Well the good news is...we bought a house!!!  It's in a great location, has ample room and it's in move-in condition.  It was a little spendier than I wanted, but I think it's a really good long term choice for us and we're very excited.  We don't close until 6/22 so we'll be chillin' in the apt. until then, but then we can move in slowly and get the painting and stuff done before all our stuff is there.

 

So, the bad news is...I haven't lost any weight.  In fact I've gained a little but I'm holding steady at about 201.  Not even close to my goal, which is now so far off.

 

Which leads me to the Baby...I'm pregnant!  Pretty exciting news!  We're weren't really trying, but weren't NOT Trying, and so it happened.  I was thinking that maybe I was a while ago but then figured I mis-counted my cycle, but then TOM just never showed up and I figured I'd better take a test to see where I stand.  I'm about 6 1/2 weeks, so not very far, I think my due date is late December (thank you 2009 tax deduction!)   I haven't told any family or friends yet, just the girls that I was going to WW w/ at Work.  They're all excited except that I won't be able to continue with them for the next session. 

 

So obviously my weight loss plans are on hold for a while, but I do still need to pay a lot of attention to my weight.  I gained 60 lbs with DS, and was very, very unhappy.  I have like no pictures of me pregnant because I was so embarassed of how I looked.  I don't want it to be like that this time.  I really wished I would have focused more and lost the weight before this happened, but I'm excited to have another baby and I know I can deal with the weight at any time.  I'm doing a lot of research into prenatal nutrition and I'm still keeping up with my workouts.   I've actually been eating almost OP, very healthy stuff and feeling good about it.  I'm a little surprised that I haven't lost any weight given the changes I've made in the last couple weeks.  As long as it doesn't skyrocket, then that's fine with me.  So I probably won't be the most active blogger in the upcoming months.  Not sure if there's any EP etiquette on being on the site while pregnant.  Anyone???  If I'm not writing, I'll for sure be reading and will maybe even post a belly shot now and then. 

 

So here's to a healthy baby and pregnancy...more to come.

This weekend hasn't been perfect, but I'm starting to be more conscious of my eating and at least I don't feel out of control.  Last night I sat down and planned out my ENTIRE menu for the upcoming week, through Sunday.  And then I went and got groceries because I was worried would become too busy, and guess what, I was right!  So glad we have some good food in the house.  I didn't workout however, which I'm bummed about, but I think I'll be able to tomorrow after work.  So for tonight, I'm going to sign off now, put the little guy to bed and then prepare my food for tomorrow and pack my gym bag.  Wish me luck on my first day back OP!

 

Night all!

Well I've been on EP for over a month and I'm down a net of .2 lbs.  I guess it's better than being up .2, but still.  I had some really good weeks OP, and then I've had some really rough weeks, unfortunately the rough ones have taken over.  We are finally all moved into our apt. and fairly settled, but I still haven't been able to get into a good routine of planning meals and finding time to exercise.  DH is definitely frustrated with me and it doesn't make things better. I know I want to lose weight, but I just can't seem to understand what's preventing me from doing it.  Sure I've been uber busy this past month, but so has everyone else.  Right?!  As much as I wish I could hit a Pause button until I reach my goal weight, life goes on and I need to figure out how to handle weight loss when the times get tough.

 

This weekend I'm hoping to spend some time relaxing and getting organized.  I need a plan, I always do better when I have a plan.  I told DH that I need him to plan out his and DS's meals and snacks for the next 2 weeks and make the grocery list.  I honestly can't handle making their food choices right now as well as my own.  Hopefully that will take some weight off my shoulders.  So at least now I just have to worry about myself.  I'm also going to walk today and tomorrow, and then I need to figure out how I want to fit exercise back in without geting overwhelmed.

 

If anyone has any food/menu ideas, I'd love to see what you've got!  So, here we go again, let's hope I can be more consistent this time!

I wasn't just off program today or not journaling, I was actually self-destructive.  I was totally aware of what I was doing and I knew what the consequences would be, gain weight, get bloated and feel like crap, yet I CHOSE to eat until my stomach hurt, multiple times!  It was like I had to decide what options were the worse for me and that's what I ate.  I guess the good thing is that at least I'm aware that I'm doing this, the issue is WHY am I am I doing this???  And why do I continue?

