Let's do it for our country....

Th'Angela won THAT battle!

Tuesday, October 30, 2007 23:05:09

Yes, yes, yes! I did, indeed, get up and exercise this morning. I snoozed a few times, but never did I say, "I'm not doing this. I'm going back to sleep." What was different today? I don't know. I wish I could answer that so I could keep whatever "it" is.

By 4:15 I was out of the bed. I peed, brushed my teeth, and put my contacts in. Then I got the shoes and socks on. By 4:30, I was doing my Supercharged Sculpting DVD. I did think about wimping out with a WATP DVD. But, no, I chose to do my strength training. I love strength training, but still have that lazy bone in me. No, I'm not talking smack about WATP. I'm just saying, it's a "little" easier than my Firm DVDs. You know what I mean? So, yes, Alicia, we were working out together this morning. Because you are an hour ahead of me. So 5:45 your time, is 4:45 my time. Thanks for being my workout buddy!

Eating was pretty good yesterday too. I'm feeling pretty good. I remember this feeling. Oh yes I do!

I'm a little tired today due to getting up early. But I know that if I make it through the day, I'll sleep well tonight. When I workout in the mornings, I have more sound sleep. Once I get into the routine, I will have way more energy.

Today's lunch will be a challenge. A co=worker/friend's wedding shower is during lunch. I know they have chicken salad and other shower food. I didn't bring my lunch. SOOOO..... I'll just practice portion control.

My exercise is done for the day and it feels great. I know I can go home and relax or whatever I choose. I don't have to sit there agonizing with the decision of should I workout or not? That's never a good feeling. Especially when I choose not to workout.

Have a happy hump day!

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Executive Decision

Tuesday, October 30, 2007 23:04:21

I made an executive decision about 45 minutes ago. I am not watching TBL tonight. Yes, I love the show. But I DVR it due to watching it after Tatum goes to bed. I can skip the commercials that way. But I get so pumped from watching it. Then I can't sleep. I want to change the world after I watch it. I just get so excited.

I want to get up and workout tomorrow morning. And I know I won't if I don't sleep. I won't sleep if I watch TBL. So there's my executive decision.

It's 8:15 and Tatum is asleep. DH is at school. I'm going to bed.

Let's hope I don't embarrass myself when I post tomorrow by saying I didn't get up and exercise. I'm getting myself pumped right now just by posting. I hope I can sleep. LOL! This might have had a counteractive result. OOPS!

P.S. I'm such a dork!

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Not hungry

Tuesday, October 30, 2007 23:04:08

Well, I ate on plan yesterday. I just wasn't really hungry. Trust me, that NEVER happens. I can eat even when I have a stomach virus. My appetite never leaves me. I had on some tight jeans yesterday, so maybe that was why. I don't know. Maybe I've just had enough!

BTW...the jeans I had on yesterday have always been tight. Y'all remember when I went shopping with my income tax refund earlier this year? I got two pair of jeans at the Gap? One was a size 14. They fit but have always been snug. My intention when I bought them was that they wouldn't be snug for long. Um, that was in February! So.....

I still didn't get up and exercise this morning. DH said he could give me a wake up call since he works nights. But here's the problem with that... #1 I don't want to chance waking Tatum up that early with a phone call. #2 I want this to be MY choice. I don't want to feel like I HAVE to get up because somebody is calling me. I don't want to resent DH for calling every morning. This just has to be something I do for me. I know I feel better...all day long... when I exercise in the morning. And these days, if it doesn't happen in the morning, it just doesn't happen. I thought maybe last night I'd go home and do something. A DVD, a walk, something. I thought Tatum & I had the house to ourselves. (DH has school Monday, Tuesday, and Thursday) But he said class was cancelled. So we ate and then took T out to ride her bike in the cove. While we sat at the end of the driveway. I knew I could have gone walking at that point. But I didn't.

Exercise used to be my passion. I loved it. I still love it in theory. I just haven't done it. I know...sometimes you just have to force yourself to do it. Then you realize what you've been missing. JUST DO IT, right? Okay, okay..... I hear ya, Th'Angela. I hear ya!

