DH & I had a seriously huge financial bomb dropped on us Tuesday. I have to say the way I've handled this is so different than had it happened, say four weeks ago. This Transformation stuff is amazing. I am realized...for real.... that things are just external. They don't have to affect my mood or what I eat. I'm not saying I won't still mess up. But overall, I'm still at peace. Even after the huge news. I had cake the day I found out the news. But I still got all my workouts in and that was the only little stray that I had.
I am also learning to really love myself. I put a bathing suit on the other day and did not immediately gag when I looked in the mirror. Granted, I still didn't like what I saw, but it wasn't a BASHING session on myself.
I want everybody to realize how important this is... to change from the inside. I've known this for a long time, but I guess I just didn't really "get it". It's so not about dieting. Yes, you have to do the work....eating healthy and working out. But more importantly, you have to find peace. Once you find inner peace, the rest is easy.
I'm not all the way there on inner peace, but I tell you, in less than 3 weeks, I'm so much better than I was!
Have a great day!
Posted By: TatumsMom
Comments to this post:
06/12/2009 07:29
lovely!
i really enjoyed this post, very uplifting! it somewhat brightened my day, it's lovely to know that even though you've had a rough time you've been dealing really well, you should be proud :) and i totally agree about inner peace, i'm still waiting for mine to click into place, but reading your post has made me look forward to it finally happen! i hope you have a wonderful weekend
About how you're feeling...better able to handle situations. I've been praying for you and the struggle you are going through financially, whatever it is. Sometimes things seem simply impossible, but when we trust in God, He makes a way. So, I'll keep praying that He helps you through it. And the looking in the mirror thing...I totally get it. I haven't tried on a bathing suit, but I am able to smile at myself in the mirror now. Is that silly? Because I seriously don't think I had looked at myself without disgust in a very long time...and it's not that I LOOK any different yet, but I sure feel it on the inside. Anyway, sending much love your way, my dear! Stay strong! I know you will.
That is so great to hear that you are dealing with something like this in such a good way. Yeah, there's an insanely stressful situation in your midst. But you have yourself and your family. It's never the end of the world.
You couldn't possibly be more right. For me, it's forgiveness... not letting myself off the hook for stuff I shouldn't, but forgiving myself for stupid things I beat myself up over. It's making a world of difference.
Hope whatever it is that is financially weighing on your family, will resolve quickly, with little pain.
You're allowed to eat cake, too, ya know. The doing so in moderation is the hard part. Anyway, I'm glad that you were able to look on the positive side of the financial issue. It's hard not to let things like that cause a food blow-up, but it sounds like you got it under control. :) Take care, miss mom.
i agree that you have to love yourself no matter what size you are. i am working on that too. yay for you for handling the crisis without turning to food! keep up the great work. congrats on the 2 lbs lost!
I find that when I'm MOST content with my body is when I work out more and want to eat healthy. I guess I feel like I just want to improve. But I totally get what you mean about inner peace. It's so necessary!
