Day 130 of 150

Day 130

Meals:

Breakfast - 400 calories

Snack - 20 calories

Lunch - 200 calories

Snack - 60 calories

Dinner - 300 calories

Snack - 145 calories

Total Calorie Intake - 1125

Day 129 of 150

Day 129

Exercise:

10 mins Recumbent Bike - 100 calories

Meals:

Breakfast - 400 calories

Lunch - 385 calories

Snack - 80 calories

Dinner - 350 calories

Snack - 50 calories

Total Calorie Intake - 1265

Day 128 of 150

Day 128

I really just don't have anything to say about exercising, my eating, pounds lost or how it's closing in on my deadline.

My marriage is literally dangling by a thread; we've decided to try and give this only another 6 more months to try and make this work, at least noticeably better than it is working at this moment, before calling it quits. As the past 9 have just been torture since his betrayal and have only gotten worse even though we're trying. The closest family I have is over 5000 (yes, thousand) miles away and I have no one to talk to or lean on that is physically close to me that I feel I can open up to about this. Of course, you add all the issues I am having with his family at the moment as well and it's just sort of the icing on the cake.

Just to answer any possible questions, it was not a physical betrayal but an emotional one and I am having an extremely hard time getting that trust back. I want to trust him again but no matter what I do or he does, things just keep sliding further and further down hill, with our arguments escalading every time. Of course it doesn't help that he refuses to go to couples counseling as it's way beyond our means financially, since we're just getting by as it is.  

So, don't be surprised if I only post my daily exercise time/calories and daily consumption for the next few days/possibly last 3 weeks. I don't want to give up, since this is my health I'm working on and I deserve to be healthy. I just really don't feel in the mood to come up with something to say.

Meals:

Breakfast - 500 calories

Snack - 45 calories

Lunch - 250 calories

Dinner - 200 calories

Snack - 145 calories

Total Calorie Intake - 1140

Day 127 of 150

Day 127

Well, weigh in this morning went better than expected. Generally I do lose the most weight when I'm on my period, which is about 1.5 lbs, sometimes 2 but very, very rarely. This morning I weighed in at 155.5 lbs! Down 3 lbs in one week. I'm very excited and yet a little worried all at the same time. This could either be a) a fluke, b) muscle loss from not being able to do my weights/cardio routine for the last 4 weeks or c) my body finally unloading all the "extra weight" it had been hanging onto these last few weeks from my stomach issues; since the problem has improved drastically in the last few days.

I guess we'll find out at next weigh in what could be the culprit. If I lose roughly the same next week, I'm going to say it's likely muscle lose since I won't be starting my weight/cardio routine back up until after next weigh in. If it goes back to my regular 1 lb loss for the week, then I'll likely lean toward the possibility that is was my stomach issues finally sorting its self out. Either way, I am happy since it does bring me closer to my goal but I just want to make sure that I am doing it the right way. I don't want to lose any muscle, I want to be very careful about this, as building more muscle will help with losing the inches but not retaining 'hanging skin'. Yuck. I want to get rid of all of my flabby stomach, no pouch left over please!

Meals:

Breakfast - 500 calories

Lunch - 200 calories

Dinner - 325 calories

Snack - 165 calories

Total Calorie Intake - 1190

Monday Weigh In:

Down 3 pounds! 

Day 126 of 150

Day 126

I don't have much to say tonight. I had a really bad day that just got worse about half an hour ago. I was barely hungry all day, hence the low calories.

Weigh in tomorrow morning, fingers crossed that at least goes well!

Meals:

Breakfast - 400 calories

Lunch - 190 calories

Dinner - 280 calories

Snack - 165 calories

Total Calorie Intake - 1035

Day 125 of 150

Day 125

Ok, so no formal exercise today but I did do a lot of running around because of errands, so that's at least something. I don't think my body could have handled even going on the recumbent bike today; my cramps have been massively horrible all day long. I hate my period. :(

Meals:

Breakfast - 500 calories (Ikea $1 Breaky thank you! :D)

Lunch - 300 calories

Dinner - 400 calories

Snack - 100 calories

Total Calorie Intake - 1300

Day 124 of 150

Day 124

Blah. I have had such horrible cramping all day long, this month's period is going to be a doozy and it's only just started. :(  It'd be nice if there were a 'miracle' pill out there that got rid of the bleeding/cramping/bloating/nausea every month but still let our bodies basically do it's natural thing; well to a degree, since it's natural thing is to shed the old blood. Sorry, this seems like it's bordering on the good ol' 'Eww!' reaction.

Man, I could really do without the cramps at least. They've always been my biggest problem; no medication will suppress them, that's why I was put on birth control. They use to be so bad that I couldn't even roll over in bed, forget about getting out of it. At least now I can see semi function but I'm starting to worry about needing to come off of it soon since I've been taking it for the last 10 years!

Goodness, I dread the day. I don't want to go back to the days of not being able to do anything except be in bed for 7 days every month in writhing agony. Talk about limiting and I certainly don't see any employer putting up with that.

Anyway. So, my calories are a little low today but I couldn't push myself to eat because I just wasn't hungry all day long. Likely because I felt nauseous but at least I'm not under a 1000 calories for the day. :) 

Meals:

Breakfast - 400 calories

Lunch - 285 calories

Snack - 45 calories

Dinner - 210 calories

Snack - 145 calories

Total Calorie Intake - 1085

Day 123 of 150

Day 123

Not much to say tonight, other than it was a busy day but at least I got some good time in on the bike. Oh yes and thank goodness tomorrow is Friday! :) 

Exercise:

15 mins Recumbent Bike - 220 calories

Meals:

Breakfast - 400 calories

Lunch - 400 calories

Dinner - 400 calories

Snack - 165 calories

Total Calorie Intake - 1365

Day 122 of 150

Day 122

No exercises today... Bad me! I only just finished working on fixing up the computer about half an hour ago and I plan on going to bed right after I post this; working out would only keep me up, which is not what I need right now. Sleep wins the battle over exercise today, since I need to be alert tomorrow. 

Uh, I have been feeling my stomach cramping up all day, which means my period is coming soon. My husband starts his vacation for a week this weekend and now I won't be able to go out and do a lot of active things with him for the first few days. Bummer, the timing really sucks. Oh well, what can I do? 

Meals:

Breakfast - 340 calories

Snack - 45 calories

Lunch - 400 calories

Snack - 75 calories

Dinner - 300 calories

Snack - 40 calories

Total Calorie Intake - 1200

Day 121 of 150

Day 121

Not much to say tonight, except that I had a super busy day and I'm super tired. My stomach has been feeling a bit more better these last few days, if this keeps up, I am hoping to start back on my regular workout routines by the end of next week. Fingers crossed!

Exercise:

10 mins Recumbent Bike - 120 calories

Meals:

Breakfast - 380 calories

Snack - 60 calories

Lunch - 385 calories

Dinner - 320 calories

Snack - 165 calories

Total Calorie Intake - 1310