110.4 in kg which is exactly 2 kg lost meaning 4.4 lbs.

Not bad at all but it is a matter of perspective.

I found I go through phases. Objectively is not that much, however, if I look at the goals I have I feel better as I managed January's goal and then even before the time for VD's goal I am nearly finishing goal 3.

If I am under 110 tomorrow (and have essentially achieved goal 3 14 days early!) -on my scale and the wii- I will allow myself the first two liters of awsome water flavour! WOOHOO! - I will then monitor my ketostix -which are dark brown mind you- to make sure that doesn't upset it.

If all goes well I will add a second flavour next week and essentially drink all of my 3 or 4 liters with flavours! The luxury LOL

I will also continue doing the 10-15 minutes of Yoga on the wii and keep an eye on the weight loss.

Fingers crossed for a better loss next week!

Let's see what are the good news? Ah yes, Goal 1 achieved! 114 exactly the last weight-in of January so done!

And what's better? 4 days -not a week- into February and I'm at 112.4!!! Feels darn good. That's essentially 5.7 pounds (2.6 kg)!!! Woo Hooo! Happy dance!

All the non-cheating was worth it.

Here are my tips after a month of CD and a total of 12 kg (27 lbs) lost:

- Don't skip any meals
- Don't alternate the hours too much
- Get a bottle of 2 litters for work/midday and go through it religiously, thirst will take care of another liter or two in the morning and evening
- Get an ice crusher, or a powerful blender, nothing like making the sakes into an ice-cream -crush the ice, pour the powder on top and a smidgeon of water only-
- Self explanatory but Don't cheat. Not worth it.

Best news of all? I am less than a pound from achieving the second goal!!!

Only 2 pounds. Scary.... I know I have to keep strong and have all the time in the world but it means I will be missing my first goal which was 114 till the end of Jan -that's today and tomorrow too so maybe miracles happen by tomorrow evening!-

I suspect it's adding the exercise that slows me down. Depressing thought.

Surely the 4th weigh-in will be better news!

Oh and the mister is under 100 kg now and looks dang transformed!

Small disappointing loss but putting me in the 50s (number still to go) instead of the 60s that it was last week!

2.2 kg is 5 lbs. Not stupendous but it's before my period so not that bad.

116.2 now and after AF shows I ought to lose the 2 or 3 pounds I'm storing preparing my womb for imaginary babies as well! So not bad, rather chuffed. 18 lbs so far in 2 weeks of Cambridge is not too shabby!

I've been toying with some mini-goals for the past week but I think I am on to something now. I know that SSing for a long period of time is risky but with my weight, I will have to do so for at least a few months.

With that in mind, I will do 12 weeks of SS and then 1 of AMAM (is it 810 or 1000?) and then another round and then another.

This is more or less calculated with an average loss of 1 Kg (2lbs) per week so I don't think it's unrealistic at all, right?

Goal 1: By end of Jan BMI of 44.5 and weight at 114
Goal 2: By VD, BMI of 43.7 and weight at 112
Goal 3: By end of Feb, BMI of 43 and weight at 110
Goal 4: By end of 12 weeks SS round on the 8th of April BMI of 40 weight at 104
Goal 5: Go through the SS+ or 1000 kcal week without adding more than 2 kg (106 kg)- Do complete blood work to establish I'm well and truly healthy at the end of it
Goal 6: By end of June be under 100 kg!!!!
Goal 7: By end of 12 weeks SS round, on the 15th of July BMI of 34.9 and weight at 89 -
Goal 8: Buy Jeans!!!
Goal 7: Not put on more than 2 kg in SS+ or 1000 week and do blood works.
Goal 8: By end of next 12 weeks SS - 21st of Oct - BMI of 29 - NO LONGER OBESE!!! - weight at 76
Goal 9: Go through IVF and get pregnant at that point -OR- not gain more than 2 kg in SS+ week and do all health tests
Goal 10: At the end of 12 weeks on 30 Jan 2010, BMI of 24.6 and weight at 63 - NORMAL WEIGHT FOR THE FIRST TIME IN LIFE!!!

Goal: Use this year to learn all there is to learn about nutrition and exercise to better help myself live healthily and keep it off!!!

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For the next 2 months, exercise like mad and get to Step 3 and 4 to stabilize my weight with food intake and exercise

30th of March - DONE and maintaining - undergo IVF - give birth to healthy baby/babies and then lose all the baby fat and return to my healthy programme!

I am of course hoping this was an exaggeration on the low side and I will get there faster but I want to be prepared that this journey may take me over a year. Which is not bad, one year is nothing as compared to the first THIRTY in which I did not love me enough to work on me and as compared to the following tens that I will go through skinny and healthy and happy!

I am far more chuffed than I was last night, it's starting to sink in and feel real good. This morning I took the long scenic route to work and drove around with some music on for the sheer pleasure of it! It was freezing but warm inside my car and the sun was gloriously shinning so I was stunned to discover I am feeling happy and content with no food!

In my former life, to get away and be by myself would include some form of a treat (or a bunch of) and I remembered this and it didn't phase me at all, I was feeling lighter physically AND mentally! What a difference a few kilos make! I just hope I don't forget these things when I get to goal.

This is an alternative ticker I can't seem to fit in my signature:



Today was day 2 and my personal CD drama seems to have started already! I went back and forth on:

-Water Flavors: loved them but dropped them after people promised there would be no ketosis if I keep them up
- Wii Fit: had just gotten to sounding like an elephant in heat while doing 45 mins of stepping and spinning but both the mister and I decided to give the SoleSource a fair chance and do it by the book so I'll get back on the exercise horse after the first few weeks when we get to Step2
- Water Consumption: was so scared of having to drink it I had 3.5 liters within a few hours and had a mild case of water intoxication so decided to do it slowly!
- Intestinal Scare: very afraid I will get well... stuck but for now coffee seems to do the trick
- Height measurement: I seem to have lost cm in height!!! Got the mister to measure me tonight and it's 160 not 166!!! Goddang it! My BMI skyrocketed!

On the plus side... I'm not even hungry and am surely a tad more awake!

On the very plus side.... I sneaked a climb on the scale and 3 kilos vanished.... very strange, I'm sure it's but water but dang it's motivational, this all feels like a doable, enjoyable adventure!!!!!

It's largely, for the first 10-11 entries a copy of the one on the mini-forum.

Me? An ex uber-obese smoker that has quit, counted calories, lost and gained, tried her best for IVF and a baby but her wedding in September too and finally done Cambridge for 11 weeks so far, will do for another 12 and then will move on to Atkins.

This is how I won the battle, created the body I want and enjoy and kept it by changing my lifestyle.