| Height: | 160.0cm |
| Start weight: | 182.00lb |
| Current weight: | 148.50lb |
| Goal weight: | 130.00lb |
| Lost to date: | 33.50lb |
| Remaining: | 18.50lb |
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Day 121 of 125 Tuesday, August 31st, 2010 It's late, rough day. Exercises postponed. (Seems like this may be happening a lot for the forseeable future.) I'll update what's been happening tomorrow after we get our week 1 chemo test results, until then, I don't really want to think about it anymore. I hope everyone is well. I hope everyone had a good day. :) Exercise: Postponed Breakfast - 450 calories Lunch - 500 calories Snack - 60 calories Dinner - 650 calories Total Calorie Intake - 1660
Meals:
Day 120 of 125
Monday, August 30th, 2010
Looks like all this stress did have an effect on my weigh in. I'm on my period and generally would expect an extra half pound to a pound loss, on top of my usual 1.5 pound loss for the week. This week I am only down 1 pound. I am by no means complaining, just making an observation.
Missed an exercise, hoping to replace it later on in the week or next week.
I hope everyone had a good day and weekend. :)
Exercise:
BBL Cardio Axe
Routine: 28 mins
In Zone(126-165bpm): 27 mins 18 secs
Average Heart Rate: 135
Max Heart Rate: 150
Calories Burned: 182
Meals:
Breakfast - 600 calories
Lunch - 450 calories
Snack - 80 calories
Dinner - 500 calories
Total Calorie Intake - 1630
Monday Weigh In:
Down 1 pound. Bringing me to 120 pounds from 121 pounds last week.
Day 119 of 125
Sunday, August 29th, 2010
Definitely proving that the first week of chemo is the hardest. Started off on an unpleasant note, as the day progressed, things got worse and we ended up going to the emergency hospital again. $500 and 2 1/2 hours later we were on our way home. Luckily the evening ended on a more positive note. My cat was able to eat on his own. It was still only a 1/3 of what he'd generally eat (not good) and it took over 50 minutes of convincing to get him to eat (basically almost) everything (also not the best) but at least he finally ate on his own without having to be force fed.
Weigh in tomorrow morning, fingers crossed for good results. Though I don't know what to expect given all the stress this week.
I hope everyone had a good day and weekend. :)
Exercise:
Nothing- Scheduled Rest Day
Meals:
Breakfast - 450 calories
Lunch - 500 calories
Dinner - 600 calories
Total Calorie Intake - 1550
Day 118 of 125
Saturday, August 28th, 2010
Not much to say except repeat what I said in my last post, hard day. Vet visits, then multiple pills and force feedings at home make for one unhappy baby and mama. :(
I hope everyone had a good day and weekend so far. :)
Exercise:
BBL Sculpt
Routine: 47 mins
In Zone(126-165bpm): 17 mins 47 secs
Average Heart Rate: 120
Max Heart Rate: 156
Calories Burned: 239
Meals:
Breakfast - 300 calories
Lunch - 550 calories
Dinner - 450 calories
Snack - 50 calories
Total Calorie Intake - 1350
Day 117 of 125
Friday, August 27th, 2010
Super long difficult day, lots of new hoops to jump through and meds to give my cat. Just got back a few hours ago from the vet again, so this is really my first chance to post this.
I was supposed to do a Tummy Tuck routine as well but there wasn't time given all the vet appointments and things that needed to be taken care of here at home afterwards. I'm planning on doing one more week of BBL once I finish the 4th and final week on Sunday September 5th, I'll fit in the two missed exercises either next week or in the extra add on week before vacation. (Stay-cation is more like it.)
I hope everyone had a good day. :)
Exercise:
BBL Bum Bum
Routine: 30 mins
In Zone(126-165bpm): 22 mins 27 secs
Average Heart Rate: 141
Max Heart Rate: 168
Calories Burned: 205
Meals:
Breakfast - 450 calories
Snack - 150 calories
Lunch - 405 calories
Dinner - 400 calories
Total Calorie Intake - 1405
Day 116 of 125
Thursday, August 26th, 2010
Really, really hard day. I have to keep reminding myself that the first week of my cats chemo treatment is going to be the hardest. Giving him medication myself that can't be ground up into his food and needs to be forced down his throat basically, is the hardest thing I've done. I thought learning how to inject his insulin was hard, it's a cake walk compared to this. My baby is not pleased with me, as I have to do it twice a day with multiple pills. :( I just hope things start to improve quickly, as they're not going terribly well at the moment. Having to deal with this and his diabetes is proving to be quite the difficulty. *Positive thoughts, positive thoughts, positive thoughts.*
Workouts weren't as engery packed as I had planned. I was so exhausted from staying up so late to look after my cat and then having to still get up at 5am to repeat the process, that I was basically a zombie by the time I had to exercise. It honestly felt like the workouts were a wash and did absolutely no good. I know that's not literally the case but it sure does feel like it. I almost fell asleep during some of the mat work. Had to prop my head up uncomfortably to prevent myself from actually nodding off. It was funny but not, all at the same time.
