My weight struggle with PCOS

My weight loss journey

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  • Name: Torgysgurl
  • City: Ardrossan
  • Region: Alberta
  • Country: Canada

My Weight Loss

Height: 154.9cm
Start weight: 144.60lb
Current weight: 138.90lb
Goal weight: 126.00lb
Lost to date: 5.70lb
Remaining: 12.90lb

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Hope you all have a great Christmas!

Have a great Christmas and travel safe everyone! Today begins the food and drink challenges for me, hope to be able to be moderate! lol

Just a photo of my munchkin decorating the tree 

not sure why...

but I decided to weigh in a day early today. Down a bit which is good, yet surprising. I know darn well what I've been eating, and so don't deserve the loss. Oh well, someone said any loss in December is a good thing, so I will embrace it! I would love to at least maintain for the rest of the month, so fingers crossed for that!


Got a fun email this morning I thought I'd share as well...this is kind of summing up my thoughts about this week as well 

Here's some advice for enjoying the season.  Have a Merry Christmas and the best of 2010.  Cheers!! 

  
HOLIDAY EATING TIPS 

1.  Avoid carrot sticks. Anyone who puts carrots on a holiday buffet table knows nothing of the Holiday spirit. In fact, if you see carrots, leave immediately. Go next door, where they're serving rum balls.

2. Drink as much eggnog as you can. And quickly. It's rare.. You cannot find it any other time of year but now. So drink up! Who cares that it has 10,000 calories in every sip? It's not as if you're going to turn into an eggnog-alcoholic or something. It's a treat. Enjoy it. Have one for me. Have two. It's later than you think. It's Christmas!

3. If something comes with gravy, use it. That's the whole point of gravy. Gravy does not stand alone. Pour it on. Make a volcano out of your mashed potatoes. Fill it with gravy. Eat the volcano. Repeat.

4. As for mashed potatoes, always ask if they're made with skim milk or whole milk. If it's skim, pass. Why bother? It's like buying a sports car with an automatic transmission.

5. Do not have a snack before going to a party in an effort to control your eating. The whole point of going to a Holiday party is to eat other people's food for free. Lots of it. Hello?

6. Under no circumstances should you exercise between now and New Year's. You can do that in January when you have nothing else to do.. This is the time for long naps, which you'll need after circling the buffet table while carrying a 10-pound plate of food and that vat of eggnog.

7. If you come across something really good at a buffet table, like frosted Christmas cookies in the shape and size of Santa, position yourself near them and don't budge. Have as many as you can before becoming the center of attention. They're like a beautiful pair of shoes. If you leave them behind, you're never going to see them again.

8. Same for pies. Apple, Pumpkin, Mincemeat. Have a slice of each. Or if you don't like mincemeat, have two apples and one pumpkin. Always have three. When else do you get to have more than one dessert? Labor Day?

9. Did someone mention fruitcake? Granted, it's loaded with the mandatory celebratory calories, but avoid it at all cost. I mean, have some standards.

10. One final tip: If you don't feel terrible when you leave the party or get up from the table, you haven't been paying attention. Re-read tips; start over, but hurry, January is just around the corner. Remember this motto to live by:

"Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive and well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, chocolate and wine in one hand, body thoroughly used up, totally worn out and screaming "WOO HOO what a ride!"

Yo-yo'ing is so tiring

That same one pound keeps taunting me! It just keeps coming and going. I have no one to blame but me, I take full responsibility. I know that. My will power is so low, and I have eaten out way too much. Not to mention all the temptations around right now. This week will be the peak though, as I'm sure it will be for many others. The way I've been going lately, I've decided to not fight it. Just enjoy it. Then move forward once all the visiting is done. It may not turn out as bad as anticipated. I would like to shed a few more before vacation time at the end of January. So, this time next week I should be able to start fresh again. At least it's only 1 pound I'm fighting with, I just need to get over that hump and on my way again. 

Bizarre

Weigh down a bit more - yay!


I have been seeing some really weird things these past few days. Yesterday, I happened to glance into the car I parked beside. The passenger seat had a HUGE mound of empty (I assume empty) McDonald's bags and wrappers and cups. GAG. Ever hear of a garbage bag for starters? And that much McDonald's is just revolting.

This morning was odd too. First I saw someone dragging a traffic cone under their van - gotta wonder what kind of driver runs one of those over. But surely the icing on the cake was the guy on the unicycle. That is weird enough in itself, but add to it -24C (about -11F, bbbrrrrr COLD!!!) and a snow packed rutted side road, and you have for a pretty interesting spectacle!

So I got wondering, what's the weirdest thing you've seen?

