Day 95 of 125

Thursday, August 5th, 2010

Signing off for a few days.

Please bear with me as I honestly don't know what to say right now. I'm not going to be posting for the next few days but I do plan on keeping a record of any exercises and all meals I have, so I will post those when I am ready to come back.

I found out this afternoon that my Great Aunt passed away last night. Right now I am still in a state of shock and on the verge of just completely losing it. I feel utterly foggy and lost. I just need some time to get myself into a better mind set and come to grips with this because it just doesn't feel like this is really happening. I'm just a bag of emotions right now.

My Grandmother and my Great Aunt have been my only real family for quite some time. I feel, I don't know, empty, sick with guilt and regret that the last time I saw my Great Aunt was years ago. Her unable to come out here because she couldn't fly from the damage her last heart attack did to her body and my being unable to go out there because of cost and needing to take care of my diabetic cat. Alone too, at the thought that life is so short, how much time do I have left to see my Grandmother before I'm truly by myself.

I don't know what else to say. My Great Aunt was an amazing woman, charitable with her time, energy and money for those who needed it. She was so generous and thoughtful, almost to a fault sometimes. She was strong, opinionated and stayed true to her beliefs no matter what anyone tried to convince her of or argued with her about. I loved and will always love her, just as she was.

I hope everyone has a good week and weekend.

Exercise:

Nothing

Meals:

Breakfast - 450 calories

Snack - 150 calories

Lunch - 300 calories

Dinner - 350 calories

Total Calorie Intake - 1250