So TOM still has not let up!
I am very upset. I have not been able to get to the gym all week. TOM is here with such a vengeance that I can not even go on a long walk, even if it is low impact. I am in the bathroom every hour.
I was all ready to drive to the track yesterday evening after dinner and walk with the baby, but she fell asleep while eating her dinner. I love when she does that, it is too cute. Well that we at about 6:45PM and she slept until 6:30 this morning. That was great, but I was up all night with TOM.
She has her Mommy & Me class at 10:30 this morning, but I am afraid that she will be too tired to go. I have to feel her out by about 9:45. If she is not too cranky, I will put her in the stroller and walk to the class. It is a little over a mile away. Going there will be a lot easier because it is all down hill. So I figure that I will get 20 minutes of low impact walking there, 45 minutes of active playing, dancing, picking her up & down (weight training. LOL!) and then about 30-40 minutes of moderate to high impact walking home (the hills vary from slight to very steep on the way home.)
I need to do this walk. I also need to keep it up through the weekend. I also need to STAY ON TRACK throughout the weekend. I have weigh-in on Tuesday (which is my birthday) and I do not want to start out my day with a weight gain. I think that if I stay strict with the diet and exercise (even if lower impact) I will be able to rebound and lose at least 2 lbs.
Well, I started off the week with the highest hopes. I hit the gym Monday and stuck to WW perfectly. Well Monday evening I felt a little wierd. After about 2 hours, I felt like I was in early labor again. Low and behold, I was spotting. This is the first period I have gotten since my daughter has been born, she will be 11 months on May 7th! Tuesday morning I woke up and felt horrible so no gym, but I did get out an walk a little. It was only liek a mile, but I walked. As for the diet, I have been feeling so sick, that I have not really eaten which is not too good, but better then eating everything is sight. So last night I mad ethe decision that I was going to go to the gym no matter how bad the cramps were. Well, that came to a screaming halt this morning. TOM is so bad now, almost like I am hemmoraghing. I have to "change" everything on my lower half once an hour. It is not pretty. So I spoke to my OB/GYN this morning and she advised against me doing anything more then a normal walk until everything slows down. She is afraid of excessive bleeding and clotting (I have blood disorders that cause both) and thinks that over exertsion may help cause it. So it seems like I will be just driving to the track, I can't walk to it because of the large hill that i have to walk up to get home, and walking around it while pushing the baby for the next few days.
I wish I could do some abdominal work out I really need it. I wonder if some crunches, at home will harm me??
There goes my hope of losing 5 more pounds by my birthday, which is this coming Tuesday. I still hope to get down 10-15 pounds by Memorial day weekend.
BTW.... I totally forgot how much I HATED TOM!!!! I need to get pg again and nurse again. This time I will nurse until the new baby is 10 years old LOL!!!
I have been doing well today, so far. I woke up an drank a liter of water then I nursed Addison. I tried to get a little database work done. So I took about 45 minutes to do 3 pages, while Addison was playing in the room with me.
At about 9:40 my SIL came over to watch Addison and I went to the gym. I got there at about 10 AM. I started with a brisk uphill walk. I walk/ran (3.4-5.0mph) incline for 23 minutes (2 min cool down at 0 incline and 3.0 mph). After that I went and did the 30 minute circuit training that my gym offers. I felt really good after that.
I came home and fed Addison her lunch. After that I ate my one lunch, which consisted of grilled salmon 1/2 a roasted red pepper and 1tbl of pesto. Yes it was a 11 point meal but it was so yummy. I figured that since I did not eat breakfast (only water) that I could splurge. Also, with still being a nursing mom I do get an extra 10 points a day (I usually only use about 5 point though b/c I only nurse 4-5 times a day for about 10-15 minutes at a time)
I still have to finish my lunch and nurse Addison again. after that I think I am going to start some wash and take Addison for a walk after her nap. I think we will walk to the grocery store to get a few things that I can use for dinner. Tonight is homemade steak fajitas & gualmole for dinner. So yummy, and since I do not use the tortilla, they are only 1 point per serving. The guacamole is 2 points each, so I think I am going to have a good day. I have plenty of points left to get me through the day, for snacks and dinner. (I have some WW 1 point snacks & 100 cal packs are only 2 points)
Addison is exhausted so I need to get going and nurse her to sleep. I'll blog more later. I hope I can stick to my guns today!!
I surrender to the fact that me self-control has taken over. I don't know what has happened these past two weeks, but every night I say to myself "Tomorrow, I get back on track," and I start the day out well, but end it in the gutter.
Why can't I get back into my diet? I just can't stand it!!! I am so upset with myself. What can I do to get myself going again?? I am kicking and beating myself up over this. I want to lose this weight, I really do but I just can't seem to stay on the "diet road" lately.
If someone has the answer, PLEASE help me so I can stop sitting here beating myself up over this. How can I look at my diet in a new way so I can get excited about it again??
Ok, this week is supposed to be really nice. I did get my SIL to agree to come to the house tomorrow morning to watch the baby so I can hit the gym for a little while so that is a start. What I need is someone to yell at me to get me to go out early enough in the day was a nice long walk with the baby, if I don't get to the gym. I can go to a local track and walk but I always find other things to do and then when I am finally ready to get out, the baby need to nap or eat. What the heck!?!?