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Feeling better

Tuesday, October 30, 2007 23:03:09

I am feeling much better, guys! Thanks for all the well wishes. I appreciate that. I am still a little stuffy, but not feeling drained. I was hardly able to stand for longer than a few minutes on Saturday. We went to my step mom's anyway.

Yesterday, we went to the corn maze. It was a fun day. The neighbors and their little girl went with us. Then we ate at TGI Friday's. I had some spinach dip and then the parmesan crusted chicken from the Right Portion/Right Price. Not low cal, but portion size was not HUGE.

Today, I think I have some new resolve. I tried on some shorts yesterday that had gotten a little baggy over the summer. They were a little tight. I've given away any clothes that have gotten too big. So I can't let the ones that fit get too tight. I'm going to eat on plan today. I might even go to TDP and log my food. Maybe. I haven't logged in so long. I thought I could just "wing this" and eat when I'm hungry. Guess not, huh?

It's cloudy here today. That never helps my mood. I'm not in a bad mood, per se, just maybe a little blah. Healthy food and exercise can help that, right? Yet again, I had intentions of getting up to exercise this morning. But it took me forever to fall asleep, so I didn't. I'm just going to have to bite the bullet one day and do it anyway. The first day is always the hardest. Then I usually sleep pretty well that next night. (Getting up at 4 am will do that to you.)

You know what? This blogging is really like therapy. Just since writing that paragraph above, I feel better. Healthier mood.

Yet again, there was no plan to this post and it's just a rambling mess. I'll quit now.

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I feel like crap!

Tuesday, October 30, 2007 23:01:09

It's official. I've come down with something. The flu, a cold, SOMETHING. I don't feel too hot. That's enough dwelling on that.

Thursday....Parent/Teacher conference went okay. She said Tatum needs help on focusing. DUH! Knew that. But it sounds like overall, she's doing very well. Just active.

Friday... Took my Placement Test at Little College. I can't remember anything about algebra. I have to take Intermediate Algebra before I can take College Algebra. That's cool. I would have been lost in College Algebra anyway. I remember I took Algebra I, Algebra II, Advanced Math, and Geometry, but that's all I remember, apparently. But...I scored a 99 on the Reading and a 98 on the Writing. GO me!

DH has Tatum at the grocery store right now so I can rest. (And here I am on the computer.) I'm worried about him doing the grocery shopping. But he has a list. Hopefully it will all work out. LOL!

Today is dinner at my step mom's. I hope I feel well enough. Then tomorrow is the Corn Maze. If, again, I feel well enough.

Needless to say, there wasn't any exercise yesterday. On Thursday, Tatum & I did not do Supercharged Sculpting. We went outside and played kickball. That counts. Eating... well, I have probably eaten too many calories, however, food isn't quite as appealing right now. I guess it's the drainage and all.

Have a great Saturday!

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My FRIDAY!

Wednesday, October 31, 2007 00:09:08

YAY! I'm off tomorrow. Tatums is out of school and DH doesn't work Friday nights. He usually just takes a nap on Fridays. So I decided to take the day off and spend some time with the fam. However, at 10:00, I do have to go to Little College to take my placement test. I'm so nervous. I know I don't remember much from school. What if I have to take lots of remedial classes before I can even start my "normal" classes? I did very well in high school. Except my junior year, and that's kind of a long story. I took mostly advanced placement and honors classes. I hardly had to study. That just means that I don't remember it! Oh well, so be it. The refreshers will be good if I do have to take High School Math again or something.

I get to leave early today, too. Only about an hour and a half. It's Parent/Teacher Conference night. I had to call T's teacher last night to make sure what time we had to be there. She said, "I was just about to call you because I really want to meet with you." YIKES! Not good when the teacher says that. LOL! I'm going with an opened mind. I know T has issues with being active and all that. However, looking at her conduct chart, her good days far outweigh the bad days. And she's smart as a tack too. (If I do say so myself)

I am so tired today. The ironic part? I slept all the way through the night. I didn't get up even once to go to the bathroom. No, I didn't sleep too much. I slept from about 10 - 5. But I think when the alarm went off, I was in such a deep sleep. Now I'm groggy. So, you guessed it, no exercise this morning! DH has school tonight, so T & I have free reign of the house. Can you say Supercharged Sculpting??? We don't have to have a bedtime tonight since we are both off tomorrow. We do still try to keep her close to her routine, even on weekends, though.

