn and afternoon we will bike to school and back-weather permitting obviously!! I will never be someone who bikes in the rain when I have a car sat on the drive lol!!
On a weds and a thurs morn I will walk with my bike while the kids are on their scooters and then bike home from the gym.
Its complicated but basically thats the only way we can do it cos I work at other school drop off/collection times so it'd mean carting their bikes around In other peoples cars etc....nothings ever easy is it hey lol
All in all I guess its been a gd day...and I guess I'm actually loookin forward to starin the diet tomorrow cos am hoping this'll be the change so I can start feeling better about myself/things
Do ya know there was a woman at my group who has lost 6 1/2 stone since October!!!! OMG!! ....Think she thought I was jokin when I said I was movin in with her next week and having her cook all my meals for me lol xx
Well off to go check on the slimming world web site then off to bed so I've got the energy to follow my bike-a-thon idea through lol xx
Any UK ladies that are following slimmin world but not going to the meetings and wanna check out their site the password this week is skipping but ssh!!...I didn't tell ya lol
Realisticly today is a stupid day to start my diet as I'm off to a cheese and wine party tonight so was set up to fail already....
Not been awful. Had porridge this morn using my a and b choices, then had big bowl of frosties for lunch ......Then I felt shit about eating that so had a cornetto ice cream!! Gotta laugh at ya self haven't ya! I might add that they are the new cornetto minis that are like 3 syns so not a complete wash out!
I am gonna enjoy tonight and take it easy tomorrow then join slimming world on mon. Cannot even begin to afford it but gotta do summin! And girls please please please if I don't join this time climb down the phone line and whoop my ars into gear!
Damn those bloody good old friends who (purely for your own good) sit you down to have a chat about how fat you are and how lovely you used to look and how are you planning to get back to there.....Ugh LOl
And damn that her saying that just made me wolf down 2 rocky bars as soon as she left!!
Hello ladies, sorry its been a while. Hope everyone is ok? Am gonna go check on everyone after I've posted.
Well life is just ticking along here really. Am still carrying on with the healty eating involving the family. We're planning our meals together a week in advance and just shopping once a week to avoid adding temptations on regular shopping trips. We are having treats but they are always planned and small.
Absolutely no change in the old weight or inches which is really getting me down but not much else I can do unfortunately. I had my contraceptive implant taken out on wednesday evening to see if that'll help and I'm gonna cut down on the portion sizes we have as a family but we don't have big portions anyway so not sure if that'll work but fingers crossed!
Work is going really well. Had my review on Wednesday and they've changed me from junior temp to permanent regular staff so am well chuffed!! I have two small pay rises with that and an increase in hours so hopefully finances will be a bit better from now on.
At the mo I returned to work in November after studying for a year and living on state benefits. Because of our wondeful system I am now working 24 hours a week for less money than I received sitting on my bum!! And still the government wonder why so many people refuse to work!! lol
I've also received a call form the police yesterday to say they have tracked down the guy who assaulted me last year and are now liasing with the army with regard to bringing him back from Germany where he'll be arrested and questioned. Thats gd news but also very frightening/intimidating news too but my friends are being very supportive.
The weather here had been lovely the last couple of days so that always cheers everyone up. Have even got my white legs out lol!
Haven't been to the gym this week because I hurt my ankle at work last thursday. One of the children ran off whilst we were on the school field at play time. I did the heroic mad dash wearing silly shoes and fell ar$ over tit in front of all the kids which they found most ammusing lol!!
Dating side of things, have taken my name off the dating site. They're are just so many wierdos on there lol!! I'm prob extra cautious now and over sensitive but still......Have still kept in touch with one guy though and we're planning drinks again soon so will just go with the flow on that one and see where it takes us.
Ok think thats all my news so will go chjeck in on everyone else now. Have a great weekend guys and take care xx
Well I was well chuffed with myself last nite. Went to a friends. The idea was we were both on the same diet so we'd have a healthy tea and then enjoy a bottle of wine. Turned out when I got there she'd opted to get a takeaway instead.........ugh!! Not very bloody often I'm actually feeling motivated and must admit I was disappointed that I was gonna have to cheat.
Anyways we had chinese and I chose as wisely as I could. Then I put out half my food, ate slowly, indulged in a few prawn crackers and a couple of chips too so not completely saintly by any means....but I only ate until I was comfortably full and left what was in my plate. I was actually really surprised just how much slower I was eating than my friend. It was awful, she ate and ate then devoured a whole big bar of choc too and then had to go vomit cos she felt too guilty. I love her to death and she appreciates that I don't judge her cos I've been there and understand how she feels but from a completely selfish point of view, It was grt to realise how far I've come with my bingeing/purging......I'm still a complete moose and parts of me wobble uncontrably when I brush my teeth but I'm a mentally stronger whale than I was a couple of years back.
