Working

Since I've started working I seem to be handling my weight better. I think maybe because I'm constantly moving.  It helps that the people I work with are extrememly health conscious. I find them to be very motivating.

I also have less free time at home which means when I am here I am busy getting the day to day stuff done. As long I have healthy food choices in the house I thnink I'll do all right.

End of Challange

Tomorrow is the offiical end of the FIT challange. My goal was to lose 10 pounds and I did it!!!! I'm very happy about that.

Although I did not win the challange, not even close, I did make changes to my lifestyle. Probably the best thing I've done was give up my 2 cup a day  coffee w/creamer habit. I also eat much  healthier between the hours of 6am and 7pm. 

I'm hoping we do another challange because being able to talk to a support group and seeing how they handle the same issues has been very helpful. Watching their success has also helped to motivate me.

I look forward to losing another 10pounds with them.

So...last nights binge

Last night I binged again. I don't know what it is, it's like I just can't stop eating. I have to eat. I'm not even hungry. Something just comes over me.

I worked 10 am till 7pm. I didn't eat dinner at work, but I really wasn't hungry. I came home and had 3 meatballs. Then some torilla chips. Then dry cereal. Then ice cream w/chocolate syrup and fluff on it. Then cheezits. I did have small servings and  weighed/measured everything and my total calorie count for the day was under 1600, but that doesn't matter.

I should NOT be eating 70% of my calories after 7pm...that's a problem. Night time evening has been an ongoing problem. I can remember as a teenager getting up in the middle of the night to have a bowl of captain crunch...who does this sort of stuff?

I think I"m rewarding myself. Yesterday I was rewarding myself for going back to work and working those hours. Basically I'm rewarding myself with food but  what I'm actually doing is rewarding myself with a pair of thunder thighs.

What I need to do is just take some deep breathes and get into a calm state of mind. Maybe have a cup of tea at exactly 7pm every night just to relax, forget about the day, get into a calm place in my head. I know it sounds corny, but I need to find out what works for me...what I can do  to  control the night time binges . This eating pattern is just not healthy.

binge

Just got done with a binge. I feel sick and stupid.

Too Busy

I've been sick for a few days and I've just started working again. Things are hectic and I'm not getting my exercise and I'm not drinking the water. The only thing I"m doing is logging my food.

I think it's going to take me a week to get myself back on some sort of schedule. Things seem to be getting better today. I'm feeling better, I got some food shopping done, the house is not a mess. Just need to get into a routine.

The good thing is I have been too busy to get on the scale. I think I check it too much.

Big No No

One of the biggest no-nos in dieting is to not let yourself get too hungry and then go grocery shopping.

I had my day planned out as far as my meals and then a last minute change caused me to not eat lunch.  I decided to pick up something at take-out section of the grocery store. Unfortuntely we went shopping first and somehow a bag of Sour Patch Gummies ended up in the cart. I did get a salad   which I ate when I got home. Then I ate the gummies, followed by corn chips, pretzels, and ice cream. I just got too hungry and ate the salad too fast not allowing my body time to feel full before moving onto all of the other crap.

My calorie count was so low prior to this binge that I ended the day under 1600 calories. But that shouldn't matter...it's more  about what I ate  and what time I ate. The combination of junk food and  the  time being after 7pm is just not good.

Looking over my food journal for this week I see the same pattern. I eat too much in the evening. I was having 1/2cup oatmeal with some honey each night. Now I have that plus 1/2 cup of pretzels. I need to get that under control....have the oatmeal and if I still want more then I should have a cup of tea. This will be my goal for this week....limit myself to 150 calories for an eveningsnack .

Superbowl tonight. I will be putting out healthy snacks, but I'm not going to lie....chicken wing dip and chocolate chip cookie cake are also on the menu.

I will plan for it....

Missing Blogs

Someone said my blogs are sometimes missing. I'm not sure why, maybe because I have not been blogging everyday. I try to be better with that.

