DON'T FORGET!!!

Please help me out by donating to the 3-Day walk for breast cancer!!!

http://08.the3day.org/goto/afranklin54

I really appreciate you're donations and every little bit helps!

Thanks!!

Just a little explination

So my other post is in 2 parts because EP wouldnt let me do it all at once.

I put the second part first and the first part second (????) so that way it's easer to read...

I hope I didn't confuse the life out of anyone trying to read it. lol

1st part...

Hello everyone... If anyone still checks my blog... oops!

As you can see I've gone up a lot since the last time I wrote. But I think we all saw it comming. I had lost all my motivation, then found it again, did well for a while and got back OP. Then ai got a new car, 30 days later someone hit my car while I was driving, injured my back and hip badly and took off. The police ended up finding him the next week but he's avoiding everything so I had to get a lawyer involved.

The good news though is that I've come to realize that I can't put my weight loss on hold because something happens in my life. I know that probably seems obvious to some people but it's been an issue for me. I have the mentality that "I'll do it when I feel better or things calm down", well that's just not going to work for my life. It seems that there is always something going on to get in the way and if I really want this weight loss then I have to learn to deal with it AS life comes at me. Multitasking...thats my new goal! =)

Due to the accident I can't work out. I tried going to the gym and was in total agony so I have to put that part on hold until I get the ok from the Dr. For the weight loss part I have put myself back on a diet I tried a few years ago that actually worked.

Brian had been trying to lose weight and get in shape for the police test and ended up hiring a personal trainer. One of the things that trainer did was put him on the world's most boring diet. While it is extreemly boring it does work, I lost almost 20 pounds on it!

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My plan is to follow this diet till I get the ok to work out again, then retake my points quiz for WW at that time and start back with the point program. This diet is totally rediculous and I know I can't stay on it forever but I know I CAN stay on it until I get back tot he gym or even outside to take a walk.

I do have the ok from my Dr, with a strong caution to make sure I take a multi vitamin and if I feel hungry that it's ok to have a little extra food as long as it is something healthy.

I'm looking forward to it. I started on Sunday at 220. I put the 222.2 on my tracker becasue that was my last WW WI and I'm going to continue recording on that day. (Unless I can figure out how to change it...) I'll update it again on Sunday to let you guys know how I did!!

Hope everyone is doing well!!

Don't forget to donate to the 3-Day!!!

http://08.the3day.org/goto/afranklin54

Im back!!!

and the site is being totally stupid so you'll all have to read my post later!!!!

STUPID EP!

Help fight breast cancer!!!

Hello,

This year I will be participating in a very special event called the Breast Cancer 3-Day.

Starting on August 15, 2008, I will be walking 60 miles over the course of three days with thousands of other women and men. the net proceeds will support breast cancer research, education, screening and treatment through Susan G. Komen for the Cure and the National Philanthropic Trust Breast Cancer Fund.

I've agreed to raise at least $2,200 in donations, however, I have set my personal goal at $3,000 so I need your help. Please consider making a donation, keep in mind any amount is greatly appreciated, you don't need to give a lot to make a difference. You can give online at www.The3Day.org. All you have to do is follow that link, click on the DONATE NOW button, type in my name, Andrea Franklin, my home town is Massachusetts, and click Find A Participant. Once my name appears on the bottom of the screen follow the link to my personal page to make your donation! There is also a link on the page for you to print out the the donation form if you are unable to make your donation online. You can also call 800.996.3DAY to donate over the phone.

When I attended the Get Started meeting I was totally blown away by the impact that breast cancer has on the people it affects. I felt if there was anything I could do to make it easier for these families I would gladly do it. While I cannot find a cure myself, together with our fundraising efforts, I believe that someday we can! One woman in my meeting was recently diagnosed with inflammatory breast cancer, years ago her chance of survival was 2%, but thanks to research her chance of survival today is up to 50%! Just think, in a few years that number could be up to 100% and families would no longer have to worry about their loved ones.

According to Susan G. Komen for the Cure, approximately 200,000 American women will be diagnosed with breast cancer this year, and nearly 40,000 will die from the disease. That's why I'm walking so far. To do something bold about breast cancer. I hope that you'll share this incredible adventure with me - by supporting me in my fundraising efforts.

Thank you in advance for your generosity!

Sincerely,

Andrea Franklin

P.S

Please remember to ask everyone you know about giving a donation! Feel free to forward this on to anyone you know!

