Well...the weight is coming off slower then I would like considering I have drastically changed my eating habits.  Maybe I need to work out more...at this point Im only working out twice a week for 20 minutes a time, my daughter is keeping me super busy as well as starting to get things ready for the move since my husband will be coming home from Iraq in a month. 

 

But...today I went and visited a friend of mine and she said she noticed Id lost some weight.  Even though its only 7lbs I can already tell a difference in my clothes..not a huge difference...but a difference none the less.  :)  So thats something to be happy about right?  Hopefully I can lose 10 more pounds before my husband comes home!

Well today we had a birthday celebration for my sister at my grandparent's house; my family believes in good food, and lots of it.  Crap!  I couldn't believe so early on in my diet I was already going to be tested.  When they started putting the dinner out on the serving bar I first saw brisket, green beans and zucchini.  Not so bad I thought, all things I can eat as long as I don't eat much of the brisket.  Then as my eyes traveled further down the bar I see a huge bowl of mashed potatoes, some fresh fruit and fresh rolls.  Ugh!  Starches, my enemy.  Next to chocolate they are easily the worst thing for me yet the yummiest :)  By the end of dinner I was so proud of myself, I avoided everything I said I wasn't going to eat. 

 

Dinner:

3 slices brisket (probably should of had 1 or 2 but hey)

Small portion of zucchini

Green beans

1 piece of watermelon

 

After dinner I was stuffed, we let her open her gifts and then I knew what was next....DUM DUM DUM....cake!  AHHH!!  They had 2 different types to chose from (God forbid they only make ONE cake)...cheesecake with strawberries or chocolate cake.  I quietly sat at the table while everyone decided which they'd prefer...when they came around to me I said, "no thanks".  Everyone kind of looked at me funny...grandma tried to get me to eat some strawberries, which I might of done if they werent covered in sugar.  And that was it....that was the hardest part...I was able to watch everyone eat it and not even crave a piece. 

 

So, I guess I'm stonger willed then I first thought.  Maybe this will work out afterall.  :)

I probably should of started this weight loss journey before I let it get so out of control.  However, I didn't so...gotta start somewhere right?? 

 

I have struggled with my weight for as long as I can remember.  I remember when I was younger my parents constantly making hurtful comments about my weight.  I think they thought it would encourage me to lose the weight, however, it did quite the opposite.  What they may not of known at the time is I am a emotional eater, so the more comments they made the more depressed I got and the more I ate, resulting in more weight gain.  When I was a junior in high school I was about 160lbs I went 3 months eating nothing but pretzel sticks (only by recommended serving sizes so maybe 20) and drinking water.  I quickly lost the weight and was down to 130lbs before I knew it.  Looking back at pictures now, I see how disproportionate I looked.  I have a large frame (thanks to my German heritage) and that weight was not right for me.  However, as we all know with crash diets and starvation, I gained it all back plus more, then weighing about 170 lbs. 

 

I am now 24 years old and married to my wonderful supportive husband.  He refuses to admit to me that he sees me as being overweight but I don't believe that for a second. LOL  November '08 we found out I was pregnant with our first child.  At this time I was weighing 180 lbs.  Now, this may sound like a lot, but I felt great and looked pretty good too (even though my BMI would still say I'm overweight).  The first 6mo of my pregnancy I only gained 5lbs since I was constantly sick and unable to keep food down.  After the morning sickness passed I began craving nothing but junk food (who can blame me its so good!).  On July 12, 2009 I gave birth to our daughter by c-section, then weighing 220 lbs.  Three days later I noticed a lot of swelling in my legs and feet so after the doctors ruled out blood clots they put me on Lasix; then losing 10 lbs in 3 days.  Now, it has been 7mo to the day since I had Ryleigh and I am weighing in at 245 lbs.  Now, how did this happen??  I am more active since having her and eat considerably less.  However, here is what I believed happened.  Even though I am eating less I haven't been eating any better.  Also, I'm not burning the calories I was while being pregnant due the work my body was doing to make my beautiful little girl. 

 

So, its time to stop complaining about being overweight and DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT. 

 

Here is my goal:

No sweets, sodas
Strictly limit carbs
Drink more water
No eating past 8pm
Work out or walk at least 4 days a week

My 1st mini weight loss goal is to lose 20 lbs by April 15th 2010, before my husband comes home from Iraq.

 

One step at a time.  Wish me luck! :)