Finally got the 'booty band' from Beachbody in the mail. Yoiks, the light one really is light. The band I had been using in the mean time is considered light too but in actuality, it's twice the strength than the one from Beachbody. If it didn't cost so much to get the bands, since they charge you shipping per band, rather than per order, I'd likely get the medium and heavy strength ones as well. But they're being money grubbers by doing it this way, so no more orders from me until I win the lottery or come into some major cash flow.
Anyway, it's just going 10:30pm, I have to be up by 5am and there is likely to be more vet visits tomorrow as well, so I'm going to need to be alert. Time to get my behind into bed.
I hope everyone had a good day. :)
Exercise:
BBL Cardio Axe
Routine: 28 mins
In Zone(126-165bpm): 2 mins 22 secs
Average Heart Rate: 116
Max Heart Rate: 132
Calories Burned: 132
BBL High & Tight
Routine: 38 mins
In Zone(126-165bpm): 3 mins 43 secs
Average Heart Rate: 104
Max Heart Rate: 144
Calories Burned: 136
Total Calories Burned - 268
Meals:
Breakfast - 450 calories
Lunch - 450 calories
Dinner - 440 calories
Total Calorie Intake - 1340
Day 115 of 125
Wednesday, August 25th, 2010
Well, my cat does in fact have lymphoma cancer. We started his chemotherapy this evening. The cancer is very aggressive and we're trying to be just as aggressive as we can with his treatment, taking into account his diabetes and pancreatitis, we've had to make some adjustments to how the treatment is being done.
At this point in time I'm just going to focus on the quality time that we do have left, I don't want to start thinking about whether this will or will not work and if it does, for how long. Every moment is precious and I'm going to try and make the conscious decision to treat it as such everyday.
I'm sorry that this is such a short post, I really don't want to go into the details of it, I need to stay positive and collected. Going over the difficulties we have ahead of us is just going to distract me from the now and depress me. So, positive thoughts and fingers crossed.
I hope everyone had a good day. :)
Exercise:
Nothing - Make up for it tomorrow or the weekend.
Meals:
Breakfast - 450 calories
Lunch - 375 calories
Dinner - 435 calories
Total Calorie Intake - 1260
Day 114 of 125
Tuesday, August 24th, 2010
Horrible day.
My cat had a thin needle aspiration this afternoon, to take samples of masses in his liver, near his pancreas and intestinal wall. They're checking to see if he may have lymphoma cancer, among other things. This came on very quickly, not 4 months ago his ultra sounds were clear of all of this, except for his pancreatitis. He's been home for several hours now and is still dazed and confused from all the medications they gave him for the biopsies and to entice his hunger so he'll finally eat. My poor baby can barely walk around, he just wobbles about, swaying from side to side and having to stop to orientate himself. It's breaking my heart all of this. It kills me to know that he's been in pain for the last 3 days and we didn't even know it.
We're supposed to get his results back some time tomorrow or Thursday and discuss where to go from there. I'm both impatient to have and dreading this conversation. Part of me just really wants to know what the problem is and how we can fix it as quickly as possible, so he can get back to normal and be my happy, healthy, snuggly baby. The other part wants to breakdown in one massive pile of tears in fear that the results may very well be bad and there won't be much that we can do to help him.
I'm just sort of reeling from the news right now. I can't handle this. My two cats, grandmother and great aunt are my family. I lost my other precious baby boy to ketoacidosis in January 2007 and that ripped my heart to shreds, then three weeks ago (tomorrow) I lost my great aunt. Now I'm faced with losing another piece of my heart. I know that I likely only have a few years left with my grandmother too, then I'll finally be alone. I don't stinking want this. I want my cat to live to be 20 and die of old age, happy and peacefully, not from complications and his last days in pain like his brother did. I still haven't gotten over that. I'm really hating life right now. To be perfectly honest, I think it's a bitch.
