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| Start weight: | 186.00lb |
| Current weight: | 163.00lb |
| Goal weight: | 145.00lb |
| Lost to date: | 23.00lb |
| Remaining: | 18.00lb |
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It's the 1 year anniversary of when i started with Ryan my Personal Trainer. It's been alot of hard work but the rewards are so incredibly worth it.
I'll be back tonight to tell y'all if anything special happened at our training session today.
Have a great day,
Jennifer
It's a whole new experience for me to not have to try anything on, to be able to walk into a store and know that my (still getting smaller) butt is able to fit into them. Anyway the jeans are a size 8, the smallest size i have ever bought, and Friday night they stretched out a bit and i could comepletely slide them off without undoing them. Guess I should have bought a size 6, but my mind is still catching up to my getting smaller body.
I can't believe how much i've changed over this past year, ever since my wrist problems happened i have only done legs, shoulders and abs 3x a week. My butt is looking better than it ever has, and according to my husband it looks incredible. Doug (husband) is more proud of me than he ever has been, and recently my dad (who is not a demonstrative man) looked at me and said he was proud of me. I always know he was, but he's not a person to look his daughter in the eye and say he is, so for him to do that was wonderful and incredible. My mom is so amazed and proud of everything i've accomplished that she announced she's hiring Ryan (personal trainer) in Feb, she told me i'm her inspiration. The woman who has inspired me all my life, turned the tables on me, and i'm not quite used to it yet.
Speaking of inspirations Terrie, a friend from the gym who is a natural figure competitor told me not that long ago that everyone who knows my story looks at me as an inspiration. Believe me, hose words coming from someone who has a butt (according to my husband) you could bounce a quarter off of, telling me i inspire her is a very humbling, unbelievable experience.
THe other day I was standing in Ryan's office telling him about my first physio appt for my wrist and i said that i told the therapist about the birth defects in my knees and i impressed her with my accomplishments at the gym. Anyway he was leaning back in his chair listening to me with this utter look of pride on his face. For the first time in my life i get to impress someone who has been an athlete all his life, and its so very exciting. I love the fact that he's proud of me, he's alot like my dad b/c he doesn't say it very often but he always looks at me like he is. His wife tells me that he comes home and says "you would have been so proud of Jen today, she is getting stronger everyday." The people that know how many mountains i've climbed and walls i've kicked down are the people that really know the real me, and they didn't give up on me even when there are days i nearly give up on myself.
I guess the questions i need the answers to are these... When am i going to be able to look in the mirror and see the transformation that everyone else sees? when is it going to stop being so hard to smile at someone and say "thank you" in response to their "wow you look wonderful" instead of my response being "I'm not done yet." ? I know the daily doubts that i have are a wall i have to kick down, my husband told me that noone can help me with that i have to do it myself. I desperately want to get there, but i know i'm not there yet.
Jenn
My name is Jennifer, i'm 31married to an amazing and wonderful Man named Doug and together we have been on this life-changing journey since Jan of 2005. When i started i was 206 lbs and 30 lbs away from being in a wheelchair due to a birth defect and osteoarthritis in both knees. When someone finds out that news they either lie down and die or stand up and kick some serious ASS! well guess what i chose? 
I lost 20 lbs the very first year and then January 17, 2006 I made one of the smartest decisions of my entire life. I hired my Personal Trainer Ryan Jobs who is truly one of my heros. He has brought me from 186 lbs to 163 and he has helped me kick down some serious physical and emotional walls in the process. I have gone from being scared to death of leg presses to hack squatting more weight than some of the men in our gym. Trust me that is one HECK of an incredible feeling.
There are days that being in that really nice guys presence is the last place i want to be, one day i said to him "Why am i here? is this really worth it?" he dropped a hand on my shoulder (while stearing me towards the hamstring machine) and said "days like this are the days that make the great days worth it." Ladies and Gentlemen it's that saying that gets me through some tough days, and i thank him for it.
I had a setback recently which is really annoying, i fell on the ice the first weekend of december and to make a long story short my right arm was put in a cast for 3 weeks because an ER doctor didn't listen to the radiologist. I have a severely sprained wrist not a broken wrist, and now frustratingly i am 3 weeks behind in physio and can't weight train my upper body until March. But, we are all pushing through this annoying setback, a friend told me "Honey, setbacks only make you stronger" and yes, she is right.
Anyway, that's all for today.
I'll be back with another blog in a few days.
