A Change Has Come

I'm so happy to have stuck it out....the beginning was slightly rocky, wasn't sure, if this B!2 and Phen would work...but sometimes slow is better.  I have went from the yellow pills to the blue pills and feel they have helped tremendously.  My energy level is still up and down.....no jittery feelings, dry mouth is definitely an issue but nothing water can't take care of, but ultimately, I have been able to work out pretty much every single day for an hour or so, since April I have lost approximately 26lbs, YIPPEEE.  I feel better, I look better and my husband is finally making comments about noticing.  I'm glad I went down this path, however, I wonder what will happen when this path of phen and B12 comes to an end, let's face it, this is not a permanent thing, I will have to find my own wings and use them to fly, that's a scary feeling sometimes, knowing the battle I have with energy, but I will pray that it works out because I love feeling and being healthy and don't want to go back to that women who was overweight (still is but making strides to change this), tired all the time, no motivation, eating whatever.  I want a permanent life change.  I thankful to have been given the opportunity to use all tools that were available to me.  I will continue to reach my goal of losing 50-60lbs total by Novemeber-December, after all I know it can be done.

Mine Body and Soul

Reshaping my mine body and soul

This pill is really interesting...I initally started on the yellow phen pill, I'm assuming it's the generic brand however I found it to still keep me hungry throughout the day and with that I just used my will power to keep from eating maybe lost 10lbs or so within 2most thought it was slow paced.  The diet clinic I attend started me on the blue pill which she claimed is slower acting and you get less hungry, actually I'm still hungry and I now believe that it's due to not being able to get enough calories in throughout the day, this is what I'm assuming, the blue pill initally didn't seem any better but after taking it for 4 weeks now I feel a little more energy than I did with the yellow pill.  I noticed that I had to literally workout everyday most of the time to see or feel some results.  I just came back from vacation in cancun, couldn't exercise  that much had started the blue bill a week before I left, my appetite remained suppressed a little I did snack on and off because I wasn't getting much calories in. Ran out of pills because I was on vacation at the time I was due to get a refill at least 3 days without the medicine.  Went to the clinic and had lost 3lbs since the last time I had seen them.  I have good exercise habits now and would like to get down to at least 190 before I try it on my own without the phen.  I realize that having the correct amount of energy is definitely the key.  I'm also recieving the b12 shot not sure if this is helping or not.  Overally I'm satisfied with my results and I'm starting to feel my body reshape itself.  I just pray I can keep this up, lol...Good luck to everyone.  Remember this medicine will only work as hard as you.

Feelings

I'm scared...but I know I must persevere and lose the weight for my health and my self esteem. I need energy to workout. I started the journey a month ago lost 6 lbs on my own then gained it back because I stop working out...had not energy or motivation, my husband is very supportive and doesn't feel I need to lose much just tone up. I received my B12 shot from a dr in Maryland and was given phen pills...I know this is a quick fix by my BMI and my weight is not good for my height. Fortunately, my overall health is good but I know I have the potential for many things staying "Obese", I said it, it such a nasty and demeaning word.... I didn't realize how demaeaning this word was until my youngest son was helping make a profile for the Wii Fit game and saw my weight BMI and Weight put me in the OBESE catagory. Being a child he kept saying "ma your obese, that's not good"...I was really upset that he kept saying that, and I told him not to repeat that to anyone...I even put a lock pass code on the Wii so my husband nor anyone else could assess my information. This is going to be a long journey but my motivation is going to the carribean at the end of June for my 2nd year anniversary. I pray for a miracle, I also know that pills is a quick fix and eventually I will have to continue to journey on my own...I hear you gain the weight back double when you come off these pills....I will have to stress about that later......I'M BOUND FOR A HEALTHY LIFE STYLE AND A BODY I CAN APPRECIATE. CARRIBBEAN HERE I COME