So I got to daycare to pick Tatum up yesterday. She was laying on the floor outside of the classroom. She was bawling and pretty much hyperventillating. I picked her up and let her calm down. Then the teacher came out. She hit a kid again. Turns out, it's the same kid she hit the other day... a boy, not a girl like I thought. I was able to get a little information out of Tatum. She said on Tuesday, he was making fun of her teeth. Then yesterday, he said she farted. I said, well, did you? And she admitted that she did, but that he kept making fun of her. So we talked a lot. She will now just tell the teacher if he continues making fun of her. NOT HIT! And if a teacher sends her to time out, she is to go. She does this limp noodle thing, I know it well. And they aren't allowed to pick her up. HUH?! What kind of rule is that? But anyway, that's their rule. I also ordered a book that my step-mom swears by. She is a retired teacher and has actually used the one for teachers. She said it's wonderful and it really is magic, just like the name suggests. And I found a cool web site. So we're trying.
Eating yesterday was horrible. What I really need to realize, is that no matter what the problem, food is not the answer. Unless the problem is hunger. Physical hunger. The food will not make me feel better. The food will not numb me. The food will make me feel worse in the long run. I was doing okay at first. My boss knew something was wrong with me. At 11:30, I got an email from her asking if I wanted to go to lunch. Our standard is Mexican. Uh, yeah, that was so good! She even paid.
Today is a new day. I'm on plan so far...at 7:19 am. LOL! I am praying for no rain today. I am going running after work. I am! I will run hard and leave all my troubles there.
Oh. The title. Last night, DH got home early from school and we talked a lot about discipline and things that aren't working. So, I had a hard time sleeping. I'm thinking I got...oh four hours. Ironically, I feel okay right now. Maybe it was good sleep once I finally did sleep.
Okay, I was looking on-line at some "motivational exercise t-shirts". I saw so many that I loved. One of my favorites said, "I may be fat....... but I'm slow". I thought that was hilarious. You know, I'm always talking about how slow I run. When I first read the I may be fat, I thought the rest was going to be something like...but you're ugly and I can lose weight. I literally sat at my desk laughing at some of these. No, I would never wear that one.
Very motivational: Somewhere in the world, someone is training when you are not. When you race him, he will win.
Exercise: The poor man's plastic surgery.
The only place success comes before work is in the dictionary.
Work harder so you can look like the picture you put in my your MySpace profile.
And my second favorite: DO NOT FEED!
Okay, so moving on. I had to sign an incident report at daycare. Tatum hit a friend while getting in line. Then she went all limp and wouldn't go to time out. UGH! What are we going to do? I mean, a lot of her behavioral problems have improved since she's been at the new daycare. But why does she hit??? I am just hoping we can figure something out soon. I can't afford boarding school. I just want to cry or eat. Don't worry...not happening right now.
I was up at WI yesterday. And I started thinking... How much of that can I really attribute to my water intake? I mean, it's not like I had the most stellar eating week. So, I'm going to get honest with myself. Again. It wasn't ALL the water. But that's fine too. I'm being accountable and moving on. ON PLAN.
I saw a terrible accident on the interstate today. A little Ford Ranger pick up truck was flipped over and CRUSHED! Not sure what happened. BUT.. I will say that yesterday, there was a truck that looked very similar weaving in and out of traffic. Hmmmm.....
Saturday I get to meet with Kache, Bridget, and Bethany. I'm so excited. I've never met Bridget or Bethany. Bridget & I have seen each other at the park where we walk. But at first, we didn't realize it was us. Wow. That makes no sense. But you know what I mean, right?