 

I know I'm exhausted beyond belief because of this never-ending move, but honestly, I think that just gives me a good excuse.  How did I go from jogging 15 mins just 5 days ago, to eating a whole bag of cookies in one sitting?  When will this roller coaster end?  I wish I could say that tomorrow is going to be a new start, but I don't it will be.  It's almost like I'm planning to continue this binge until Sunday, you know, that's a much more reasonable day for a new beginning.  Oh, the self talk...I wish it wasn't so manipulative.  So this is how it stands.  I'm still on EP, although not blogging daily like I'd like.  I'm not going to my meeting tomorrow and will most likely not journal. Here is going to be my one goal for tomorrow...write a grocery list.  There that's simple and I think I can handle it.  We've been eating out since last Saturday and it's time for that to stop.  Once get some fresh fruit in our place, I can see things looking up.  Alright, time to change the laundry and get some sleep.  Take care all!

Apparently the Move Day was more than I could handle.  Actually, I think it would have gone well had my mom not brought over homemade choc chip cookies and rice krispie bars.  Now, I'm one of the first to point out my mom's faults, but she honestly makes the BEST rice krispie bars in the whole word.  I know she was doing it to be nice and helpful for the folks that helped us move, but she knows I can't resist these temptations!  Hopefully things will be kept in check this Sunday for Easter.

 

So yes, moving was exhausting and I just couldn't stay OP.   The actual move itself went well and we're pretty much settled into our new apt.  We have to make another very small load to our storage locker tomorrow.  Then I found a woman on craigslist to come over and clean on Thursday morning before the Final Walk thru that afternoon.  Then I have Friday off work and our closing is at 10:30 AM.  Emotionally I'm doing really well, in terms of separating from the house.  But I do think the emotional energy I'm using to keep positive is being stolen from my WW energy.

 

Here's the thing though, I'm still in it.  Regardless if I lose this week or gain, weight loss is still a priority.  It might not be the most important thing on my list this week, but I'm still thinking about it, and how could I not with this spare tire around my waist reminding me???  I'm glad I blogged today.  It's been 2 days and I haven't really felt like I've had much to say.  I'm feeling better about things now though, it's almost as if blogging is a release that puts me back on track.  I can't say that this week is going to be perfect, but I will say that I'll blog every day this week and hopefully it'll help me get through the the week without totally blowing my loss!

 

Alright, thanks for listening all!  I better get to bed soon since I now have a 40 min commute instead of a 15 min commute.  6 AM comes mighty early in my book.  Good night!

Yep, that's right...ME!!!  And I even felt good afterward.  I started off really slow like usual and then I just felt like I needed to go faster, so I kept increasing the speed and for the last minute, I ran at 12 min/mile pace, which is way fast for me.  I'm a little sore now, but a good sore.  A co-worker came with me and she walked next to me and we talked almost the whole time.  I just feel so good about this, I actually feel like I'm somewhat in shape, despite my extra weight.

 

I did sneak at peek at the scale this morning and I was down, so I think yesterday's mini-loss was a fluke.  Actually I think I was extremely bloated.  Those Fiber One bars are really getting the best of me.  So I had a lot more water today and I'm getting it all flushed out so I'm doing better. 

 

Tomorrow is the big move day so I'm feeling a little sad about that.  Tonight's my last night in the place I've called home for the last 6 years.  It's our first house, since we were just out of college.  We grew up here, we got married here and we brought home our first baby here.  It's gone from having a revolving door of roommates, to a Home, our family's home.  I'm hoping I won't be too emotional tomorrow, and I hope that I don't eat too much pizza that I order for the guys helping!!!  I might not exercise formally but I know I'll get in a lot of activity and I'll be sure to go to Subway if I need to work within my budget.  Today is the first day of my new week, so I have all my FP's to use too.  Alright, I need to keep packing before my eyes fall shut!  Good night everyone!

Alright, so it wasn't a big loss, but it was still an "L" for the week.  Official WI says down .6, yep that's right, there's a "." in front of the 6.  Not even a full pound!!!

 

And I journaled everything, exercised 4x's and was great on my water.  Sometimes things just don't go in our favor.  But, I will not be derailed.  Nope, I'm going keep doing what I'm doing and it'll happen.  Like Franma told me, this is not a race.  Although I would like to be able to fit into shorts this summer, so I do have that timeframe in mind.  