I'm really sorry for the depressing post, I just need to let it out and other than talking to my Husband which is no longer an option right now (because he's in bed so he can go to work early tomorrow so he can leave early if we need to go back to the animal hospital) that really only leaves me with this place. I don't want to talk about this with anyone else right now, especially my grandmother, she still has enough on her plate dealing with everything from her sisters death. I don't want to dump any of this onto her, she shouldn't have to think about any of this, it's my situation to handle. The problem is, I don't want to be handling it, I want it to never have happened in the first place.
Anyway, I'm going to head back out into the other room to keep my cat company for a little longer before I go to bed. I'm sorry if I sound over dramatic, I'm not trying to be. I'm just letting my feelings come out as they are, no filtering at the moment, it is what it is, it is how I feel. So...
I hope everyone had a good day.
Exercise:
BBL Cardio Axe
Routine: 28 mins
In Zone(126-165bpm): 21 mins 19 secs
Average Heart Rate: 133
Max Heart Rate: 163
Calories Burned: 180
BBL High & Tight
Routine: 38 mins
In Zone(126-165bpm): 4 mins 07 secs
Average Heart Rate: 110
Max Heart Rate: 143
Calories Burned: 156
Total Calories Burned - 336
Meals:
Breakfast - 450 calories
Lunch - 500 calories
Dinner - 450 calories
Total Calorie Intake - 1400
Day 113 of 125
Monday, August 23rd, 2010
61 pounds down! Yippee!
Finally broke the 60 pound mark. Came within half a pound once before, so this feels really good right now. :)
Been re-evaluating my goal weight. I am still going to keep my max goal as 130 pounds, I really don't want to go any heavier than that ever again. I know that health wise my body weight could go down to 110 pounds or even less, I'd just prefer not too because to me, it just sounds too low. Now that I am 121 pounds and I'm feeling what's left to lose, it's starting to seem like I will end up finishing in the teens rather than twenties.
In case anyone is worried, no, I am not taking this too far, I promise, I have a very healthy body image and definitely want to be on the fit and toned side rather than skinny and practically boney side.
For my small frame size and height, even 121 pounds feels slightly uncomfortable, the top half is great, the stomach, hips, butt and thighs on the other hand, are still carrying too much fat and I notice it while I walk, sit or am active in anyway. It still gets in the way and I'm not happy or comfortable with that.
I'm still technically wearing a size 6, though with the inches lost from Insanity, I'm probably in between a 4 and a 6 right now because my pants have gotten a bit droopy in the butt area and have a bit more slack in the thighs. I'm not aiming for a particular size, although I do have a preference of losing another 2 inches per thigh going from 23 inches each to 21 inches each, measured at the widest area. As well as losing another inch or two on the stomach. I have a layer of visceral fat that needs to go. I'm hoping restarting a round of Chalean Extreme again in October will help me achieve my ideal body shape preference.
Anyway, rough day other than that. My cat is not eating his food and for a diabetic cat who has chronic pancreatitis, this is not good. Spent a good chunk of the afternoon at the vet, got lots of tests done, dropped a load of money more than we can afford and from the fact that he only a ate a bit of the new food this evening that was prescribed by the doctor this afternoon, we are more than likely to be spending some time back at the vet again tomorrow.
Doesn't help that when we were there, he had a bit of a fever. We were all hoping that it could have partially been due to the stress of the construction going on, on our street, as well as the trip to the vet. I need to call with an update and find out where to go from here tomorrow morning, as soon as they open. Fingers crossed he is willing/able to finish all his food in the morning. I need my baby to be alright, I can't handle anything happening to him. He's my precious baby boy and has been for more than 12 1/2 years. I don't know how I'd deal with that and my great aunt's passing.
I hope everyone had a good day and had a nice weekend. :)
Exercise:
BBL Sculpt
Routine: 47 mins
In Zone(126-165bpm): 11 mins 06 secs
Average Heart Rate: 111
Max Heart Rate: 154
Calories Burned: 202
Meals:
Breakfast - 450 calories
Lunch - 450 calories
Dinner - 600 calories
Total Calorie Intake - 1500
Monday Weigh In:
Down 2.5 pounds. Bringing me to 121 pounds from 123.5 pounds from last week. (I think this was just catch up from last week because I gained 0.5 pound from the complications of missing so many birth control pills before. Likely it was an actual pound loss last week and 1.5 pound loss this week, like I aim for every week. Things are just finally sorting themselves out.)
