Hello everyone. I am sorry that I haven't posted in a while but I get on here and read everyone else's post and just forget to post one of my own. I have been doing "okay" with my dieting. Not as good as I know I should do but atleast I am not at my worst. I have been SO tired here lately. It has been either one of my kids being sick, my husband, or myself. The weather here is so dang crazy. One day it is freezing and the next day it is hotter then ever. That is probably one reason everyone is staying so sick at my house. But back to the weight loss issue.....I have been going to the gym still. I do so good when I go but I have slacked off a little. By the time I get off work all I want to do is go home and crash. I have GOT to get back into my routine of things!! I have been eating pretty good though. All the girls at the office have been going out to lunch EVERYDAY here lately and I have not had the will power to say no. I keep saying next week will be a better week. I haven't regained anything these past weeks but I can feel myself falling back into the old rut of things. I probably need some vitamins or somthing. One thing I AM excited about....I got an email in my yahoo mail about the biggest loser cookbook. I ordered that and it should be on its way. I have been in search of some good healthy reciepes. I can cook but I have no CLUE how to cook healthy. I have been raised deep south all my life and unless it is fried and covered in butter then it is not considered good and I have been having a really difficult time breaking that habit. If someone told me to either eat healthy or die...I would be done for. I have no clue how to eat healthy.
But I am going to do it...I am going to pick myself up by the boot straps and re-do this dang thing. I was doing SO good there for a long time but I guess I just got bored with it all. You can only eat so many damn lean cusiense until even they don't taste good anymore!!
I thank everyone for their support on here. It has meant the world to me!
I am VERY disappointed in myself. I can not believe that I have come as far as I have and I am slowly but surely falling back into the "fat pit". We went on vacation in August. I think the only thing we did the entire time we were there was EAT. Nobody could deciede what we wanted to do so we were always going somewhere to eat. Although I did not gain any weight while we were gone (We walked pretty much every where we went)...I am having a very hard time getting back to where I was before going on vacation. I get so depressed when I even think about dieting. I see my old eating habits creeping in when I am sneaking a cookie while I am cooking supper or when I go to the grocery store and deciede on the spaghetti meal versuses the healthy meal only because it is "quicker and easier". I feel like such a failure. I got on the scale this morning and it put me back at 212! I tried to tell myself it was only because I had just gotten off my period..blah, blah, blah. I KNOW that is NOT it. It was the two pieces of cake I ate yesterday or it could have been the plate full of hot wings I ate. I need some healthy suggestions for meals. I am getting so tired of those lean cusiene dinners I could puke. That is what I have been eating for lunch and it is getting VERY old. I caught myself the other day telling myself I would be much happier if I would just give up and eat what I wanted.....There it was....The old evil fat ME!!!....I have got to get back on the wagon. I haven't been to the gym in probably a month. I have got to get my routine down again. I need some motivation from my ladies on here!! I am at the bottom of this pit...PLEASE someone pull me back up! Thanks for listening!
Hello all you hard working folks! It has been a while since my last post. I have NOT given up my fight STILL! Although I did slow down some because I just HAD to still enjoy some of the "bad" foods I love so much but I see it this way....It is better for me to take it off slowly and still be able to enjoy my life and not feel deprieved...as long as I am losing!! I know I am not going to eat like a rabbit when I do hit my goal so there is no reason to do it now and then reach my goal and once I go back to eating normally gain it all right back. People that hasn't seen me in a long time just go on and on about how good I look. I saw someone I hadn't seen in a long time the other day and she didn't even recognize me at first! Whoo! Hoo! Do you know how damn good that feels! I still haven't reached my goal of being under two hundred by our trip but I still have another week and a half. TOM is here this week so I wouldn't weigh right now if my life depended on it!! LOL!
I have finally hit my 30 pound mark! I didn't ever think I would get here. I am SO proud of myself for sticking this out and not quiting. I am proud of myself for not letting a few minor set backs ruin the whole thing for me. On past diets when I would "cheat" I would make that my reason for quiting but not this time. I just chalk it up to a little temptation that I have allowed myself and get right back on track. This is been a slow process but I am loosing it...pound by pound!! I have 2 months and 18 days to loose 12 pounds. (If you will remember I had a goal of being under 200 by my trip in August) I think I will be well under that!! I will feel amazing when we go. We are going to Saint Augustine Florida. It being in August so you know it is going to be HOT! As alot of you probably know...hot weather is not fat folk friendly. LOL! I just want to thank every single one of you. I think I have continued on this journey alot of days because of some of the encouragement that I have received from some of the members. Losing weight has probably been one of the hardest things I have EVER had to do in my life. It is a hard and sometimes depressing journey but with friends like the ones on this board and with the end results all I can do is WIN!! Thanks for everything guys!!!
I hate plateau's! I don't think my scale has moved in a week! If that isn't discouraging I don't know what is. Maybe it is time for TOM or something. Does anyone have any suggestions to break a plateau? I have too much more weight to lose to hit one NOW.