I survived my run last night. I started getting REALLY worried. The heat index at 1:30 was 107. I stopped checking at that point. I'm sure it was 110 or so by the time I ran. I had my little 8oz of water. It was gone by the time I was 20 minutes in. So next time, I think I'll bring an actual bottle. It wasn't terrible carrying it. No, not my ideal choice. But I have to say... it helped. I didn't feel so entirely sluggish. I didn't make great time. But with that temperature, I wasn't looking to set any records. I was just trying to burn some calories. Some McDonald's calories to be exact. I went 2.75 miles. I decided not to go anymore after that. I was a little worried that I would end up over doing it. I left feeling proud of my accomplishment, not so sick that I couldn't revel in it. (That happened last week.)
So, today is weigh in day. I am sitting here at work with less than two hours til weigh in. I am a little thirsty. The old me would have said, "Girl, you are about to WI, you can't drink any water.' But the new me....who doesn't live for WIs....is drinking. Because I am thirsty. I decided it's stupid to do something or not do something solely based on my WI. And guess what? If this water causes me to gain or not lose much, so be it. Next week... it will even out. It's not all about that number on the scale. I freaking ran in 110 degrees last night. THAT is an accomplishment. Who cares what the scale says? My fitness has progressed so much. I remember last summer when I first started the C25k program. I thought I would never make it past the first week. But I did. And I can run now. Okay, so it's a jog...but whatever. I'm doing it. I'm out there.
Welp, gotta get some work done before I leave for WI.
After my post yesterday, things went downhill. We went to see Wall E. We were all completely bored. Tatum brought a friend. Okay, backup. First we went to eat at TGI Friday's. I ended up getting the Sausage & Chicken Roasted Red Pepper Penne...or whatever the heck it's called. I'm sure there were too many calories, but I love it so much. The two little girls and I shared a side salad. I tried to get dessert....but they no longer have the Oreo Cake on their menu. Good for me, I guess.
Then we went to the movie. Tatum fell asleep. Her friend looked bored to tears and told me she was trying not to fall asleep. Poor things.
By the time we got home and her friend left, it was about 6:00. In our house, that's too late to really start cooking. So, we were going to do Subway. Then somehow that got changed to McDonald's. So....two cheeseburger meal it is. UGH!
So, the plan today is to drink lots and lots of water to flush out my system and detox. I will eat 100% on plan. No deviations! And I will run tonight. I am a little nervous about that, though. The high is 100 and that is before the heat index. I am bringing one of those little snack sized water bottles with me to drink during the run. Let's hope some wild animal doesn't find my body decomposing on the trail. That's just plain hot, folks. Not to mention the humidity. AND the code orange air that we are having. But, I'm going to sweat out that Mickey D's.
You know, I'm all about preparing and doing things ahead of time to make things easier in the future. So.... I'm ready for the new week. Tatum got me up at 5:45 this morning. Yes, my child is a morning person as well. That's my fault. I have to get her up at 5:30 on weekdays. So I can't really expect her to sleep in on the weekends.
Anyway... we went grocery shopping. Then I came home and put the groceries away. I got all my food together and packed up for tomorrow. Then I laid out her clothes for the week. I packed up my bag with my running gear for tomorrow afternoon. I laid out my clothes for tomorrow. I'm ready! And it's only 9:15. Wow! Now all I have to do is enjoy my Sunday.
We are going to see Wall-E this afternoon. We were supposed to go a few weeks ago, but remember, Tatum got in trouble at school? Okay, so we'll try again. She's been pretty good the past few weeks. Especially at her new "school".
Today is going pretty well so far on the eating. Tatum was eating a Lunchable with the little torilla chips, cheese dip, and salsa. Those things are so good. I did snack a little on that. I had a few bites then decided STOP! Go blog. So here I am. Why did I let her have a Lunchable this early? I guess it felt like lunch time. We've already done so much today. LOL!
I want to be the best Angela I can be. I want to go to bed at night with no regrets....right, Alicia. You are definitely an inspiration on pushing yourself.