I do have 2 or 3 workout videos, I know that I can put one of them on and do it while the baby sleeps, but I always am afraid that she will wake up part way through and that it will not be worth the partial work-out. Am I crazy. Isn't something better then nothing?
I was very happy with myself up until about 8:30 tonight.
I went out with the baby for our walk this afternoon (because I didn't get to the dr.) We walked about 2.5 miles. By the time I got home it was time to cook dinner, feed the baby, give her a bath, get her into PJ's, shower myself, get ready for a wake and get the baby to the sitter, all in about 1.5 hours.
So I cooked dinner, but never got to eat. So with everything done, Mike & I went to the wake. At about 8:30 my SIL asked me if I wanted to go to the resturant next door for a drink. I said sure. Well, I ordered the drink and it was too strong, so I only had about 4 sips of it (Good fir me, I was going to count it as 3 points which, I think is more then enough).
Well, everyone else came in for a drink and then food was ordered. Since I had not eaten, I was very hungry. I wound up eating 2 fried chicken wings and about 3 fried wan tons (only the meat part though. I broke off the part that was just fried pastry)
I feel like I have cheated so bad, and for what, it did not satisfy me at all, but I honestly feel that I have alloted all of my daily points, and I hate to go into my 35 extra for the day. Plus it is after 11 PM so it is way too late to eat.
I am so mad at myself. I guess tomorrow will have to be an, at least, 3.5 mile walk and the gym.
First I want to say thank you to those who have read my blog and commented to me. I really think that will help to keep me on track. Knowing that I have support in my home, at WW and online is very reassuring to me. Thank you all!
I have to say that I have hit Weight Watchers with new found hope. I tracked everything that I ate, even those BLTs (Bites. licks & tastes) My Sister-in-law even came over and watched the baby for me so I could go to the gym. I did 1.5 miles on the treadmill in 20 minutes and then I did the 30 minute circuit. I was very tired but I felt accomplished after the gym.
After Mike (DH) came home, we dropped the baby off at a friend's house and went to do some grocery shopping. I stocked up on fruits, veggies and WW snacks.
Today I have stuck to keeping strict track of all my points. I made it a point to eat breakfast (as I have to do everyday). My SIL could not come watch the baby today, but that is ok. After I finish my lunch (and blogging) I am going to put the baby in the jogger stroller and go for a nice walk/run around town. I am hoping to do about 3 miles in total. I will come home and put the baby down for her second nap and I will do some ab exercises in the house while she is sleeping. If she doesn't sleep, I am going to attempt to incorporate her into an in-home workout routine.
Well, this is my first entry. I have decided to start a weight loss blog to try to get myself back on track with me weight loss. I feel myself slipping lately. I am getting very lax in journalling everything I eat. I have all but stopped keeping track of my daily points too (I am on Weight Watcher and doing flex) Yes I have lost 30 lbs, but by now I wanted to be at the 45 lb mark, so I am 15 lbs off. I know that if I get obn here everyday and write what I have eaten and write about my exercise for the day, I will get myself back on track.
I am a breast feeding mother, so I am allotted 10 extra points a day (Which I only use about 5 most days) I was told that since I am breast feeding I need to lose weight slower, but I feel that I am losing it too slow. Yes, I know, at least I am losing, but I am not happy with the time frame. I am giving myself 30 days to drop another 10 lbs (I want to do it in less time though) I know that if I put my mind to it I can achieve my goal.
I do get to the gym whenever I can get a sitter. When I go I do a 20 minute walk/run. I try to get at least 1.25-1.5 miles done in that time frame. After that I do the 30 minute workout circuit that the gym offers (kind of like Curves, but not).
I need to get the baby in the jogger stroller tomorrow morning and do a 3 mile walk/run. After that I will come home and attempt to do at least 30 of a workout DVD while the baby sleeps. I do have to do some work (I am a stay/work at home Mom) If I can get 2 pages of my database done quick enough then I will start a workout DVD. I will do up to 30 minutes (depending on how long the baby sleeps). If she sleeps long enough, I can get 2 pages of work done, the workout and then 2 more pages done. If things are really hectic tomorrow, then I will just have a friend take care of her after she gets in from work and go to the gym in the evening, even though I hate going in the evening because it is packed.
Only time will tell what I can actually get done tomorrow, but I will tell you this, I AM getting some type of workout in and that goes for everyday over the next 2 weeks!
Tuesday morning I woke up and felt horrible so no gym, but I did get out an walk a little. It was only liek a mile, but I walked. As for the diet, I have been feeling so sick, that I have not really eaten which is not too good, but better then eating everything is sight. So last night I mad ethe decision that I was going to go to the gym no matter how bad the cramps were. Well, that came to a screaming halt this morning. TOM is so bad now, almost like I am hemmoraghing. I have to "change" everything on my lower half once an hour. It is not pretty. So I spoke to my OB/GYN this morning and she advised against me doing anything more then a normal walk until everything slows down. She is afraid of excessive bleeding and clotting (I have blood disorders that cause both) and thinks that over exertsion may help cause it. So it seems like I will be just driving to the track, I can't walk to it because of the large hill that i have to walk up to get home, and walking around it while pushing the baby for the next few days.
I need to get pg again and nurse again. This time I will nurse until the new baby is 10 years old LOL!!!