Hello everyone! It has been a while since I posted. I haven't been doing as good as I would like to be doing on this diet thing for the past couple of weeks. Last week my husband went out of town on a deep sea fishing trip so I enjoyed the quiet time a little too much. We ate at my Mom's house a couple of nights...you know those deep southern women....the ones that deep fry EVERYTHING...that's my MOM! Then this week I left on Thursday headed to my sister's house in Athens, GA. I think my sister cooked once the whole time we were there and that was the first night! She has had a gastric bypass so she doesn't really eat that much. She snacks on candy CONSTANTLY! She didn't really have anything but junk so that is what we ate...JUNK! I feel so bad and runned down this morning and I know it is from all that unhealthy eating I have been doing. I stepped on the scale this morning and it said I had gained 3 pounds. I was happy with that because I was thinking more on the lines of 10. I just have got to get back on the straight and narrow! I am back at home and no excuses left! I still want to have lost 30 more pounds by my trip in August and I am NOT getting it done like this, am I? I feel so depressed everytime I am with my sister. She was always a "big girl" like me but since she had her gastric bypass about a year ago she is skinny and looking good and I feel like I have been left behind. People look at her and say how pretty she is and I notice the way people look and treat her. I guess it is a little of the jealousy bug coming out in me but I WANT THAT SO MUCH. It is SO damn hard. It is one of the hardest things I have ever done. I can't believe that I have lost what I have. I think before I would have always quit before even getting to where I am right now. I don't want to quit though!!!! I want to see this journey through. I want to be the pretty one that everyone looks at with approval and not disqust. I just need to hope back on the weight loss wagon and do the best I can that fits my lifestyle! Here's too success!
OK....I am doing really good this week. I have just had to find a happy medium in my weight loss journey and realize that being skinny does not happen over night. My biggest vice is drinking the recommended water daily. I would start off good at the beginning of the day but by the end of the day when I thought I was doing so good I would realize that I had only consumed about 32 ounces. So I have devised a plan...and I must say it has been working so far. To get my 64 ounces in before I go home everyday from work (because once I get home you might as well forget it) I will get one of our 16 ounce cups and I will make sure I drink 1 between 8 and 10, the 2nd between 10 and 12, and the 3rd between 12 and 2, and then the final glass between 2 and 4. It has been working too. I have even found that I drink more then the daily allowance. Although, I can't seem to stay out of the bathroom now! HA! HA!
Ok people! I am putting a goal in black and white. Here lately I have been slacking off on this weight loss journey. I haven't been quite as "gung ho" as I have been in the past. Easter came and went and I think I ate more chocolate then my kids. I found myself this morning in the drive thru at Hardee's ordering a chicken bisquit. I have got to get back on track or I am going to find myself right back to where I was at. My husband and I am going on a trip in August to St. Augustine to ride the ghost train. We are going with about 3 other couples. My goal is to lose 30 pounds by the trip. That is 30 additional pounds to what I have already lost. We are leaving on August 11th. I am going to work my tail off to try to met that goal by then. EVERYBODY keep their fingers crossed. I am famous for my "diet funks". Meaning I get so discouraged so easily but I am going to succeed one way or the other. Thank you everyone for your support.
Last night as I was brushing my daughter's hair she hit me with a ton of bricks. She told me that one of the little girls in her class told her that her Mommy was fat and that she looked like a PIG! I sat in stunned silence for the longest time. I didn't know if I should cry or be mad. If a 5-year-old kid seen me like this, what did adult people look at me like? I cried. I have been working so hard and I still look like a pig. How can this be? How could I let myself get to the point to where a child says you look like a pig? I have been going to the gym almost every day and working my ass off and I am still at the pig status! Will I ever win this weight war? Will I ever be comfortable in my own skin? Will anyone ever look at me (other then my husband ) and think...What a beautiful woman? I am not quite sure that my mood today is all because of the comment but today I am feeling so down. I am feeling like going in the break room and buying all the snicker bars one by one and sitting in the bathroom and consuming ever last one of them. Isn't that what a pig would do? I know that kids will be kids but that kid really hit me hard. My other daughter was really upset that my daughter told me that. She kept telling me all night how beautiful and SKINNY I looked. That did make me feel a little better. I thought once I got out of school I wouldn't have to deal with those mean ass school kids but now I am dealing with my children's mean ass school kids! How does that work?!
I have to give myself a pat on the back. I did something yesterday that I have NEVER done before. We had a wedding shower for one of the girls in my office. Pizza party with the works. People also brought snack type foods: Cheese ball (which I made and didn't have a bit...very good too by the way), Cheesecakes, A butter cream shower cake, cookies, brownies...you name it, we had it. We were having it at lunch time so our docters just paid for us to order pizza's. I didn't eat a single bite of any of that poison!! Not one!! I ate my lean cusine dinner and was totally satisfied. I did not even feel like I was depriving myself!! Then last night for supper we had baked chicken and I didn't even finish my chicken. I was so proud of myself and it made me feel even better when I stepped on the scale and I had lost another 2 pounds!! I am on my way to the skinner me! My husband is so jealous he has even started his own "weight loss" journey! He is also driving me nuts with it too. He thinks that just because I am losing weight that I am going to leave him. Honestly my husband would rather me be FAT! It is getting old very quick. Well, I will not let him rain on my parade! GO ME!
