Having written last night's post, I really felt a lot better. Sometimes I just can't trust myself to be honest, so writing it down is evidence that I'm doing alright. And yeah, I've made some mistakes, but I'll fix them up again eventually. No tomorrows! Started already, last night! So thankyou everyone who read and commented. You're angels. =)
I had deemed today as the beginning of my exercising again . . . and I wanted to see just how out of shape I had become in the past week. I'm considering NOT doing Couch 2 5k anymore, not because I'm giving up - but because (as proved this morning!) I can actually run in 20 minute bursts now. The final two weeks of the programme are increasing this to half an hour, and that's where it stops -- and I feel I can do that myself anyway, what with interval training and increasing my distance slowly but surely.
So even though I've gone a few steps backwards this week? I can still run. I've still got it! I want to spice up my exercise plan a little bit, so this is what I'm thinking.
Jogging - three times per week Walking - three times per week (alternate days to running) Yoga - once per week - I have a DVD I bought when I was 95kgs and didn't really feel the stretches/positions doing anything, so I want to see how I go with that now.
I also saw a DVD programme on sale on the home shopping channel the other night ( I KNOW, I'm a dag! ) and it looked so awesome - it was called Turbo Jam? And it was an at-home aerobic dancing style programme that works on your whole body to funky music and doing moves like kickboxing and aerobics and WOW. It looked awesome! I love dancing and fast music, so it looked perfect for me.
Sadly it is an American programme and costs a fortune to get it here - I'm wondering if there is something similar I could do myself at home, without going to the extremes of buying the programme? (It would be kind of awesome to have, though.)
Going off to have a late lunch now. Have a great weekend!
[Be prepared for a long one today, folks. Any support would be appreciated.]
I kept trying to figure out why I had been avoiding this blog all week. I read your lovely comments, I checked your blogs out and followed your progress -- but at the same time, I have been slipping into a spiral and it has gotten pretty out of control.
I considered just coming back and being all "Alright, let's pick up and start again!" but I really think I need to address what goes on with me, if not just so that I recognise the signs next time, and can prevent going off the bender quite as badly.
I know realistically it's only been a week - and while I've gained a couple of kilograms, that's not what I'm worried about at this stage. What I *am* worried about, is that my old habits just came flying back. I gave myself a weekend off to not think about food, and I pushed that allowance - to the point where I consumed way too much food, making myself feel sick and miserable in the process. This week, I ate food secretly. I bought food home secretly. I ate it in my room with the door closed. This is me from six months ago . . . this is the old me.
Being sick is something that happens often for me, and realistically I couldn't change that if I tried - but I used that as an excuse too. If I'm not exercising, I might as well eat some crap now because you know what? I'll start again tomorrow! Or the day after! Or maybe next week! Scared of the scale? That's okay. I'll just skip this week's weigh in, and think about it next week.
For someone like me, that's not healthy. And it's dangerous. I don't want to get back into that cycle again, if I've learned anything it's that I can DO this sensibly. So why is it so easy to slip back into old habits?
I was thinking so much last night that I didn't sleep. At 6am this morning, I eventually drifted off into sleep, and the first thing I thought about when I woke up? Food. Not good.
So, now that I've put it out there, how disappointed I am with myself and my choices this week - I need to make some changes. I need to keep journalling what I eat and what exercise I do. I need to get some sort of routine in place, even though I have another week of holidays. I just need to get back on track.
I'm still not exercising because I'm all clogged up and headachey, but I'm going to be better food wise. I finished last night with a bang (of junk!) and bleh.. even though I could just fall back into old habits, I'm going to start again.
(I have to say though, that I have ONE bad weekend, and the weight just flies back on - it's so unfair. *sniff*)
Today I'm going to make homemade pizza for dinner, to pretend that I'm still eating junk food, when I'm actually not. :) That might shock my body into eating a bit better again.. we'll see. I also need to do another big house cleanup sometime this week because a) In five day, it's messy again and b) This time next week, my parents come home so it needs to look perfect!
But back to the better eating, especially while I can't exercise.
Breakfast - 2 x toast w/ low fat marg & vegemite Lunch - Green Apple (Brekky & lunch combined @ 11am!) Dinner - Homemade Pizza (ham & pineapple)
I'm also refusing to weigh in until next week - maybe some of the damage will come off by then. (SO UNFAIR, lol!) Bleh. Wish me luck!
I did say I was going to be having a big weekend - and it was a good one! But I've eaten out twice, ordered in twice (no!), consumed more calories in alcohol/drinks than I would care to count, AND not done any exercise. Yipes.
(And the fact that I have ANOTHER flu, only three or four weeks after the last bout of it, is no fun. Sinus/Cough/Throat. Bugger.)
The plan was to get back on track today - but since I started the morning with leftover pizza followed by some Nutella (straight from the jar, eeeeep) I've decided we'll make it TOMORROW.
Shit.
I'm not weighing in this week - because seeing a couple of kgs extra is enough to send my bandwagon into hiding.
Right. I'm going to mend the bandwagon and get it fixed. TOMORROW. Positive thoughts would be great right about now!