So, this morning, as planned, I stayed in bed while DH & Tatum went fishing. I slept off and on until 8:30. That's huge for me. I got up and ate my Jenny Craig French Toast. Perfect way to start the day. I love that stuff. Then I sat down and started watching Dazed and Confused. I love that movie. After a few minutes, I got and......wait for it........wait for it...... I went running. In my neighborhood. I hate going in my neighborhood. But I decided it was a great choice. I sure wasn't going to spend the gas to drive the 20 miles to my usual place. I was out for 30 minutes. I have no idea on the distance. Don't really care. I am dripping sweat all over. Arms, legs, head, EVERYTHING. It was already 85 at 9 am and so freaking humid. All the humidity seems to be dripping off my body now.
I ate way too much when I got home yesterday. It wasn't the best day at work. And, yet again, I didn't want the alternative solutions to work. I wanted to eat. And I did. But it's over now. I went for my run. I'm still in this game. It's looking like I eat way off plan about once a week now. So, let's look at this logically. WAY better than I used to eat. And, even if I ate 2500 additional calories, if I divide that over the week, That's still an average of under 1900 calories per day. And with the running and other exercising that I'm doing, it's all good. Granted, I'd prefer not to have the Friday or Saturday food fests. But looking at the big picture, it's not that big of a deal. Next week will be better. That's all I can go for...PROGRESS!
Well, no go on the exercise this morning. I have two alarms on my clock. One is set for 4 am and the other for 4:45. I accidentally turned on the 4:45 one last night. So I didn't get up in time. It was kind of frustrating. I mean, a stupid mistake, like setting the wrong alarm, prevented me from getting up. But that's okay, it's done. DH has school tonight. I can most likely squeeze in my DVD.
Running last night..... YIKES! I say last night. I go right after work. I usually leave about 3:50, so it's not quite night yet. LOL! Okay, it was hot. Yucky! I'm not 100% sure, but I think the heat index was around 100. I did my warm up walk in the parking lot. Then I hit the trail. I made it 20 minutes before I had to walk. Okay, before I CHOSE to walk. I guess I still could have kept on. Then I took a one minute walk break and started back running again. My time for 2.75 miles was 38:13. Yikes again. It was a very uncomfortable run. About a half mile into the trail, I really felt like I had to pee. So it just wasn't great conditions. I considered using the port-a-potty but thought better of it.
Tomorrow is going to be great. DH is getting up with Tatum. Then they are going fishing together. He thinks I need a break. How sweet is that?! He had to work all last weekend and I pulled my hair out. So I'm looking forward to sleeping in and then maybe watching some Lifetime TV or Food Network. Then tomorrow night I'm going to my friend's house. She's having a Girls' Night In starting with a Premier Jewelry show. Should be fun.
A couple of you asked about the secret to getting up at 4am. I will tell you what works for me. I used to be in the habit much better than I am now. And that's what it all boils down to. HABIT! The first morning is pretty brutal. I literally have to force myself to get up. But after that, it gets easier. REALLY!
One thing to note is that on a normal day, I get up at 4:45. So it's only 45 minutes earlier to put it in perspective. So for somebody who normally gets up at 6:00, it would be the equivalent of 5:15 for you.
I am more a morning person than a night person...please don't hate. So that's why morning workouts work for me. I start preparing the night before in several ways.
I make sure to get to bed early.
I sleep in my shorts, sports bra, & tank top.
I have shoes & socks ready in the bathroom.
I have any necessary exercise equipment ready to go in the living room, along with the proper DVD in the DVD player.
Then when I get up, I put my shoes & socks on while I'm peeing. (TMI?) Then I brush my teeth, put in my contacts, throw my hair in a ponytail and I'm ready to go.
Why do I like to exercise in the morning? I know I'm done for the day, unless I choose to run in the afternoon. It feels good to know I've accomplished something even before I get to work. I have more energy during the day and I'm less likely to eat off plan. I have an overall BETTER attitude and a BETTER day. I definitely don't feel as rushed in the mornings either. All in all, it's so worth it.
