God I just don't understand!

Hey everyone...I just need to spill again for a while

Thank u to everyone who replied earlier. your thoughts/comments are much appreciated

I guess I just don't get it guys!!....Yes life is pretty sh*t most of the time!.....I get that!!...I sympathise and Jesus don't we all have problems!; but God, where do these people get off doing what they do?!!....Like them ending it all is the solution!!...Solution to who??....The selfish Twa**ing answer is them and them alone!!

Everything they're running away from still happens!!!....All the debt collectors/idiot boyfriends and crappy circumstances still happen....it's just their family/friends that have to pick up the pieces once they're gone!!

How do people do it?....As mothers, how do they leave their children guys?....How do they expect someone to possibly explain?....How fu*kin dare they think it's appropiate for children to have to comprehend these shitty shitty situations?!!!

Life stinks, but do u know what, its what we bloody well make it and thats what people need to realise/understand!

Suicide isn't an answer/resolution!....It's a whole bunch of cr*p that you're ultimately just unloading onto the people who you 'so say' care about, want to save from all of this rubbish by what? killing yourself?!!!......That evens sounds insane and  completely, completely illogical!!!

People, we are so special...If we can't see it for ourselves then look in the eyes of the people who love us....Imagine yourself sitting down and watching them being told your not here anymore.....Imagine them trying to get out of bed the following morning and every piggin morning to follow and try and make sense of it all in their heads!!

My children are so so special to me and I know I'm not alone! And do you know what ? I will bloody stay here, on this earth, and fight every piece of cr*p that comes my way...I will deal with every bad day and shit*y feeling that's to come and do my best to resolve it...but i can guarantee you, one thing I will never ever do is leave them to clean up after me!

At work I deal with people who are dying every day and liase with their families who are desperately trying to find answers....answers we just can't give; and someone with 'problems' goes and does this......It just beggars belief!!!

Guys if u need me, I will be here.......We are all so special, every last flabby ounce of us! And the world just would not function the same without us....remember that please...cos the alternative is just unthinkable

Vix and Nicky, I love you and will always think of u.....but I can never forgive u for what you've left behind.....I'm only sorry you decided not to ask for help and although I don't agree with what you've done, i hope to God you meant to do it....cos if that was your stupid stupid way of trying to get our attention....I'd of been there, even  if you'd only whispered to me

Becky and Hayley, I'm so glad your still here....but secretly I dread the day I'll be writing this about you....Don't make me do it- please...I will beg u on my knees if I have too

xx

Wow

I agree with you that suicide is horrible and worse for the ones that are left behind. My thoughts are with you its horrible that you've had to deal with it. But for me nothing is that bad that  I would choose to willingly take my own life and I have been through some stuff.........but awesome entry btw stay stong :)

It's selfish

It's a selfish cowardance act.  I don't care how you cut it.  When you are healthy and you have family and friends who care that's what comes to mind.  I will NEVER understand it either.  (((HUGS)))

hiya babe

thanks for the mail :) sounds like u've been havin a rough time (((BIG HUGS))) . I dread to think wots goin on in peoples minds when they commit suicide and hope and pray that i neva get confronted with a situation like that.  by the way,its nice to 'see' you at last is that a genetically engineered giant pineapple behind u there LOL

Hi...

Just checking in to see if your'e oK?

Sorrry your'e having a rough time of it.

Thinking of you

Speak soon

xx

Selfish

IMO it is the most selfish thing a person can do.

You're right...everyone who loves you is left to pick up the pieces.

Hang in there girl!