Works for me

Was hoping for a little more, but I cannot complain about a 1.1 lb loss. Just happy to be back on track, even if it's still not quite where I was last month. The power of tracking....and willpower 

Fingers crossed!

Hoping my weigh in in the morning goes well for a change. I managed to stay on program all week (YAY!) and hope that is reflected tomorrow! Well, off to bed now, I should have been there long ago.

So far so good

I have been behaving quite well so far this week. All this baking in my house from a bake exchange, and I have managed to keep the sampling to a minimum and within my points allowance. I was SSOOOO tempted to sneak some more, but I finally scrounged up some will power. Most of it is now in the freezer. I even went to a movie and behaved - if you consider having a hot dog instead of popcorn behaving. But it was lunch, not a movie snack, so I think it's okay. I'm very happy with myself so far this week.

Why can't I stay on track?

I have had the biggest lack of willpower, and it just makes me really sad. I know what to do, I just seem to get stuck in a rut of not caring. That's not completely true, I DO care, but I'm not sure of the right word.


My goal is to be down 13 lbs by Jan. 24 - my holiday to Florida (getting excited!). I don't think I can pull off quite that much, as I tend to average 1 lb a week if I'm behaving, which means I should be able to pull of 7 or 8 lbs. I can live with that.

I have decided to do a mini 'me' vacation. 3 days all to myself. I have my room booked and a spa day. This won't be until after Christmas though. I would love to be down a bit more by then too. Public pool + swimsuit = me wanting to look a little better. Also, I *may* try to go skiing and need to see if my ski pants still fit. I just learned to ski 2 years ago, so not sure if that's something I want to tackle solo yet.

Hmmm, maybe agreeing to be in on this bake exchange thing tomorrow wasn't such a great idea. I better stick it all in the freezer and take it to people's houses over Christmas so I don't eat it all myself!

Not sure how THAT happened

....but I'll take it! After a horrendous week I can totally accept a .2 lb gain. I thought it would be more like 2 or 5 lbs! I have barely tracked all week, mostly because there were 4 day I had no idea what points values were in anything, and I didn't really feel like trying to figure it all out. So, maybe being away on the weekend eating camp food saved my butt (from getting LARGER)!


Still not feeling overly great, but I know in time I'll be fine. I went for my regular massage yesterday (stress headache treatment - can't IMAGINE why I get stress headaches!) and it ended up being more like a therapy session. She just has this knack for knowing when something is up and then starts talking about things while she's working on me. Well, this time I ended up pretty much bawling by the end, which was her goal because she just seemed to know I needed the release. I held it together pretty well at the funeral, so I guess I still needed to get it out. I really don't like crying in front of people.

ANYWAY, it's the start of a new week (weigh-in wise that is), so I really need to focus on getting back on track. I really want to be at goal by my vacation! I have 10 weeks to get there, and it's totally doable if I SMARTEN UP! I have to stop raiding my daughter's Halloween candy stash and stop raiding the leftover candy we have. I really need to stop buying the kind of candy I like to hand out. I hope I can find where I hid my willpower....it seems to be lost.

this week

This week will be a very off week. I started out ok on Wed., but then bombed again. Then I knew yesterday would be a write-off. Funeral = food at funeral home + visiting with relatives which = more food + alcohol. And it was a MAJOR write-off! Now this weekend is going to be tough simply because I have no control over the menu. I am going to a scrapbooking retreat for the weekend with some girlfriends. So, all the meals are taken care of as part of the weekend. I do not know what is being served. Could be a good thing - they may do relatively healthy meals, or they might be kind of gross/not things I like which will be VERY helpful! Or, it could be amazing food, which will e a problem. I am only planning on low cal snacks, but there may be some drinks. So, I have pre-accepted the fact that this week may result in a weight gain. I will deal with it once the weekend is over.


Hopefully I can get all aspects of my life back on track soon. I'm tired of being sad and grieving, I'm tired of being lonely, I'm tired of being stressed out with school and the workload and juggling my life around all that. I'm tired of not know who my 'real' friends are and who really is sincere about saying that they care about how I'm doing/feeling. I am tired of being such an emotional person who takes everything personally. Sometimes I wonder if I'm mildly depressed - is there such a thing as mild depression?

I want to get away after this semester is done. We are going to Florida at the end of January, but I kind of want to do something by myself too, or with friends instead of family. Is that wrong? I don't know how hubby would feel if I did that though. I want to go back to Vegas, he doesn't. And there are some friends thinking about going. I wouldn't mind going with, but the possible issue is the fact that said friends are male. Again, don't know what hubby's take on that would be, and I feel hesitant even suggesting it. On the upside, I would feel safer being with guys, but I don't want him to doubt me either. Maybe I could get a girlfriend or two on board...

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