Testing day
Hey there. Am trying to power through a family party today.
Have done so well so far. NOt completely stuck to plan but have eaten the best i possibly could have done with what was presented too me.
I took the batter off the quorn piece that was cooked for me. Discarded the pasta from the lasagne and the sauce from the lemon chicken. 
Skipped dessert and had two very small squares of flap jack. Both bits together would be just over the size of a small match box.
Prob is now I'm feeling tired and low and hungry and they're all back munching and drinking again!!! Ugh!
I HATE family get togethers with a passion. I am the toital black sheep and over recent years I have made that more and more prominent in my head. I guess its with everything thats happened and me trying to explore who I am I'm realising that I am more and more different.
Def not a happy day today 
. I'm really really pineing after that guy I was seeing lately. I just miss him so so much.
and then once theyre in your head you cant think of anything/one else! Bummer