I've been good for 3 days and counting...(= YAY!!!
I'm trying to not dig my grave with my own knife and fork and remind myself that my stomach isn't a waist basket. I'm also trying to eat to live, not live to eat. I don't think it's okay to be fat. So I'm fat. I will not just be fat and talk about it. I'm going to shut up and do something about it. I believe one way to get thin is to re-establish a purpose in life. If hunger is not my problem, then eating should not by my solution. Life itself is the proper binge. I want to lengthen my life, I need to shorten my meals. I can't lose weight by talking about it. I have to keep my mouth shut. When I thought food was my best friend, it was actually my worst enemy. The commonest form of malnutrition in the western world is obesity. I used to be clogged with yesterday's excess, as my body would drag my mind down with it. I'm not afraid of heights but afraid of widths. Fat is not a moral problem. It's an oral problem. Obesity is a mental state, a disease brought on by boredom and disappointment. Obesity is really widespread. This is for me. I'm not going to go out of my weigh to please anyone but yourself.
“The positive thinker sees the invisible, feels the intangible, and
achieves the impossible.” Therefore, I will replace negative thoughts
with positive ones, so I can start to see positive results.
I've set up a website for fundraising and even registered my family and I to join a 5K walk for Cancer, on Saturday,
September 11, 2010, in Salt Lake City =)
I love work. I love being here at work. I love what I do here at work. I just hate being sick when I'm at work. It's the pits! I made a promise to myself, that I will not let RA conquer me. I can beat this on my own. I will start ... one day at a time. Today seems promising but, we'll see. I need to think of creative ways to stay focused and excited about living healthy, regardless of my physical set backs.
Okay I failed again. Ugh.... This always happens when I'm home. I'm always doing great at work, then I come home and FAIL miserably. I went home had some more almonds, wheat thins and a pudding. Then I killed it by eating 2 cups of M&Ms. I hate that these things are so addicting. UGH.
I failed to keep my schedule. 