I have an adorable nearly 14 month-old now who keeps me running around my apartment and I have joked that I'm on the "kid steals all my food diet" because he literally always wants what I have and ends up eating about half of the portion I set aside for myself. I make better food choices than I used to. We hardly eat fast food anymore and I don't miss it really. You know what I ate yesterday? Eggs, oatmeal with dried apricots and a tiny bit of agave, Whole foods orange chicken and veggies over brown rice. Oh yeah, and I "splurged" with a Skinny cow ice cream sandwich.
So why do I weigh more than I ever have in my life, including when I was pregnant?
Dr. Chenelle says I need to EAT MORE. Crazy, huh? She says that eating as little as I do plus having the hypothyroid is making it impossible to lose weight. Also, she suspects I might have Hashimoto's and need to be gluten-free.
But you know what? That gives me hope and a little bit of validation. I think most of the skinny people out there figure that all morbidly obese folks are the way they are because they eat entire pizzas and gallons of ice cream every day. But my joke with my husband is that "I'm the most starvingest fat person." because I know I'm not like that and I have been eating better than a lot of thin people I know.
Having to switch to gluten-free makes me a little sad, but I'm ready to do what I need to do and stop making food decisions based on emotion. So what if I grew up with bread and butter at every meal? It's okay to let go of my addiction to those kind of carbs. (As soon as I use up the stuff I already have at home, of course. I'm too thrifty to throw it out!) I want to feel better and I'm ready to see the best version of me. I want to be around for my son and I want to be able to keep up with him as he grows up.
That being said, here's my cal-count for the day: