Takeaway triumph!!
Hey all....hope your having a grt day
Well I was well chuffed with myself last nite. Went to a friends. The idea was we were both on the same diet so we'd have a healthy tea and then enjoy a bottle of wine. Turned out when I got there she'd opted to get a takeaway instead.........ugh!! Not very bloody often I'm actually feeling motivated and must admit I was disappointed that I was gonna have to cheat.
Anyways we had chinese and I chose as wisely as I could. Then I put out half my food, ate slowly, indulged in a few prawn crackers and a couple of chips too so not completely saintly by any means....but I only ate until I was comfortably full and left what was in my plate. I was actually really surprised just how much slower I was eating than my friend. It was awful, she ate and ate then devoured a whole big bar of choc too and then had to go vomit cos she felt too guilty. I love her to death and she appreciates that I don't judge her cos I've been there and understand how she feels but from a completely selfish point of view, It was grt to realise how far I've come with my bingeing/purging......I'm still a complete moose and parts of me wobble uncontrably when I brush my teeth but I'm a mentally stronger whale than I was a couple of years back.
I will stand by her every step of the way till she's better but I'm so glad I have more control over it now
Its really motivated me which I think is what I needed
xx