 

I know I said that I'll be setting my April goals after today, but I'm not sure I'm ready to write them out.  I'd really like to lose 8 lbs, so I'd be under 190, but I think 2 lbs/week might be a little aggressive and I don't want to disappoint myself if it doesn't happen.  So I'll need a bit of an extension on posting those.  The next couple days are going to be really hectic because we're moving into the apt. on Saturday morning.  Forgive me if I'm MIA for a couple days.  I promise that on Sunday, I say what my April goals are and how I plan on reaching them.  As far as the next couple days, I think it's doing what I've been doing all week.  Tomorrow I will workout after work and I need to jog 15 mins to stay on my plan.  It'll be tough, but I think I can do it.  I'm sure I'll get a lot of activity in with moving, but it'd be great if I could fit a formal workout in as well, we'll see on that.  AND, I think I need to plan my meals for the next couple days, as far as where we'll pick up food because I most likely won't have a place to eat.  Alright, almost time to leave work (YEAH!)  I'll try to be online again tonight, otherwise I'll check back in tomorrow.  Ciao for now!  and...congrats to everyone to had big losses this week!  Franma made it into Onederland!  WooHoo!!!

Well tomorrow's WI, which means it's No Pop Wednesday!  This little ritual of mine seems to be helping so I'm going to stick with it!

 

I made it to the gym last night, even though I really didn't want to.  I was on the treadmill for 50 mins total, and I jogged for 11 mins of that without stopping, so I felt really good about that!  I'm planning on doing another 40 mins tonight after work and I'll do another jog.  On Friday, I need to jog 15 mins without stopping.  Yikes!  This program I'm following really increases quickly, but I'm just going slow and steady and figure if I can move on the elliptical for that long, then I should certainly be able to jog slowly that long.  Wish me luck!

 

Yesterday I started to have these feelings that I've been "OP" forever (even though it's really only been about 2 weeks) and so I should be feeling a lot lighter by now.  So I think I need to keep myself in check and remember this is not a race and it's about making better choices and living healthier.  The slim new me will slowing emerge if I stick with this.  I know I'm feeling so much better emotionally, it just hasn't moved to my waistline yet.  Alright, here's to a very happy Wednesday everyone!  Try not having pop with me if you want!

I'm still feeling really good about the changes I'm making.  I've gone 2 days without working out which is not good, but if..I mean AFTER...I go tonight, I'll still be on track for my 4x's/week.  I've journaled EVERY little morsel that's passed these lips and that's definitely helping.  Since I still have all my FP's for the week, I'm planning having some "treats" on Thursday after WI.  Thinking shrimp pad thai and maybe a small blizzard.  It helps fitting in these things that I enjoy, and as long as I have the pts, I shouldn't feel guilty.  How are others handling this?

 

After WI this week, I'm going to come up with my goals for this month and then my reward.  There are some cute shoes I want and I think they might be the perfect motivation to keep me on track next month.  I know I've said this before, but I'm really glad to be on EP and "meeting" so many new people to go through this journey with me.  None of my friends have a real weight problem, so I've never really had someone close that I can connect to on this.  So thank you all!

 

With that I should probably get going and figure out supper. . and then get ready to head to the gym!  No excuses, I need to do it!

 

Chat soon!

I don't have too much to say today.  I didn't workout today like I wanted, but I already have 2 in for the week and my goal is 4, so I think it's ok.  I plan on working out Tues and Wed and then I'll meet my goal.  AND, last night at dinner, I didn't even have one taste from the bread basket, so proud of myself!  I had exactly what I planned, and even added 2 addt'l pts to my estimates just in case and I didn't have to use any FP's.  So I'm feeling really good about that.  Today was a little tough because we had so much going on and I didn't have my PLAN down, but I did well and I even have 1 pt. left for today. 

 

I'm thinking this week could be kind of tough on me with the moving and everything, but I do feel like my appetite is a lot more in control.  I'll make sure to use my FP's if I need them and get in AP's to off-set any indulgences in the name of convenience. 

 

Ok, I think that's all from me for now.  Hope everyone had a great weekend, tomorrow's a new day!!!