Keep in mind, though, if your are not a morning person, you could end up resenting your workouts and it might make you quit. I believe you can train yourself to do it, but if you're going to hate it, it's just not worth it. This journey is all about finding healthy habits we can stick with. We have to do what worksf or us. Sometimes we find out through trial and error. My 4am workouts are no more effective than somebody who works out at 10 pm. It's a personal choice. And the best time to workout is whatever works for YOU! As long as you do it!
So on that note, I got up at 4am this morning to exercise for the first time in a while. I only did my 30 minutes WATP. My plan is this:
Sunday: 55 minute Aerobic Body Shaping (The Firm)
Monday: am workout: WATP, pm workout: Running
Tuesday: OFF
Wednesday: am workout: 35 minute Supercharged Sculpting (The Firm)
Thursday: am workout: WATP, pm workout: Running
Friday: am workout: 35 minute Supercharged Sculpting
Saturday: Run if I choose to or take another off day
I really want to start getting up at 4 am again for my workouts. I know how important adequate sleep is, though. I've been having a hard tim falling asleep lately. If I'm still awake at midnight, I'm sure not getting up at 4 am. I'm working on some relaxation techniques and meditation for when I lie down. Hopefully that will work and I can go on with my plan.
My next run is tomorrow. My plan is to do my warm-up walk in the parking lot and then literally hit the trail running. That way I can run the entire trail of 2.75 miles. Then I'll pass the start again and keep going to the 0.5 mile marker. That will be a total of 3.25 miles run. Somewhat like a 5k, huh? I guess a little bit longer. Then I'll walk back for my cool down. I'm attempting to run - with NO walk breaks - 3.25 miles. Don't care about pace. Keep it slow.
I will do my best on my run, however, if I don't succeed, I do have a back up plan. There are some hills on the trail. Hills tend to wear me out. So if I don't succeed, then on my next run, I'll do the other trail...the flat trail. I'll do my warm up in the parking lot and then try to run 2 laps, which would be 3.34 miles with no walk breaks. And if I don't succeed, I'll just keep trying until I do. I'm still loving running.....never stopped....just want to learn to improve.
I ate on plan again yesterday. This is feeling pretty good! My exercise yesterday was cutting the grass.
Well, I need to check on y'all and then get to work!
Yesterday, I found that if I keep my brain fully engaged, I don't think about food. I was covering a co-workers desk. This used to be my job, but I haven't done it in a couple years, minus the few days that she's taken off. I really had to think about what I was doing. (Unlike my normal job that comes without thinking now.) As if I needed more reasons to challenge myself to do things outside the norm. LOL!
I took full advantage of the cooler temperature yesterday and went running. The high was 90, so I was thrilled. Well, I did my six minute warm up walk. Then I started running. Okay, it was jogging. I decided I'd take it very slow. And slow I did. I made it all the way to the end of the trail, then I did the transition to the other trail around the lake. I was doing fine on the first trail because I wasn't thinking about it. But then as soon as I hit the other one, I started thinking about how far I had gone...for me. And then I thought too hard. Dang it! But still, I made it 36 straight minutes jogging with no walk breaks. Then I did a few jog spurts here and there, but nothing to write home about for the rest of it. I did 4.42 miles in 59:59. According to www.active.com, that's a whopping pace of 13:34. Whoo hooo! I'm breaking records here. Actually, I am. My "record" of running 34 minutes straight. So I'll focus on that fact. I beat it by two minutes.
I felt so terrible when I finished my run. Well, good because I did it. But physically....my legs were jello. I didn't think I could make it to my car. It almost hurt to stand up and all I wanted to do was sit. I was physically exhausted. Now, I never bring water when I run. Well, I drink some before I go and have some waiting in the car for me. I do drink plenty of water throughout the day. But, if I'm keeping my runs under 5 miles, do I really need to have water during the run? I'm asking for advice from you runners again. See, I already have to carry my keys. I'd hate to carry a water bottle too. I just don't know. Could that be why I felt so crappy?
RBR