This weekend.... hmmmm... Friday night I think we are going to dinner with some of my friends for one friend's birthday. Then Saturday we are going to my step mom's for dinner. Sunday we might try to go to the Corn Maize/Pumpkin Patch. There ya have it.

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Realizations!

Wednesday, October 31, 2007 00:08:08

Thank you guys so much for your comments yesterday. You really made me feel good. I love that you think of me as an inspiration, though I don't see myself that way. Nor do I blog for that reason alone. Sorry to say that I'm selfish when it comes to my healthier lifestyle. This time I'm doing it for ME. I hope I have helped some of you along the way, but that's not necessarily the sole purpose why I do it. I want you to know that all of you have inspired me and taught me something along the way.

Well, most of you. Which brings me to my next rant. After almost two years here on EP, I have blocked a user from leaving comments on my blog. I was just going to block her and not mention it. But I would hate for this person to come back and try to leave a comment and think the block was some mistake or EP glitch. It's not. I chose to block this person because her comments usually get me worked up. First of all... I'm all about being honest. If I need a swift kick in the ass, by all means, go for it. (Tactfully) If you have a great suggestion... or even a mediocre suggestion, go for it. But do not, I repeat DO NOT! come on MY blog and tell me you can see that I haven't lost much for weight and that sucks. I have lost almost 50 pounds. I've lost more than my five year old weighs. That's pretty damn awesome in my book. Not only that, but I HAVE maintained for eight months now. Yes, I would like to lose more. But never come here with negativity. I just don't have time for that crap. I choose to surround myself with people who lift me up. Not bring me down. This isn't the only questionable comment I've received from her. And from what I hear, others have had "issues" with her comments as well. So, yes, YOU ARE BLOCKED. I'm not naming her in this post, though it's very easy to go back to yesterday's post and find the comment to which I am referring.

Okay, rant over.

My realization... If I don't get up to exercise at 4:15 in the morning, it ain't happening. I'm not saying it can't happen. But it's very unlikely. I get home around 5:00. Now that means I have 2.5 hours to cook dinner, eat dinner, play with Tatum, make sure Tatum is bathed, and then get her corralled into the bed. I then read to her and rub her back for a few. So it's close to 8:00 when I'm done. If I workout that late, I have trouble sleeping. Not to mention the fact that I like to be in bed no later than 9:00. Earlier if I'm "planning" to get up and workout in the morning. Yes, T & I play together and go for walks. And that's great. It burns calories. But I also need to get some serious workouts in.

I had every intention of getting up this morning. But what happens on Tuesday night...TBL. I won't give any spoilers, but I will say it's on again tonight. A lot of what Jillian was saying hit home. I always get pumped when I watch the show. But then I try to go to sleep. I'm so pumped, I can't sleep. So I switched the alarm clock to my non-exercise time. Which brings the cycle back around. No workout since I didn't get up. However, DH does not have school tonight. He'll help with some of the "chores" and keep T busy while I do a DVD. But that's if I muster up the energy once I get home.

For those of you who can still leave comments....*that means you weren't blocked, by the way*... Don't be afraid to be honest with me. EVER! I don't want fake BS on here. But please do not tell me that I suck at this weight loss thing. I may be taking the comment wrong. But bottom line, most of her comments leave me questioning them. Just not worth it.

Thank you all of my EP friends for always motivating and inspiring me. You guys ROCK!

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Why do I blog?

Wednesday, October 31, 2007 00:07:09

You know I started thinking... I blog pretty much everyday. Minus some weekends when I'm not into getting on the computer. And this is a weight loss blog. I haven't lost any weight since February! So how the heck can I blog every single day? What have I been blogging about?