I will stand by her every step of the way till she's better but I'm so glad I have more control over it now
Its really motivated me which I think is what I needed
Well I'm still plodding along with this whole diet thing and getting absolutely bloody nowehere!! Am so pi$$ed off!!!! It's so disheartening!
To go off subject kinda a minute...I'm giving the whole dating website another go at the mo.Well thats not strictly true as I've removed my profile now but have had a couple of dates. After all thats been going on I just decided life is too short not to try new things.
So my first date was with one of my ex husbands friends lol. Not close friend or anything and I did get back in touch with him through smooch.com so only felt marginally bad about it. Anyways was brickin it all week cos although he has seen me at this size before after I had my son, the last time he saw me I was 2 stone lighter!! So I was well nervous before I met up with him....Now I know this is going to sound really horrid cos he's a lovely guy but he'd piled on the weight big time since I'd last seen him too and I am very ashamed to say that I was just not attracted to him in the slightest because of it!! Isn't that awful!! I'd of been mortified if he'd have thought the same but to be fair to myself I really did give it a go. I spent all of the following sunday with him and had a smooch when I dropped him off, but there was just absolutely nothin there!!
My other news is that I am fast approaching lookin like a water bottle lol!! I have never drunk so much water regularly in my life!! I'm like weein every half hour lol!! And still bug*er all weight is droppin off :-( Any suggestions?
Am contemplating ordering some Phen off the internet because my doctors won't given me anything to help my weight loss. Just referred me to that nurse and even though I only have one more appt left with her and I've done all she's asked and lost naff all they still won't offer any meds because my BMI is now .2% below the criteria. Phen has also been banned over here....Noone on here's had any bad experiences on it have they?
Caught up on everyones blogs earlier....girls your all doing so well....Am well proud of all of ya and just wanted to say cheers for being an inspiration!!
Hey everyone...I just need to spill again for a while
Thank u to everyone who replied earlier. your thoughts/comments are much appreciated
I guess I just don't get it guys!!....Yes life is pretty sh*t most of the time!.....I get that!!...I sympathise and Jesus don't we all have problems!; but God, where do these people get off doing what they do?!!....Like them ending it all is the solution!!...Solution to who??....The selfish Twa**ing answer is them and them alone!!
Everything they're running away from still happens!!!....All the debt collectors/idiot boyfriends and crappy circumstances still happen....it's just their family/friends that have to pick up the pieces once they're gone!!
How do people do it?....As mothers, how do they leave their children guys?....How do they expect someone to possibly explain?....How fu*kin dare they think it's appropiate for children to have to comprehend these shitty shitty situations?!!!
Life stinks, but do u know what, its what we bloody well make it and thats what people need to realise/understand!
Suicide isn't an answer/resolution!....It's a whole bunch of cr*p that you're ultimately just unloading onto the people who you 'so say' care about, want to save from all of this rubbish by what? killing yourself?!!!......That evens sounds insane and completely, completely illogical!!!
People, we are so special...If we can't see it for ourselves then look in the eyes of the people who love us....Imagine yourself sitting down and watching them being told your not here anymore.....Imagine them trying to get out of bed the following morning and every piggin morning to follow and try and make sense of it all in their heads!!
My children are so so special to me and I know I'm not alone! And do you know what ? I will bloody stay here, on this earth, and fight every piece of cr*p that comes my way...I will deal with every bad day and shit*y feeling that's to come and do my best to resolve it...but i can guarantee you, one thing I will never ever do is leave them to clean up after me!
At work I deal with people who are dying every day and liase with their families who are desperately trying to find answers....answers we just can't give; and someone with 'problems' goes and does this......It just beggars belief!!!
Guys if u need me, I will be here.......We are all so special, every last flabby ounce of us! And the world just would not function the same without us....remember that please...cos the alternative is just unthinkable
Vix and Nicky, I love you and will always think of u.....but I can never forgive u for what you've left behind.....I'm only sorry you decided not to ask for help and although I don't agree with what you've done, i hope to God you meant to do it....cos if that was your stupid stupid way of trying to get our attention....I'd of been there, even if you'd only whispered to me
Becky and Hayley, I'm so glad your still here....but secretly I dread the day I'll be writing this about you....Don't make me do it- please...I will beg u on my knees if I have too
. I know it sounds like a cop out but I struggle enough at the moment keeping the house/kids/life ticking over there's just no way I can add on another 10 hours a week working without letting something give and the only thing I have the power to stop is the gym.
......Then I felt shit about eating that so had a cornetto ice cream!! 