I peaked at the scale this morning and was very happy with what I saw. I have to make it through the weekend and the super bowl before my Monday morning weighin. I'm worried that my weight might go up little by Monday. I shouldn't have peaked.

I'm still slacking with the exercise, and now with me starting to work again I'm worred this slacking trend will continue. I'm hoping that the new schedule will force me to be more focused. Maybe my problem before was that I had too much free time so I thought I would always do the exercise 'later'. Now that I will have limited time I won't be able to say it...it'll be more like 'do it now or it's not getting done'.

I had to go shopping for pants for the new job. I bought 2 pair of pants and both were 16's and they were snug. I was disappointed but not surprised. I look forward to them getting looser and looser.

I am also looking forward to warmer weather. We had 2 ice storms this week with frigid temps inbetween. I'm ready for the sun and the heat.

Got a Job

I went for an interview yesterday for a job. I scan the papers each week looking for a job that has the perfect hours. This job did. I went for the interview and was hired a few hours later.

I work 2.5 days a week, the pay is good, bonuses twice a year, 2 weeks paid vacation, paid holidays, and my entire family get a free gym membership which happens to be part of where I'll be working.  I'm excited and nervous...I haven't worked in an office enviornment  in over 14 years.

This can only mean one thing...I have to buy clothes....and even worse, mainly pants. The only thing worse then buying pants is buying bras. I think I"m a 16. I'm only buying 2 pair because I don't plan on fitting in them long...hopefully I'll need to get some 14's  instead, but I do need something for right now so 16's it is.

Yesterday's lame excuse for not exercising was some serious cramps. My periods my be getting lighter and shorter, but those first 2 days are horrible. I never  used to get  cramps...then I had them really bad for about a year, couldn't even get off the couch. I  got bit by a tick and got Rocky Mountain Spotted Fever which was very bad...the medicine that they gave me for that actaully did something to my body and the cramps went away for 3 or 4 years. My OB-GYN has no idea why that happened...but it was a good thing. Slowly the cramps started back up again..they are not quite as bad as they once were, but it's getting there. Anyway, that was yesterday and this is today. As soon as I log off I"ll be getting my cardio in.

Tomorrow they are forecasting another icy strom so I should plan on doing FitTV on demand from home. Maybe if I just plan for it I'll actaully do it.

Have a healthy day!!!

Excuse number 58

Ahhhh yes, another excuse to not exercise:  Roads are too icey to walk or drive on. I puttered around the house waiting for things to clear up but by the time it did it was too late.

The thing is it's not like I'm sitting around doing nothing. I am always busy. I'm not sure how this is possible...I don't work, there is always laundry waiting to be done, the house never looks vacummed, and the bathrooms always need to be cleaned .... obviously those things are not filling my days. So what exactly do I do all day?

Today I sat in front of my computer for an hour organizing a banquet for one of the kids sports team, then I spent an hour working on a stain glass project, I cleaned the kitchen and threw some stuff in the crockpot, the ice melted and I went to pick up things for the banquet, then I spent 3 hours on the stain glass project, then I carted kids  around and threw some food at them.  Now I'm checking  on things here then it's time to fold and finish about 4 loads of laundry.

The stain glass is something I do for me...it's something I enjoy and it's something I have to schedule into my day. I do schedule exercise in...8am is my time, but due to the ice I pushed it back...once that happens it's usually not going to happen. I guess I should have turned on FitTv at 8:01 instead of planning to go later.  I'll have to remember that.

Just do it

I keep saying I"m going to exercise and I don't. I get the cardio thanks to some good freinds. But when I come home and I'm alone I don't do the crunches and strength training I should be doing.

There is a free pilates class I should be going to but I really do not enjoy the instructor..she is very military. There are these cool stations on TV that I can use, there is always some excuse...too many errands to do, phone calls to make, things to clean, etc.

The bottom line is that I need to just do it. Sounds so easy......