Moving to Management

Today I began Management.

Last night I attended my first meeting and learned more about what will happen over the next 12 weeks of the programme.

I was excited about moving on.  It has been an eventful four months doing LL, but I have been aware that Development is the easy part.  Now the work really begins.

How does it begin?

Well, the first three days I can replace one pack with a piece of protein, be it fish, meat or vegetarian alternative.   I chose salmon.  Days 4 - 7 brings with it a selection of herbs and spices, skimmed milk, some condiments, sauces, green salad vegetables which can be added.

I am ecouraged to keep a journal (I am given a book to write in) in which I can write a 'food and mood' diary, daily affirmations, 'more active' diary, 'daily achievemens' diary.

I am still trying to absorb everything - there is so much to read and learn.  I have decided that I will need to organise my menus for the week ahead or I may be at risk of making bad decisions.

There is a huge list of stuff which I can chose from.  But what to chose?

I had a crisis of confidence earlier when I realised what I was taking on.  Development has been the easy bit.  I am both exhilerated and scared of the coming months.  Will I be able to cope.  Will I fail - again.

Do I really want to succeed?  What has kept me fat over the past 30 odd years?  I will have to do some serious self-analysis to find out.  I have scratched the surface during Development, but feel some trepidition at having to come to terms with stuff that I have so far kept from myself and not faced.

Time will tell.