As I mentioned the other day, we're having friends over for dinner, snacks and drinks (hopefully LOTS of drinks!) tonight, so I'm not going to be making my weekend a very healthy one! Even after that, tomorrow night is ANOTHER dinner/drinks catchup night, so I'm going to pause my being good for the weekend and start back on Monday.
(I'll also re-do Week 6 of Couch 2 5k, to make up for the lost time.)
In case I don't update have a very lovely weekend everyone! :)
Well, I didn't end up having my splurge last night - I had it today instead!!!! Still, at least it wasn't both days, there's a bright side.
I had today off from work because of a horrible nagging cough and a terrible throat pain, and it was a good decision - I got a lot done and feel much better now. Tomorrow is the last day of school, so hopefully that will go quickly.
I'm having friends over tomorrow night.. and also for the night after.. so I spent the day housecleaning! It's just my younger brother and I at the moment since my parents are overseas (back in two weeks or so) so he leaves the house a pigsty. I didn't exercise today due to feeling like death, but I cleaned for HOURS. Here are some of the things I've done:
* Scrubbed the outside backyard patio area * Cleaned the back outdoor tables & bbq * Completely cleaned the rabbits cages, including disinfecting (and successfully managed to get BOTH bunnies in the one hutch without killing each other.. and it's been hours now! Go me!) * Cleaned the downstairs bathroom (pigsty) & shower * Cleaned the spare room and set up the bed for my visitors * Dusted the living rooms * Vaccuumed all of downstairs * Mopped downstairs * Completely cleaned the kitchen including the appliances * Did washing
Do I count all that as exercise? I'm so exhausted, and my back is buggered!
I still have to do some folding and organise some linen & towels for our visitors, but the place looks and smells good. I also have to vaccuum the stairs (killer!) and upstairs, as well as give my room a bit of a spruce up. Oh, and some folding to do and put away. But I've been a busy little bee. Let's just hope within the timeframe of now and this time tomorrow night, my brother doesn't demolish the house again!
All I've eaten today was my splurge; a warm chicken roll & large chips from Red Rooster - not sure what I want for dinner yet, I'm still feeling a bit blah. I'm thinking I'll be boring and have a banana sandwich (toasted). At least that's not too bad. But one splurge won't kill me! =)
You guys made me laugh with your vacation comments - if you were babysitting twenty kiddies every day, you'd be counting down the days as well! :P The holidays are the part of the job that keeps me sane, except that I have to also programme for the entire Term 3 in my own time.. not all fun and relaxation!
(I only get two weeks off, so in a matter of days I'll be back at school again.. for another eleven week term!)
It's FREEZING here at the moment. It was really hard to get up off the chair here and go to do my running - but I did it. Week 6/Training 2. =)
Exercise // C25k - 5 min walk/10 min jog/5 min walk/10 min jog
Food // Semolina porridge w/ light mil Green Apple Fruche vanilla light yoghurt 2 x bread Banana Dinner: Most likely something naughty. :) I'm splurging!
(Not that I'm counting or anything, oh no!) Actually - YES! I am counting! Well and truly counting down the days. I'm so tired, the kidlets are tired, we're just one big tired classroom. Add in pouring rain and us all cooped up inside, and you don't get a bunch of happy campers.
I'm cooking tonight instead of being lazy and heating up a frozen meal or making pasta - I've made cornflake chicken (yum, love that recipe) with potatoes and veggies. It's baking now and smells so good. Can't wait to sit down in front of the TV with it - I'm so classy!
Exercise // Walked 3k in 30 minutes, nothing hectic. Food // 2 x Saos with cheese 1 hot chocolate 1 green apple 1 vanilla light fruche 1 green tea 1 hot dog (home made - frankfurt & bread roll) Dinner: Chicken, Potato & Veggies
After being up all week, I lost 800g this week - bringing my current weight to 83.2kgs. (Of course it was up again this afternoon, but I only record my Monday mornings so... yay!)
My "dream" jeans which I've had as an incentive in my cupboard for about five years are finally fitting. Considering I've lost over ten kgs and not a single dress size, I'm finally feeling happier. Yes the jeans are still a little too tight for me to wear out comfortably, and YES I have bits hanging out over the top of them (haha!) but at least I can get them over my thighs now. I'm happy with that.
Food //
2 x toast w/ proactiv marg & veg 1 green apple 1 low fat yoghurt 2 x bread w/ banana 1.5 cups of boiled rice Chicken/Cashew/Veggie Thai stirfry
Exercise //
Couch to 5k week 6:
5 minute walk 8 minute run 3 minute walk 5 minute run 3 minute walk 5 minute run 1 minute walk
Well, not only did I move my Extrapounds blog over the weekend, I've also moved my everyday blog - to my own domain! If you have some spare time, feel free to come and stop by to say hello:
www.alyndabear.com
I didn't walk today - I did get to burn a couple of calories on the new ab-roller machine Jason bought me! It's pretty comfy, maybe it will help me make the spare tire around my tummy disappear. Once again, another weekend has flown by -- but not looking forward to tomorrow's weigh in. Looks like I'll be gaining, and I DO hate that! We'll have to wait and see!
Food //
Oats for breakfast Green Tea & Rice Cake Shepherds Pie dinner (Maybe some icecream later, if I'm hungry.)
