Wow, alot has changed since I was last here on EP. I moved to another country, I had a change of profession . . . and I gained back most of the weight I had lost before arriving. Drats.
I'm not going to go into the whole 'woe is me' thing; I have just been lazy! But as of today, I'm back on track. Food wise, I've let the convenience of living in busy central London get the better of me - popping out for a sandwich, a muffin, a coffee, a croissant, it's all just too easy. Plus, I'm now not getting home until around 7:30-8:00pm, and I just don't have the energy to do as much. (It's a big jump from getting home at 4pm like I was used to.
I did the best when I was tracking myself on here and exercising. I must admit, I was exercising like a mad-woman for a while there, seven days a week, but being realistic? My lifestyle here won't allow it. I'm going to aim for 2-3 times a week, at this point. We'll see how that goes.
Today started out with a quick oats pack, which I'm going to try and eat all the time. They were yum, took 2 minutes in the microwave, and kept me fairly full in the morning. Tea and a biscuit at work, then a low fat apple snack bar. I was SO good today and had plain old chicken soup for lunch, and tonight for dinner is homemade chili con carne with basmati rice.
I'm all for indulgences, so I refuse to restrict myself; but I'm going to be more sensible now.
My goal is to get back down to the 85-87kg mark by August, which is when I'm going on my big American holiday! :)
Thankyou to the people who have emailed me, wondering where I've been in the past month - and yes, I've still been on the internet. I've just been selectively choosing to ignore this particular blog, is all.
I've been well and truly off the bandwagon, and it's taken a long time to get my head around why. I still don't know exactly what the problem is - but obviously despite my weight loss, I have some huge issues with over eating. It doesn't help that I hurt my leg while exercising a few weeks ago, and have been using that excuse to AVOID doing anything all month.
I've put on not only by the scales, but on my figure too - I can see it on myself, and I feel really terrible. I have just under two months to get my act together before I leave... and I want to get to 80kg. I can't believe I'm not there yet, considering I was so close, but I guess that's what happens when you let yourself go.
I started my day off with a 5km run (in 1km intervals because I? Am unfit!) and am resisting the urge to just go and eat some damn McDonalds. You see? Issues. But hopefully this will be the start again.
Sorry I disappeared.. no real reason other than laziness.
I've been exercising every day, keeping a tally of the kilometres I walk or jog on my main blog. This is how it stands so far:
Distance RAN so far - 37km. Distance WALKED so far - 20.5km.
I'll be weighing in tomorrow, basically anything under 82kg would be nice, but lately things just are stuck for me. It's frustrating but I'm refusing to give up...
This morning I was determined to exercise, though the temptation to avoid it because it's Saturday (and 31oc!) was great. I plugged in my Ipod and off I went jogging on the treadmill, trying to break it down into timing intervals to push myself.
I was hoping to get to the 20 minute non-stop jogging goal, which I hit - and I went further! I made it to 35 minutes of jogging without a breather, totalling 5km! Which means I finally made it - I ran 5km! *is still in shock*
Of course, that doesn't mean I'll be able to do it tomorrow, but still... I'm excited! That also makes 6 days of exercise this month so far, which I'm stoked about. It's a shame the weight loss hasn't changed (I cheated and looking today, I'm at 81.6kg still) but that's ok.. I'm running. I can run!
Bloody extrapounds, STILL isn't sending me emails with comment notifications - wish they'd fix that!
Anyway, the exercise challenge is going strong. I feel good about it. (Except for the blisters on my foot that have popped up, that is. Am running out of bandaids.)
I also got a really nice email from Jase, being very supportive. I think I've been putting too much pressure on myself to be perfect, when realistically, I don't ever have intentions of being perfect. Who really IS perfect, anyway?
So it's one day at a time.. baby steps. All about baby steps.
After all that blather about being good, I ate Maccas for dinner last night -- don't offer a miserable grieving girl a free junk meal, alright? It's all good. I'm going to keep at my exercise for a while, so little slipups shoudn't make much difference.
I was thinking about weight loss and how everything is going for me lately, so made a blog about it on my main one. (Yes, of course I'm going to be lazy and make you go read it, if you're interested!) www.alyndabear.com
To sum it up in a nutshell, this October will be all about exercise. I'm going to keep a tally on how many kms I walk/run. :) I like these little challenges, sometimes they help me get through a tough spot. Hopefully this one will get me back near 80kgs!
Ha, remember last week when I was 80kg? *sigh* Well, I had a week of going completely off the deep end, and I've gained a whole stack of weight back on. I was busy, I didn't exercise, I ate badly (on purpose) and basically had a dummy spit. Why should I keep having to exercise every day to lose this weight? Why should I have to think about every damn thing I put in my mouth? Why am I still unhappy with myself no matter what freaking size I am?
So much has been going on. If you have a spare five minutes, check out my main blog - I write daily there, and it will fill you in.
I also lost my beautiful rabbit Lucy this morning, she died in my arms and I'm feeling so completely alone right now. It's the 1st of October, the last day Lucy got to run around on the grass. A day I'll always remember. And it's also a great time for me to start over, to really do this thing.
I have less than three months before I go overseas to England. I was SO close to hitting under 80kgs, and now I'll have to work back down to it.
And best of all? I booked a holiday for next August/September - going to Hawaii, and then doing a huge tour of the USA for six weeks. If travelling in the summertime (to beaches!) isn't enough to get me moving, I don't know what is.
I'm back on the bandwagon. Bring on October. (And take away all of the pizza!) I ran for 5km today, and walked for 1km. (In intervals, of course. But maybe one day.)
Had a night out yesterday and ate way too much! Always happens.. must be going to see a movie!
I exercised before I left to give myself some extra calories, but snacked on nachos, 2 slices of gourmet thin crust pizza (cheese, chicken, capsicum & onion) as well as movie popcorn. Gah!
But this morning I exercised for an hour - ran for 40 minutes (5.5kms) and walked for 17:30 minutes (2kms) in intervals. Felt like I was going to die at the end, but it was so good to know I could actually do it.
Today I'm going to try to quit snacking and just eat sensibly. I'm making pasta and sauce for dinner tonight, so should be good!
I decided to go back to weekly weigh ins for the time being, and I'm glad I did! Jumped on the scale this morning in my sports bra and undies, and saw this:
80.0kg!
I jumped on and off a few times but got the same reading - I even dragged my mum out of bed so she could verify it for me.
I'm so excited! 80kg was my first goal weight, and I've hit it! That leaves me 10kg to go until I hit my major goal of 70kg, but you know what? I am so stoked.
Makes me more inclined to keep exercising nearly every day. :)
I started my day well, with smart choices all day including a salad with grilled chicken for lunch (bleh!) and then got home and ate ate ate again! I think I need to go back on the pill, because the minute I go off, my cycle goes all over the place and I'm hungry all of the freaking time. Bah.
Anyway, I spoiled it by eating fish and chips for dinner as well as a Magnum icecream for dessert. Not to mention the five Lindt chocolate balls (heaven!) that came with the dozen long stemmed red roses Jase had sent, which were waiting for me when I arrived home. Aww! It's our 5 year anniversary today, so being away from him is especially horrible -- but the sweetness makes it worthwhile!
Aside from the crappy eating though, I still forced myself to exercise - 40 minute walk, 4.4kms covered. And the good news? I tracked all of my calories and managed to stay within my point balance for the day - one of the perks of exercising! :)
Have a great weekend everyone! I'll be weighing in tomorrow, and as long as I'm not OVER 81.2kgs, I'll take whatever the scale throws at me!
