Exercise

I have been going to the gym 6 days a week. It's really close by so that's a plus. I started lifting weights last week. I had a trainer set up a program for me and let me tell you it is really hard on the muscles. I feel so fatigued!!! It hurts just to move my arms and legs .   I have also been doing cardio everyday and run an average of 16 miles a week. I would go insane if I didn't have my exercise.

I have decided to start eating about 1500 calories a day, because I burn an average of 800-1000 a day at the gym. Do you think that will work?

Well, just wanted to let everyone know what I'm up to.

I'm gonna go check up on you guys now.

~Amanda

I'm Still Here

I guess people thought that I dropped off the face of the earth. Well, not really. I weigh about 195.8 and I'm exercising 6 days a week at the gym. I exercise really really hard. I ran a 5k yesterday and lifted weights. Exercise is no problem, just the eating.

So, where have I been? A long, long story. I have been in a very deep depression for months. I started having panic attacks and was on suicide watch. My GP sent me to a psychiatrist and I am seeing a therapist once a week. I was diagnosed with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, General Anxiety Disorder and Depression. I am on prozac and a whole list of other drugs.

I'm so sorry that I have ignored my friends on here. Please forgive me, but I was not feeling very well. I'm back on and I need to lose 20lbs before June.

I NEED YOUR HELP!!!!

Thanks!

~A.

Feeling Wonderful

Wow! It's been a whole month since I have blogged. I'm sorry I haven't been around. I have been getting use to my medicine, getting ready for Christmas and Olivia's birthday. It's going to be a busy week for me next week. I have Christmas, O's Birthday and her Baptism!!! I'm going to be a crazy woman by time it's all done.

I have been doing fabulous with my weight loss. Since I have been on Cymbalta I have lost 9 pounds this past month. I exercise 6 times a week. I go to the gym four times week. I was running for awhile, getting up to 35 mins. However, my doctor just diagnosed me with tendonitis. I could just die. I love running!!!!

 My medicine has been working wonders. I am no longer suffering from anxiety and Obsessive Disorder. I feel great!!! I haven't felt like this in 14 years.

 Everything in my life seems to be going really well, especially the weight loss. I hope everyone else is doing great and I wish everyone a Merry Christmas.

 Talk to you all soon!

~A

Doing Better

Well I went to the doctor last Friday. She prescribed Cymbalta for me. I'm sure you have all seen the commercials. I was on Zoloft in the past, but this is suppose to help with the physical symptoms of depression. I definitely have side effects from it. I makes me really tired and I have no appetite. I have lost 4 pounds since I started the medicine last Friday. I guess its a good thing for a while, but I'm afraid that I'm going to stop losing.

I started the gym last night and worked out for an hour. It was really nice, because believe it or not I love to exercise. I was completely exhausted afterwards (Mainly the medicine), but at least I slept (I hadn't been sleeping). I got up at 6 this morning and went again and worked out for an hour.

I'm not sure how long the side effects will last, but I figured I would take advantage of my suppressed appetite and get some more of this weight off before the holidays.

So, I'm back on track. I'm hoping to be feeling better soon. I have already noticed a small change in my mood. I'm not as anxious and it feels like relief! The exercise has made me feel a bit better too!

I hope everyone has a great Thanksgiving and don't eat too much!

~Amanda

I'm Still Here

I'm still here and haven't given up. I still weigh 199. I haven't been counting points and have been eating things that definitely are not on my diet, but luckily I haven't gained any. It's almost like I'm on maintenance, but I know it's not time yet.

I know I haven't been on in awhile and I want to thank Cat and Rose for trying to figure out where I have been. That brought me back. I have been dealing with some issues of anxiety and depression. I'm going to the doctor on Friday to see about going back on medication. It's been really hard since I had Olivia. This change in my life and been very difficult for me to adjust to and being fat hasn't helped either.

I did take a nice long walk this morning with Olivia. About an hour and 10 mins. It was nice to get out in the sunshine, since I really haven't left my house in a few days.

So, no, I haven't given up just haven't been really trying. I know everyone else has been doing so great and I'm so proud of you guys. Maybe once I get some meds in me I will feel like exercising and working hard again. For now, I just feel like a hopeless mess.

I am going to still around though. I could decide tomorrow that I want to start working it again.

Talk to you all soon.

~A.

Broke the 200 Mark!

Well, I got on the scale this morning (Scared to death what I would see) I saw 199.2!!! I don't know how I did it, but I did.

I wasn't the best this week. My husband and I shared a pizza. Definitely not on the diet. Well, I'm going to take this new weight and work on it. I hurt my back a few days ago. I have 2 herniated disks (hereditary) and I have to make sure to rest and not irritate. There were times where I would push it and I would be in bed for a week. I can't afford that!

