01/28/2010 17:55
Long time no post...(pictures included)
Certainly has been a while since I last posted.
I have just gotten so off track these last few months, luckily my weight has remained in the range that I want to keep it in but the problems with my Hypothyroidism have just thrown me for a complete loop. I'm not sleeping properly, I'm getting little sleep, I'm constantly exhausted, sore, I can't think straight or stay focused, just basically mentally checked out and not in the mood to do anything, on top of that my panic attacks are getting stronger and more frequent again. (Wow, that was a long sentence.)
I started a 110 Day challenge on Monday, November 30th (I'm on day 60, it goes till my 26th birthday, Friday, March 19th.) and I've only worked out for 9 days (not including today) and 5 of those days were the first week of my challenge, the rest of those days are from this week. I've been very good with my food, minus a week of going overboard with sunflower seeds. It had been so long since I had last had any and I couldn't keep it down to 1 serving a day (330 calories per severing - 1/3 cup) because they were just so yummy!
I'm trying really hard to get back into the swing of it again now though because it's becoming apparent that I can't wait for things to sort themselves out, I need to force myself back into some of my habits. I was hoping my issuses would have been resolved by now and I'd have my energy (among other things) back but my doctor has pushed back my next set of blood tests/test results until after my birthday because he wants to see how my body deals with the dosage of medication I'm on now. I feel it's off enough to warrant a change but my last test results put me literally just below the change line that my doctor feels he's comfortable with that he wanted to wait 3 more months before doing anything. So, I've been stuck and will be stuck feeling like crud for a while longer.
I'm hoping if I can push myself hard enough to get back to it, exercising will help my mood improve. I always turn into a cranky/complaining pain in the arse when my levels are off. I hate it. My entire point of view and outlook changes for the worst, it's so frustrating.
Oh, speaking of my last set of blood test results... Apparently I won't be able to complete #12 on my 25 Things list (as you can see in the post below) because my iron levels are far too low, my doctor said I'm not allowed donating blood. (I wanted to do it on Valentine's Day.) He wanted to put me on medication but I asked to have until my next set of blood tests to try and bring my levels back up on my own. So, maybe after my birthday I'll get to do it but I've had trouble with my iron levels for a long time, so who knows what will happen.
Just one more thing on my list that I won't be able to complete. It's quickly turning into a disaster list. Anything on it that costs money I can't do. We have no budget for any of it, so unless I win the lottery in the next few weeks (and my fingers are certainly crossed for it, lol) then I've failed to do what I wanted. I don't know, maybe I set the bar too high and was just setting myself up to fail? I really thought I could handle it and we could find the budget for all of it but I was wrong.
Poop.
Anyway, on a lighter, more upbeat note, I found a picture of myself (one of very, very few) from when I was close to my heaviest weight. I thought that you might like to see the difference. It certainly surprised me, I didn't think I looked that bad at the time, guess it shows how oblivious we can be sometimes. It's eye opening for sure.
08 - 18 - 2005 - I was probably around 170 pounds.
(Low or mid 170's, possibly high 160's, I'm not sure. I don't have many recordings of my weight before April of 2006)
10 - 18 - 2009 - I was 127 pounds.
So, I'm hoping to start posting more regularly again. (And hopefully they'll be more upbeat than todays!) I don't know if I'll do daily updates again until after my current challenge is over, unless of course there is anyone out there who wants to see my daily stats? In which case I won't mind posting them.
I hope everyone out there reading this is well. I wish you guys all the best on your weight loss journeys! Keep working hard and you can do anything!
Thanks for reading and I'll talk to you guys again soon. :)