01/20/2010 03:54
Not food/diet related, just need to vent...
So, I don't really have a 'diary' or any other blog, but I really need to vent about something.
Today I ended a fifteen year friendship. She was my best friend and I loved her like a sister. We had been through EVERYTHING together. From bad break ups to her miscarriage to the death of my fiance... We've been each other's rock. Lately though, I noticed that she had changed DRAMATICALLY. She and I lost contact with each other when she moved from Missouri to Michigan and then when I moved from Missouri to Illinois. She started to make racist remarks (which really bothered me because we have a mixed family; five of my brothers and sisters are African American [my parents have adopted seven kids]) and when I told her that it was bothering me, she didn't really seem to care.
Things came to a head when we were chatting online the other night... She began to berate me and accusing me of lying about my diet and crap, to quote her, 'simply to get attention'. It's very frustrating and hurtful because I can't believe that she was saying this stuff. After listening to it for another hour, I finally told her goodbye and hung up on her. Fastfoward to this morning, I woke up to a very nasty email from her and I ignored it because I didn't have time to respond because I had to work. Once I got off work, I checked my messages and she had left me an even nastier voice mail... I finally emailled her back, telling her that she isn't the same woman anymore and that I don't know what is going on in her life right now to make her act this way towards me, but whatever it is, I know that I don't deserve to be treated like that. I also told her that I was on a quest to better my life, and that includes surrounding myself by good people whom I respect and admire and that I no longer respected or admired her. No telling what she'll say to that... but I just had to get it all said to her. Ironically enough... I feel better, so... take that how you will.