I have had a really bad week. My period is 5 days late. I took a pregnancy test after 3 days late, but it came out neg. So, I guess I sit here and wait to see what happens. The fact that I saw a 1 in front of my weight sure helped to raise my spirits.

I hope everyone is having a good week!

~Amanda

It's been awhile

Well, I haven't been on here in quite awhile. If you remember the "I'm Counting Points" post, yea, that lasted, umm, a day. I'm just in a really low point in life right now. I shouldn't be because Olivia is doing great and growing everyday  

I'm just feeling lower than the dust about myself and I can't pick it up for some reason. I do great one day and then I'm back off the wagon. Feels like old times when I was dieting in the past.

I haven't exercised in 5 days!!! I can't go out walking because it's dark early in the morning (Olivia wakes up at different times) and it's dark by the time my husband finishes dinner to watch olivia. I can't go during the day because I live in a new neighborhood and there is constant construction going on. I'm full of excuses. Plus, I'm tired of all my firm workout videos. I like to exercise, but it seems like a chore because I'm bored. On top of all of that I found out that the brand new gym I signed up for is not opening until DECEMBER 1st!!!!!!!!!! The reason is because our county will not grant them the permits to build (A-HOLES!!!) I was looking forward to the gym and now I have to wait for another month and a half.

All I can say is that I haven't totally given up. I haven't gone to every fast food place or bought junk food at the grocery.

I did see a show on Discovery Health last night call xxx-treme weightloss. Its about people who use unconventional ways to lose weight. Well this one woman lost 167lbs by eating her dinner in the morning and her breakfast at night. Kind of reminded me when weight watchers tells you to eat like a King for breakfast, eat like a Queen for lunch and eat like a pauper for dinner. Since most of your calories are consume earlier in the day you have a chance of burning quite a bit off. So, thats my new gimmick. Counting my points and eating my dinner in the morning. I had 2 4oz chickens breasts this morning with a cup of corn and 1/2cup of rice. I know I had 2 starches, but hell it's what I wanted. Then I shared a banana with Olivia before her nap. I feel pretty good right now. I had a total of 9.5 points so far. Usually I would have only eaten 4 for the morning. I have a feeling this may work.

I guess I should get my butt moving in the exercise department or I'm not going to lose anything. If you read my whole blog, God Bless You!!! I think this may be the most I have written in awhile.

I need to get back on that wagon. It made me feel so good to go for the ride.

Hope everyone is having a good week!

~Amanda

I'm counting points today!

I have been slacking off for a month now and have not lost 1 pound. So, I am back to counting points. Of course I say it everyday, but today I am really going to do it.  I'm writing this in my blog in hopes that everyone will see it. The worst for me is failing in front of other people.

So, wish me luck. My brand new gym opens up this month and I want to lose at least a few more pounds before I start. I just want to get under 200!!!!!

There, I said it. Now I'm going to do it!

~Amanda

Wasting Time

I wasted a whole month of not losing any weight. I didn't count points or hardly exercise. I'm just glad that I didn't gain any. I just can't believe that I wasted all that time. I could have been down to 192 by now. It honestly makes me feel sick. I have got to turn this around, but I just can't keep my hand out of the cookie jar (or the pantry).

How is it I can give everyone else advice and support when I can't do the same for myself. It's quite a mystery. Anywho, on a lighter note, Olivia has been crawling for a week now. So, a lot of my exercise is chasing a little one around the house. She keeps me off the couch most definitely.

I have decided this week I have got to get under the 200 range. Monday and Tuesday I really exercised, but ate too much. Today I am working on the eating. I'm really counting my points. I have been stuck at 200-201 for a month now. If I wanted to maintain my weight I sure know how to do it.  

Well, here goes nothing. I want to look so much better for Christmas.

Good luck to eveyone this week!

~Amanda

I'm gonna scream!!!

I am still stuck at 200lbs!!!!!! I really don't have a right to complain because I am hardly sticking with the program. I really don't know why. One reason could be that my daughter is changing. She's teething and her sleeping habits have changed. It's been kinda stressful on me. She stays up ALL afternoon so when she goes down for a nap I just want to hang out on the couch and do my favorite thing, SNACK!

I can't give up because I was making so much progress. I start the gym at the end of October. I can't wait. I have to do something about this eating though. I use to be so good in writing everything down, I just have fallen off track.

Well, I just had to write down how I'm feeling. I'm really going to try harder starting right now. (I know that I said that last week too). At least I'm not gaining!

Hope everyone's doing okay.

~Amanda