Hello Again!

Stress

I ended up not going to work the day of the appointment, I got in there and sat down with her and she said that from the report she got from the hospital the cyst on my ovary is nothing, it's not big enough to cause any pain. I was upset beyond believe, I kept explaining the pain to her and she just kept saying it wasn't a cyst. I finally said "ok, so if its not a cyst then can you please tell me what it is or tell me who can figure it out, I don't care that its not a cyst but I AM feeling this pain and I want an answer". She listened to my story again and said she thought it sounded like a hernia, now I had to go see a surgeon for it.

I had to wait another 3 weeks for the apointment with the surgeon, ended up missing more work for it, he had me in the office for about 5 minutes, did his thing, and said he found no sign of a hernia. He did, however, believe me that I was in pain so he ordered a CT scan to get a better look at everything that was going on. His secretary said it would take a few phone calls to set up the CT scan so she would call me back once it was all taken care of.

That was the start of a 3 week battle between the surgeons office, the imaging center, and my new health insurance company; Tufts. After about 50 phone calls I finally got the whole thing figured out and had my CT scan on January 23.

The CT scan was actually an amusing experience. I got in there at 7:45 am. I was the first person in there, the guy came out and took me back, had me put on the little hospital dress, anything with metal in it had to come off. So now I'm sitting there in the hospital with my hair in a messy bun (way to early to think about styling it), this beautiful blue polka dot cloth thing, my knee highs, and my dress shoes. Drop Dead Sexy. I was actually laughing at myself.... the doctor assured me he's seen worse but that didn't make me feel too much better, at least there was no one I knew there! He went thru and told me what it would feel like if I was having an allergic reaction and what to do if that was the case, they had to put the dye in me to see all my insides. Then he took me into the room and had me lay down and everything, they took some pictures then he came back to hook me up to the dye.

Him: "Ok, now I'm gonna hook you up to the dye, you're going to feel a warm sensation starting in your throat and working its way down, it will feel like you have metal in your mouth and I promise you you're not peeing your pants"

I was fine till he made the comment about peeing my pants, I tried to turn myself so I could see him because I was slightly alarmed by this but before I could say anything he had put the dye in and all of a sudden everything he had said would happen did happen.

Me: "ok, so you promise I'm not peeing my pants?"

And he left to take the rest of the pictures. It was over before I knew it and as he promised I had not peed my pants. I went back to work to wait for the results.

The pain had gone away for a day or two, then it started coming back, it started as just being uncomfortable then worked its way into the on-the-floor type of pain I had had back in December. After waiting a week for the call back from the surgeon about the CT scan I called because the pain was getting intense again. The surgeon read the report from the CT scan and said that what he gathered from it there were now multiple cysts on my ovaries and that that area was enlarged. So now I'm back to the OB-GYN.

Well now that it's February I conveniently had that apointment with the OB-GYN I was originally referred to so I just ended up keeping that. When I got there I had them pull the records from the CT scan so she could see them and aside from the 5 minute yearly exam she had to do I spent almost an hour in there talking to her about everything going on. She had a bunch of blood work done, and scheduled another ultrasound. She felt that if the problem was with my ovaries then the next birth control shot would take care of everything, she set it up so that when I came back for the ultrasound I'd be able to have my bc shot then.

I went back yesterday for the ultrasound, when it was done the woman doing the ultrasound said "ok you're all set, nothings wrong here". I almost died, I started crying, not that I wanted something wrong with my ovaries, but I wanted an answer. I waited for the doctor to come back out so I could have my shot and when we were in the room I started crying. I told her how I've been in this pain now for two months and I've been run around all over the place with different ideas as to what could be the problem and then when I finally get there they say everything's fine and I have to see someone else for another potential problem. I'm so emotionally drained from it. She promised me up and down she wasn't giving up on me and wanted me to see a GI specialist because now that they've ruled out everything that has to do with gyn, my appendix is fine, and my bladder is healthy, she said the only thing left in that area to cause pain is my intestines. She gave me a copy of all the testing they've done in that office and told me to go back to my primary care doctor and get referred to a GI specialist.

