09/15/2010 16:47
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Tuesday was a bust in my opinion. I say that because I wasn't aware of what I was eating. I didn't pay attention. I just ate..... the good news is that I'm here posting about it, as honestly as possible. I say that because I didn't write it all down, so I might have missed something inadvertently.
M1: 2 slices toast, 2 tbsp peanut butter, banana
M2: Starbuck's Pumpkin Spice CREAM based Frappuccino (grande) a co-worker brought this to me and it was SOOO good. It's my fave cold drink. I don't like coffee. Can you get these non-fat????
M3: Lean Cuisine Pepperoni Pizza
M4: Lenny's white chocolate macadamia nut cookie brought in by a patient
M5: 2 slices Domino's Pepperoni pizza (this was at the PTO meeting at school)
M2: Starbuck's Pumpkin Spice CREAM based Frappuccino (grande) a co-worker brought this to me and it was SOOO good. It's my fave cold drink. I don't like coffee. Can you get these non-fat????
M3: Lean Cuisine Pepperoni Pizza
M4: Lenny's white chocolate macadamia nut cookie brought in by a patient
M5: 2 slices Domino's Pepperoni pizza (this was at the PTO meeting at school)
M6: cashews, but I am not sure how many
Now, I tell you where the food came from, not to blame it on somebody else. I tell you so you know I'm not out buying all this stuff when I say I'm on a budget. Now, don't get me wrong... there WILL be the occasional Starbuck's runs and going out to eat. But last night's dinner was completely out of convenience. They have a concession stand before the Parent Teacher Organization meetings. Each slice of pizza is $1.00. Basically, we wouldn't have had time to make dinner, eat, and then go to the meeting. So we ate there. And really, dinner under $10 for 3 people isn't so bad!!!
I look back at this now, and it wasn't as terrible as I thought it was in my head. Don't get me wrong, I know it's not great. But in my head I felt like a failure. This is why I just need to be honest and accountable. It's actually easier and even cleansing to say, "This is what I ate!!!" Rather than pretend it didn't happen. Like I said when I came back here... this is my life. This isn't a diet. This is real food. Real hunger.... real ME! It is what it is. Just hoping I can control portions enough to lose some weight. My little experiment. Because time will pass no matter what I do.