Lunch time!

Today is going fairly nicely.  Not too busy, not killin' me.

Had a subway sub for lunch.  6-inch turkey on wheat with lettuce, tomatoes, cucumber, and mustard.  It was really good!   The subway right by my office has the softest bread I've ever had at a subway chain.

Have a banana for a snack later!

Ballet after work tonight.  And oh boy do I ever have a ton of homework assignments due this week ><  I can NOT wait to be done with these classes.  Case-studies and review questions.  Blah.

The Wednesday.

I guess if you can't say something nice, say nothing at all. 

All I can say is, I had a great nights sleep.

Up again.   Hell, I could be eating like shit and going up.  This makes no sense.  For now, I'm going to go with the advice of my (wonderful) commentors, and believe that perhaps I'm putting on muscle a little faster than I'm accounting for.

Because here's the thing:  I feel skinnier.  I look thinner.  My clothes fit better.  I feel better about myself in a leotard at ballet.  So what's up with the scale?   I'm trying not to care.

Pria bar and protein shake for breakfast.  Ballet after work today.  I'm going to try to stop chewing gum and mints all day, even though I really really need to.  I'll just keep water with me more frequently.  And hope for the best!

Stupid scale.

Discouragement.

My first lull in momentum.

I work out every single day.  I work out /really/ hard.  I push myself, and I focus on really getting the most out of it.  I have cut bad things out of my diet, and I watch what I eat really closely.  I dont break 1000 calories on any day, and I'm careful to have good amounts of protein.  I dance 4 or 5 ballet classes a week, which is another 90 minute work out.

Why have I stalled out already?  Why are my numbers going up? 

I'm gonna stop typing for a bit.  It seems like when things fall apart, they all fall apart at once.

Edit:

Just for the record.  I had NO carrot cake today.  Victory.

Lunch-Time

Had chicken breast again today.  It was the last one.  So maybe I'll get something different tomorrow!  Had a banana too. 

Things are a little weird.  It's kind of hard to explain...  I don't really know where I'm going with this.  I wish my life were simple.  Just...simple.

Don't know what I'm going to do for dinner yet.  Hopefully something simple :) 

Ballet after work today.  Need to do homework tonight.  Blah blah blah.

On a Tuesday.

Had a good cardio workout today.  30 minutes of jump-rope, sit-ups, knee-ups, side-ups, and elliptical runner.  My obliques are sore ><

Had a protein shake before gym, and having one now.  Considering I have ballet tonight, I might need more calories than that.  I'll probably grab a power bar and eat it on the way to work.

Have to go ice my carrot cakes now.   Evil, evil cakes.

Dinner

Had crackers and jam for dinner.  It's my little sweet treat, without being naughty. 

Baked two amazing-looking carrot cakes, and some fantastic cream-cheese icing.  (The thing about cream-cheese icing is that you HAVE to taste it to make sure it's right!)

Now, I say amazing-looking because I haven't tried them.  And I wont.  Banned food is on the list for a reason.  I can't control myself when I have them.  So, I will let you know what the verdict is when I bring them to the hospital tomorrow and let everyone ELSE eat them. 

Cardio in the morning.  Always fun.

Humility Post

Let me explain the comment I made earlier.

I am an Ultrasound student in my last month of clinicals.  This means that I perform all of my own exams, and deal with the radiologists as though I were a real tech.

Today, I had an order to do a "Gallbladder" or "Hepatic" exam on a lady who had previously had her gallbladder removed.  This is not a problem, as we still look at all of the surrounding anatomy, and then the gallbladder "fossa" (where it used to be.) 

I did the entire exam, and then turned it into the radiologist, and walked away.  It happened to be one of the radiologists who does not like to "talk" about studies, he just wants to get them.  I had happened to forget to write "Cholecystectomy" or "surgically absent gallbladder" on the form.

About two minutes later, he comes knocking into my next exam, asking me why I didn't image the gallbladder.  I looked confused for a second, and then said, "Because she didn't have one.  It was removed."

He responded, "If you're supposed to show it, and you don't , you just look stupid.  REALLY stupid."   And then walked away.

I've been red in the face and a little embarassed about it all day.  There is my humility.

Post later for dinner ><

Lunch

Had a fairly large portion of humility for lunch.  Ugh.

Along with a chicken breast (plain) and a banana.

Ballet after work.  It's one of those days that I just want to be over already.    : /

Gym-crazy

I don't know what it is about working out.  It doesn't seem to matter how much I feel like I could talk myself out of going...once I get there, I'm all there.  And I'm glad I'm there.

Funny story.  Today, I wore my old ballet warm-up jacket.  Says, "Balleraena" on the back.  One of the older fellows that works out at 5 am comes over to me and laughs.  He says, "You want to hear something funny?"  I said sure.

He says, "We, you know, we don't know everyone's names...so we make them up.  And we've always called you 'The Ballerina.' and it's on your jacket.  We were right."

I got a good chuckle out of it.  They seemed so proud of themselves. 

Anyways!!  Had a good workout.  Went up to 20 lbs on my triceps.  Did 12-pound dumbbells for my step-overs and lunges.  Need to be going up on my rows and flys, but I need help. :/ 

I might even be able to do 1 real pull-up soon!!!

Had my protein shake.  Gonna have a chicken breast from lastnight for lunch.  I'm a big loser.

Hmm.

I think I'm going to follow the lead of my friend Shanks, and start weighing once a week, instead of every day.  Hard to swallow going up when I know I'm not actually gaining weight.  :)

Up for my workout with limited sleep.  But I meant it!