Lucky enough I had already had an apointment scheduled for the same day with my PC so I just kept that one and when I went in there I explained everything that had happened since she had first sent me to the ER. I had been calling her to let her know what was going on as it happened but I wanted to be sure she understood exactly what had gone on. I told her the OB-GYN wanted me to go to the GI specialist and she agreed and wanted to feel around my stomach to see if maybe she could feel anything new. She was pushing around on my stomach, all of a sudden she got to the area that hurt, I came clear up off the table it hurt so bad. It took a lot to not start crying. Then I told her how I had gained almost 15 pounds since this all started... I feel totally disgusting, I can feel the fat on my body, omg it's so aggravating. She said that weight loss was the least of my worries now, just to eat what I can that doesn't upset my stomach and wait till this is all figured out. She said I did an awesome job when I was following WW and to not get discouraged by this. She said with all this she'd rather me not try to follow WW because she doesn't want me under any more stress than I already am. She did say that that's not an order to go out and pig out, but to just eat when I'm hungry, try to make the right choices and to not get on the scale until this is over.

So now I have 2 pages of GI specialists to call and schedule an apointment with to see who can take me sooner rather than later. I just want all of this to be over, I want my life back, I want to be comfortable, I want to be able to lose weight again, I want to be happy! I'm miserable right now, I absolutely HATE my job and when Im not in work Im usually sleeping because of the pain. It's so aggravating. If anyone knows someplace that's hiring let me know! I'm willing to do anything at this point in time. I think that if I could at least enjoy my job maybe other things wouldn't suck so much but I hate my job and it follows me home, then the pain on top of it is just getting to be too much for me.

Well I hope everyone else is doing great! I will try to keep up with this now, but obviously other things have taken first priority lately.

TTFN!

I'm back!!

Sorry I was gone for so long guys… it was a total crazy mess of everything and blogging wasn’t exactly number one on my list for a while. Neither was weigh loss unfortunately…. I don’t think I messed up too much but we’ll find out tonight at my weigh in. *fingers crossed*

I started tracking my points again on Monday. My friend Marci also started dragging me to the gym as well. It felt good to work out, nothing crazy, but I got my body moving after a month and a half of being in bed… yuck.

I got a comment about starting a “Spring Break Challenge” and I think I’m going to join it. I didn’t really fall off the wagon due to lack of self control it was just with everything going on I couldn’t go grocery shopping, I couldn’t cook for myself… I kinda had no choice but to eat out and even the healthiest things at a restaurant seem to be bad for you.

Anyways… I’m starting to feel better finally so I just have to remember to cash my Christmas check so I can go grocery shopping and start really being good.

Marci is making me go to the gym again today so that’s good.  I got a salad and a turkey wrap last night for dinner but only had half of it so that’s what I’ll have for dinner again tonight. My friend wants me to go get a fribble with him later but I think I’ll have to decline… I’m not so sure I have the will power to watch him eat ice cream and me not have any!

Ugh...

I feel totally gross... I haven't been able to stop eating since Tuesday night, I pigged out on Thanksgiving and haven't been "good" at all. Today all I did was eat and Im still hungry. I'm about to burst at the seams and I still want to stuff food in my face.

Why? Why does this happen? It's so depressing and sick, it's like I can't get the food to my face fast enough. I can sit here and deny myself the food I want but then I just think about it constantly...... and I want EVERYTHING BAD. Chicken salad, macaroni and cheese, french fries, potato skins, you name it I want it. What the hell!!!!!!!!!!!!

I was doing so good, I went to the DR and was weighed in at 207 then from that point on the food has not stopped.... I keep thinking I can just stop or start back on track for my next meal or whatever but I cannot stop thinking about the food and what I want to eat and how I shouldn't eat it and all that.....

Its so aggravating!!!!! GRRRRRR

Maybe if I write down what I ate I won’t want it anymore?

Breakfast: nothing, I woke up late for church and had to hustle to get out on time.

Lunch: broccoli and carrots with veggie dip (regular not fat free or anything) a mini tuna salad roll, a mini roast beef roll, mini turnkey honey mustard roll and mini sandwich. The roll’s and sandwich added up to about a regular size sandwich. ½ cup of potato salad, a spoon full of pasta salad, a few pieces of fruit, 2 chocolate chip cookies, a mini cupcake, and a frosting canoli type thing.

That was just for lunch! I don’t even want to know how many points that is…. Yikes! I want to eat macaroni and cheese for dinner and maybe some potato skins too. I originally thought that if I just got it out of my system now I wouldn’t crave it for a while but I had the same craving on Wednesday, my lunch alone was 22 points! I had mac and cheese and a reese’s cup!

This needs to stop or I’m going to blow up again….