I am VERY disappointed in myself. I can not believe that I have come as far as I have and I am slowly but surely falling back into the "fat pit". We went on vacation in August. I think the only thing we did the entire time we were there was EAT. Nobody could deciede what we wanted to do so we were always going somewhere to eat. Although I did not gain any weight while we were gone (We walked pretty much every where we went)...I am having a very hard time getting back to where I was before going on vacation. I get so depressed when I even think about dieting. I see my old eating habits creeping in when I am sneaking a cookie while I am cooking supper or when I go to the grocery store and deciede on the spaghetti meal versuses the healthy meal only because it is "quicker and easier". I feel like such a failure. I got on the scale this morning and it put me back at 212! I tried to tell myself it was only because I had just gotten off my period..blah, blah, blah. I KNOW that is NOT it. It was the two pieces of cake I ate yesterday or it could have been the plate full of hot wings I ate. I need some healthy suggestions for meals. I am getting so tired of those lean cusiene dinners I could puke. That is what I have been eating for lunch and it is getting VERY old. I caught myself the other day telling myself I would be much happier if I would just give up and eat what I wanted.....There it was....The old evil fat ME!!!....I have got to get back on the wagon. I haven't been to the gym in probably a month. I have got to get my routine down again. I need some motivation from my ladies on here!! I am at the bottom of this pit...PLEASE someone pull me back up! Thanks for listening!
Posted By: VANISHING_JODIE
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09/23/2006 01:12
Jodie, Jodie, Jodie!
That was the OLD you, not the new and improved you! You became a different person the moment you decided to lose the weight. Don't let your old negativity win - you CAN do this! 38 pounds is NOTHING to sniff at! Listen, next time you go to the grocery store, go to the produce section and get four 10 pound bags of potatoes - don't buy them, just try to lift them - THAT is how much weight you've lost!!! (ok, close enough to it!) DO NOT give up now, you have made so so SO much progress. I know you can pull through this. That was yesterday, today is today, and TODAY you need to make the decision to put the old you behind and go forward with the new you. You deserve to be the person you want to be! It's not going to be quick, it's not going to be easy, but Jodie, YOU are WORTH the EFFORT!
Hi - it's Melissa (SweetPeaTwins) - just wanted to remind you that I will need to get your challenge goal for the BL challenge! Hit my blog for the final rules and for team assignments!! :D Can't wait to get started- I am glad that you are joining us!
Was the first step to get you closer to goal. Don't give up, don't give in. We women are too hard on ourselves. Look in the mirror and tell yourself you are worth it! Don't listen to the Evil thoughts. We are here and throwing you a rope to get you out of that deep dark pit you have fallen into. So come on! Start small, and what diet is it that tells you you gotta eat lean cuisine everyday. Change it up girl friend. Maybe you should look into (this is what I am doing) 6WBMO, it is one avenue you can take, there are others as well,weight watchers, Jenny Craig, L.A. Weight Loss. Don't just throw your hands up and say "I've had enough" because you know down the road you are going to say "why didn't I just stick with it alittle longer". Here is your chance, through this challenge Melissa has started. it's a stepping stone to get back into it.
to pick yourself back up after you've fallen, but think of it as a stumble rather than a fall. You CAN pick yourself back up. You know what it feels like to be losing weight. You KNOW you can do it. Don't let your old feelings of "can't" and your old methods of "happiness" keep you from being the person you want to be...the person you KNOW you can be! What's done is done and you can't take it back. What you can do is move forward and resolve to give it your all. You're so totally worth it!
I just sent you an email.. you either got it a few times or none at all because it just kept asking me to put in the funky numbers I see..... anyway You can do this - you've done absolutely great so far. Today is a new day and your Red teammates need you and so do your competitors... we have to stay challenged!!!!
If you didn't get my email... I'm from Kathleen, GA just north of Perry. I have family all around Thomasville in Moultrie, Bainbridge, Climax and Valdosta.
Get your body moving and get your mind focused on a healthier you!... Drink your water too!
Oh yeah and post so we can keep up with your progress!
Thanks for posting! I need all the support I can get! I especially like hearing from mothers of twins. It is different and special having twins. I love my other friends w/ just singles, but twin moms can related better!
I have done really well today! My husband is coming home from the deer woods and I have been really busy trying to get things picked up and laundry done. I hate my house being dirty/cluttered, but I take a break when he is not home. I tried taking that Trimspa stuff and talk about giving me extra energy. My Molly has a really bad diaper rash that kept her up last night and up early this morning and I still feel pretty good. It must have the caffiene equivilent of like 16 cups of coffee!
Jodie, congrats on your 4 lbs. this week!!! Woo hoo~!!! You're so~ close to Onederland girl. Seeing everybody's excellent results just makes me want to step it up a notch. Let's kick butt for our 2nd week too!! Go Red Team!!!! Woo hoo~!!!!
I was on Weight Watchers about 2 years ago and was doing great until I had to go home for my grandma's funeral. When I got back home I couldn't get back on my diet for anything!! Looking back at it now I just hate myself for giving up. It's hard getting started again but you can get back on track!
Maybe instead of trying to diet just try to maintain for a little bit. Long enough to get you use to not eating so badly again. Start walking like you did on vacation. That's pretty awesome you didn't gain anything just by walking a lot!
Is your pity party over yet? Enough of that talk, dust your self off & get focussed. Stop snacking, make those healthy choices & start moving again. You lost 38lbs so far, remember that? remember those wonderful comments you get when people havent seen you in a while & ask if your losing weight? How about when those jeans are not tight anymore, in fact they are getting to big, you need a smaller size? You need to stay focussed, you need to exercise, you need to do it for you, because your worth it! You matter in life, & you do not want to be fat anymore! It is not easier tojust eat something & be heavy. Remember how awful you feel so heavy, sleep terrible, exhausted after walking up flight of stairs, or how about when your ankle are swollen & killing you because your so fat?? Remember all those factors??? Get moving, start eating healthy again & remember we are her for you when you fall, but you WILL get back up again! M.
Hey...just sending you some happy thoughts today. I noticed that you don't post often....do you work outside the home? I used to say do you work, but I have noticed that non working moms get offended. I don't work....but I am not sensitive to those things.
M.