I guess it's the same ole same ole. I wanna.... I didn't.... I wanna... Why didn't I?? So, really, WHY DIDN'T I?!

In all honesty, it doesn't matter. But I just can't keep NOT doing this. I can't. I have to do this. I CHOOSE to do this! But, then again, I think I've written this several times before.

Something clicked (again) yesterday while I was doing my Supercharged Sculpting. Just looking at those girls reminded me of what I want. Reading Alicia's post yesterday reminded me. I know that I can't compromise. I know what I have to do.

I'd say that overall, I did it yesterday. I am proud that I went ahead and did my exercise. I'm proud that for the most part, I ate very well. I'm proud that I have a daughter to help encourage me. DH does too. I guess I've got it pretty good, don't I?

Oh, and remember yesterday I wasn't thinking I'd be sore? Yeah, I'm sore as shiz today! I love it! I love it!! I love feeling sore. I love it because I really feel like I've accomplished something.

So, why do I blog? Because if I don't, I will fall off the face of this weight loss world. I've tried it every other way in the past. And this has been the most consistent time and the longest time I've stuck with this. I realize this time around...it's FOREVER. So that's why I blog. I love you guys and you really help me along the way. Thanks!

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Bless that Child!

Wednesday, October 31, 2007 00:06:15

I do believe Tatum is feeling better. After reading Alicia's post, I felt very inspired. She always does that to me! So I asked Tatum if she felt like exercising. (She seemed to be better, and let's face it, she never completes the ENTIRE DVD with me.) She said, "YES! Exercise is good for your heart!" That's my girl. So I told her I was going to get changed. I was thinking I'd do an easy WATP DVD. I barely break a sweat there. So even though I have good intentions, I knew I still wasn't giving it my all. But it's better than nothing, right?

I come out of the bathroom and Tatum has already set up my TransFIRMer. Oh, wow! I wasn't ready for that. But okay. Let's do it. I couldn't disappoint her, afterall!

So I did my 35 minute SuperCharged Sculpting. Some of the moves hurt my knee a little bit. But overall, I was able to push through. I wonder if I'm going to be sore. It doesn't feel like it. That worries me. I'm usually at least a little sore after I do that workout for the first time in months. Maybe I didn't give it my all, but it sure felt like it.

Well, Tatum has learned a few moves from me, apparently. Any time I wasn't on the TransFIRMer, she jumped on to do her own thing. Cutest thing EVER!!!

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Sick Child Alert

Wednesday, October 31, 2007 00:06:10

Well, many of you will be happy to know that we did not go to the Corn Maze this weekend. I had decided much like Val suggested. We would figure something else out to do. Something not *quite* as exciting as the Corn Maze. But when we all go up, Tatum had a fever. She wouldn't hold the thermometer under her tongue for the entire time, but it did get up to 101.5. Now, she's not sick very often. She said her throat hurt. So we didn't even have to make a decision on the Corn Maze. After some Tylenol, the fever was going down. DH & I had decided to lay plastic in our flower bed (so weeds can't grow through.) and then put mulch on top. We bought everything Friday night, so we were ready to go. Since T was acting okay, she was able to go out there with us. Our nurse practicioner neighbor looked at her ears, nose, and throat. She said there weren't any white infection sites, but it was all red. So we gave her some Robitussin to break up all the drainage. She will never take that again. She said it tasted awful. Bottom line for a weight blog...my exericse was the flower bed.

My eating the entire weekend has been horrible. Not only is there no structure to my day, but there's no structure to my eating. There weren't any real meals. Just grazing all day.

Tatum still had the fever on Sunday. Her eyes were so weak looking. She had some diarrhea. But by Sunday night, we thought she was better. This morning around 3:45 she woke me up because she was thirsty. I gave her water, which she later puked on my bedroom floor. I decided she'd be staying home. If for nothing else, than to rest and become re-hydrated. By 8:00 she was acting pretty normal. But we had already called the school and I called work, so we are staying home. I still think she probably needs it.

So, I've still been sucking at this weight loss thing. I've got to reel it back in. I know this.

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