I have been walking a mile every morning before work. I noticed yesterday that I wasn't really 'breathing'. No wonder I have been a wreck! So I made sure to breathe really well yesterday, nice deep breaths......in through the nose and out through the mouth. I feel like a new woman!! I forgot how important it is to breath......how sad is that ? LOL!!! What did I discover?
more patience with kids
more concentration
more energy
more relaxed
I'm still doing great. I cut out my morning cup of cappuccino. I think it was too much sugar, we'll see how that goes. I'm still doing good eating and drinking too, although I still need to up my water still.
My 4 yo starts a soccer program tonight. I can't wait. It's going to be so cute! Mariah is still doing great in school and has a new friend, so that's going well. I am doing great in school. I got a B on my paper I handed in last week.
I am still struggling with not saying yes all the time. Why do i feel so torn? Mom wants me here, the kids want me there, the ex is just pissed, chuck wants me here........some days I feel like a tug o war rope and I need to not feel the guilt LOL!!!
Oh, I will weigh in......I need a scale ROFLMBO!!! I don't have one, so I'll buy one tonight and weigh in!
I have been trying to figure out why I am in such a funk and then I had an 'AHA' moment.
I haven't been taking care of myself like I was! I used to drink 32 ounces of water a day, I used to eat very healthy, I used to walk almost everyday........I have lost myself once again.
Why do I do this?..... I am a pleaser. I want everyone around me to be happy. I can't say no. and it's NOT healthy.
So I am going to start taking care of ME so that I will be here for them!! If you are the same.........Come join me and TAKE CARE OF YOU!!!
Good start to the day.....
Granola for breakfast
1 mile walk this morning
Last night I had a ceasar salad with grilled chicken.
I'm so friggin tired, I just want to stay in bed! I had to work all weekend at my second job. My ex needed me to watch the kids so he could go to Nascar (I love how I have to work 2 jobs and he can afford to go to Nascar, I can't even afford to get my hair done this week......but that's a whole other blog!) So they were with Chuck or my parents and they are tired and cranky!! I hate having to work the weekends I have them!
I didn't have time to exercise much, so last night at work when it was slow I did laps around the isles (I work in a quick stop). I did good eating though and I did increase my water intake. I don't understand why I drink more when I'm not working. Anywho..... now my skin is breaking out so I must be flushing toxins out (and I'm PMS'sing it.........oh goody!)
This morning I was too tired to exercise, but I will this afternoon, it's supposed to be beautiful. I will drink more water today, I will, I will, I will!!! Did ya'll hear me? I WILL DRINK MORE WATER TODAY!! LOL
I was dying at a garage sale and now I'm kicking myself in the butt....there was a beautiful and I mean B*E*A*Utiful treadmill for only $100. I know my parents would have lent me the money, then I would have it for the 8 months of winter LOL!!!
On a good note, my 6th grade daughter came home Friday with an accelerated math book, she is doing 7th grade math. I am so friggin proud of that kid, she is kickin butt at school!! GIRL POWER!!!
Hope you all had a great weekend and have a GREAT Monday!!
Had another great night! I had salsa and multigrain chips for supper (but not a lot). I ate at 4:30 again because I had a Parents Group meeting for the Middle School. We are planning some fun things this year, I can't wait! Then I got home and snuggled with the kids and watched survivor!
This morning I had a banana for breakfast and did pilates and 75 crunches.
Yesterday I did good again. For lunch I had a hard boiled egg and some seafood salad (dry, no mayo). I really need to increase my water intake!!!
On a funny note, I was reading my 4 year old "The Black Stallion" and there was a picture of a horse on it's hind legs and her exclaims "Look a the horse popping a wheelie" .........
I had the soup and veggie sticks for lunch and for supper I made home-made chili with ground turkey. I also made cornbread, which would be a huge weakness usually, but I had 2 small pieces. I made sure to fill up with water all afternoon yesterday and it really made a difference in how hungry I was at supper time.
I finished my homework last night and emailed my paper today, so that's one less thing on my mind.
This morning I did 75 crunches and some pilates like I promised. I am a bit sore and tired, but it's well worth it!! I feel like the routine is starting to kick in!! YEAH BABY!!!
After eating my cookie yesterday (damn those turtle cookies are good!). I decided my day was shot anyways, so I decided that I was going to have my 'Last Supper'.
Can anyone say Taco Bell???
I'm so friggin' bad! I did eat only one thing and I ate at like 4:30 and didn't touch another thing. So that's done and it's a new day!!
Today my goals are:
drink lots of water
have salad for lunch
chew gum so that I don't snack
eat more for lunch and less for supper
Did I exercise this morning.........hell no. I was so tired. My daughter was up talking in her sleep all night. It's pretty amusing, so I didn't get much sleep. It's supposed to rain today, so a walk is out of the question. I just need to keep my body busy and not sit down when I get home.
Tonight my goal is to do some crunches and pilates. I will do my bands in the morning.
Chuck, my boyfriend has gained weight too. He says I have done it to him with all my cooking........what can I say? I am a Cancer, we nest and love to nurture. When I cook all these fat ladened casseroles and bake it's because I love him, and the kids and want them to eat. LOL..........guess it's time to search online for some lowfat and healthier meals. (I just don't get it, to me on a night when it's 40 degrees outside there is nothing like a big haunkin piece of Lasagna).
*drink*
yummmmm...........water! and a granola bar for snack (good thing I have a vivid imagination because that granola bar is going to be a maple donut in my head!)
All I know if one more person asks me if I want anything from the store, my shoes will be aimed at their head!!
Hope everyone has an eventful day!
********just had to update that I had soup and veggie sticks for lunch! I'm not doing so good on h2o though! But I do feel satisfied and full*******************
Yeah, reality has kicked in and I need to get off my a** and start a routine again! I had a great one and then as usual life got in the way! It's funny how I tell all my friends they need to take better care of themselves and here I am NOT practicing what I preach!
Am I insane to try this again? Lets see what is going on in my life......
in month 10 of seperation/divorce. It's gonna be nasty!
school is back in session for the kids and I have the kids all during the school week
taking online college course (gotta exercise the brain)
'seeing' someone and would like to spend more time with them
new job (into month 2) as an office manager
Speaking of my new job, it's one of the main reason's I'm here. I sit on my butt in front of a computer all day. I've never had a job like this, I have always had active, on your feet jobs. So I have already gained 5 pounds and feel like crap. My routine where I was walking/running 3-4 days a week, and doing pilates and resistance bands at home daily (including 100 crunches per day.....and guess where all my friggin' weight has returned? Yup thunder thighs and gigancho gut are back). I miss my energy, I miss feeling so good about myself!!!
So here I am (eating a cookie and realizing that I have cheated already.....damn!!) and I am bound and determined that I will succeed and reach my goals in time for the Christmas Party in December!!
