08/07/2010 16:38
Rock Bottom!
Its so typica right, you lose 10 pounds and hen you cheat or in my case just stop paying attention and gain back 15.
I am the heaviest I have ever been and I believe I tottaly hit rock bottom the other day when i opened up my facebook account to see i had been tagged in a picture at a water park we went to with my best friends family.
There she is perfectly beautiful in a pretty little bikini and there i am a BIG FAT Blob, She says no your beautiful. dont you hate it when skinny people try and make you feel better.
This is so hard, I am at my heaviest weight ever AND that includes my pregnancies. My little boys both have medical issues were trying to deal with, my job is SO damn stressfull and I need to be up at 4:30 am to get to work for 6am (the drive is an hour) I get home about 5pm. Have supper with my family baths and bedtimes and then im exausted and vedge on the couch and then>>>> Snacks
lately its been PB and J or Berrys with Cream. I know its wrong. I feel guilty as im doing it for christs sakes, but i sit there and eat. Im too exausted to do anything else.
My Husband is not really a ig help, he knows i want to lose weight yet he shows up with McD's or the "i feel like a pizza"
I need a Goal, I need some motivation, I need a kick in the @ss!
Since, I am too fat to kick it my self .... who wants to be my motivation buddy????
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06/09/2010 04:56
Back On Track!!!
Well... its Tuesday and im looking good... OK maybe looking's the wrong word ;)
Monday, drank water... Played soccer. Im the goalie and i can sooooo tell how out of shape im in as i have lost my speed. Juiced up my competive bone and gave me a little motivation. I hope that sticks. Im playing every Monday until Mid July when he season ends
Tonight was bootcamp... OMG!!!! Flippen tires, running stairs, running with logs.. so hard... so fun and i am sooo gonna hurt tommorrow. this is ywice a week ...PEOPLE TRY THIS... well maybe ask me again tomorrow..lol
I am eating better. Staying clean so nothingman made meat, veggies and clean carbs... so once i get past the cravings i'll tackle portion control. Im not over eating im just not measuring...
Water is still my struggle... I need to get more in me... I just need to get better...
hope evryone else is hanging in!!!
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06/06/2010 23:42
Im Sooooo Exausted!
Sometimes I take on way to much. I work full time, 10 hour days 4 days a week add in two more for travel. I get out of bed at 4:30 am to leave for work at 5Am. My shift is 6 - 4pm.. and I get home at 5. then supper, ususually someone has a sport or i have to rush off to some committee sit on and by the time thats done I AM EXAUSTED.
I tell myself im going to get up earlier and work out, but that just never works. and I am so tired at the end of the day I don't know when I can get a work out in.
weekends are full of chores and kids sports. i wish i had a day that was just about me!
In addition to being so tired im Stressed. were talking about upgrading our house, I never realized how stressful this could be, getting our house market ready, dealing with pre-approval at the bank and ladda ladda.
My son is having issues in school, he may have Aspergers and/or ADHD. I have so many meetings and conferences at the school, Meaning i need to take time from work that I end up working extra on weekends just to keep up with my deadlines.
Soooo. needless to say I sucked again last week. Im at the same weight i started at last week. I need focus, i need motivation, but right now im too tired to give a crap.
My girlfriend talked me into joining a boot camp. I start tuesday... maybe this will be the kick I need
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05/27/2010 05:05
My Math Sucks
Ok... I said 3 but it was only 2... damn it! and barely anything today! .2 whats that... at least its down and not up...
Crap day... worked from home.. I am a buisness manager and have had so much work stress lately... so I ate OK (not great) But OK...
I got this fantastic idea to put water by the coffee pot as i can guzzle room temp water pretty good. BAD PLAN... felt nausaus... my body wants coffee first... Im going to fight this and give this plan a few more days... 1.5 cups of coffee
Breakfeast >> Starving 2 packs instant oat meal plus half cup of milk
Lunch >> Two cups sweet potato fries with honey mustard sause, can of gingerale
Supper>> Peas, cucumber, corn on cob and 3 chicken strips
Snack >> Bowl fruit loops with cup milk
Im sure if i added those calories this is bad... so Im going to note what im eating.. But stick to focusing on water and deal with calorie counting later... Any water tricks out there??? I would like to get to 10 cups per day (not included whats taken in during exercise)
on a good note as im sitting here playing with this i have guzzled two more cups... yay me!!!
dear fat god's, please make me -1 tommorrow night!!!!
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