WEIGHED MYSELF TODAY...:)

Well my offical 2 week in isn't until Thursday but, I have been so busy with school I missed 2 days of cardio and was freaking out a lil.  I have been eating great so I was just a lil worried that I would gain a lil back.  But to my surprise I actually lost another 2 lbs!! I weighed 224lbs!! I am offically down 10lbs now.  I feel great!  I want to break my mini goal and break under 200 by christmas!! That would definately be the best Christmas gift ever!!!!!!! I have not been under 100lbs in over 8 years...wow!  I don't even think of all the extra skin that will bring...but I would be so much healthier! Alright gotta get sum sleep!  SOOO EXCITED!!

Another successful day!

I have been really busy today with homework.  I'm happy I got MOST of it done today so I won'tbe scrambling around tomorrow.  So where I live we celebrate a Holiday called Sweetest Day..from a lil research I saw that no everyone around the world or even in the USA acknowledges it.  But, it's basically Valentine's day down scaled and more geared for the women to shower the men with love.  So I got my sweetie a new hoodie and cologne.  And we went out to dinner and a movie..just got back.  I'm happy to say that I took FULL advantage of the Salad bar and it was awesome.  Loaded my plate with fresh spinach then broccoli..carrots..peppers..cucumbers..tomatoes..and no dressing!  It was great and we shared a cup of Broccoli Chz soup.  So I had a lovely time with the hubby...it's nice and quiet and just us...so I'm gonna go get to snuggling..:) Just wanted to give an update.

I JUST TURNED A BAD DAY INTO A GREAT DAY!!!

So if you read my earlier post..I was "Debbie Downer" and in a really weird mood.  Well, I sucked it up and hopped on the Elliptical and are you ready...I did 45 minutes STRAIGHT 4 MILES AND BURNT OVER 460 CALORIES!!!  I still can't believe I did it!!  I more than doubled my last time yesterday!  I have never sweat SOOOOO much in my life!  It wasn't easy at first but after I got past the first 20 min I felt looser and more confident and I pushed past being uncomfortable!  I can't believe it..I am so proud...so now I don't have to do anything for the rest of the day cuz I did 40 MIN ON THE ELLIPTICAL!! HA HA Nahh I still need to keep going.

But, I do have more energy and I do feel better!  Well, I'm gonna go take a bath and start dinner.  Talk to you ladies later! :)

4 miles...45 minutes...wow..when I started i could only do 10 min and that was only last week..mind you I weigh 226lbs...that's alot for me!! wowww

Is there something in the air??

WOW an awesome day then a eughh day!  I've always had sleeping issuses before but now I have like TOTAL insomnia.  I finally wet to sleep around 4:30 then my daughter woke up at 5 and I pulled her into bed with me.  I could not fall back asleep until about 6 and then she woke up for the day by 8.  I feel like complete and utter...ya know.  And I hate when I have these days because my anxiety keeps telling me..you have so much to do get up and get this done get this get this done!  But my body is saying you are beyond exhausted and need to rest your body.  And then I get upset because I feel like I am wasting the day.  Eughh I hate feeling like this. 

 I see the EXTREME IMPORTANCE in how much my body needs sleep.  I don't know if it is the changing of the weather...or what but I just don't feel like me today.  And I haven't been acting like me either..I'm a lil behind in my homework...I haven't exercised yet today...I have no desire to eat and actually get a lil ill looking at food...I haven't cleaned yet...I haven't drank nearly enough water for the day...and I just feel like I'm having a big pity party over here over nothing..eughh.  I just literally need to snap out of it.  I need to go exercise..take a shower and get sum homework done.  And then make dinner with  my munckin. 

Plus my hubby just told me that he has to work 14 straight days..so that really suckx..because he usually only works 4 tens.  The money will be great but..it's weird not having him here.  I might be getting TOM I dunno..sumthing isn't on track today.  But, I keep reading my post from the other day and trying to pep myself up and it just ain't doing it.  I have to go get sum tylonel PM for tonight.

Well, sorry I'm in a yucky mood..hopefully later I'll be in higher spirits!

Kel

Better Endurance on the Elliptical!

Just wanted to make a note that I got on the Elliptical today and have only been able to go to about 16 minutes straight.  Today I went 20 min straight...distance 2 miles..and...I DID IT ON LEVEL 2!! WOOT WOOT!!  Well, I am about to get a lil more cardio in and then off to bed with the hunny!! Talk to you ladies soon!

Kelli

MY ONE WEEK RESULTS!! And an update!

SO...today has offically been one week since I began Phentermine.

My starting weight was: 234lbs

Today's weight is: 226lbs         I LOST 8lbs!!!!!! 

After seing that I feel great.  I worked really hard this week.  I ate great and fought my first craving the other night with SUCCESS!  I wanted chocolate SOO bad and the hubby bought sum for Halloween..it was 2 am and it was staring at me so I worked out instead! It worked!!  I am very happy with my results and plan on never gaing that 8 lbs back!  My dad hasn't seen me in about 3 weeks and saw me yesterday and told me my face looks thinner.  (I teared up)

Yesterday I had an awesome workout got up to 17 min on the Elliptical and turned up the radio and hit it hard.  My daughter ran in and was dancing to the radio..and saying, "Mommy I'm exercising with you! GO MOMMY! Your going so fast!"  She cheered me and gave me so much energy!  It felt great to do it together and see her interested in what I was doing. 

My daily schedule is wroking out pretty well.  I stopped at subway and grabbed dinner.  One question: WHAT SUBWAY DOES NOT HAVE BOTTLED WATER?? I couldn't believe it! But anywayz, ate very well.  I went to bed at the same time as the hubby and we got some great alone time in together.  We don't have any probs in our relationship but I think by doing this it will make us stronger connected..I feel it already and he loved being able to talk and cuddle! 

This morning I got up at 8:30 instead of 7:30 but I hopped right out of bed and starting making breakfast for my daughter.  She sleeps late! I cut up apples, strawberries, and bananas. She loved it!  I only ate a little because I am avoiding sugars.  I cleaned a lil and I am about to hop on the Elliptical and then finish some homework.  Taking Emma to the park a lil later too! 

So far so good. OH! Two of my friends contacted me and say they walk in my neighboorhood at night after the hubbies put the kiddes to bed..and asked if me and my neighbor would like to join them.  So this is will be great four mommies getting out and walking and talking so more inspiration for me!!

THANKX TO EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU WHO HAVE SENT ME A MESSAGE OF SUPPORT!! You have no idea how much it means to me!  You ppl keep me going too! Thank you from the bottom of my heart!

And...I'm ...off...into...the...second..week..of..my..weight..loss..JOURNEY!

A new plan for a new life!

So more excuses!

I have talked to many of you on here.  And you all are INSPRIATIONAL, SUPPORTIVE, MOTIVATING, COMPASSIONATE, LOVING, AWESOME PEOPLE!! (((hugs))) and HIGH FIVES!

Many of you have motivated me to create a plan or schedule not only for my weight loss but my life.  So, after having a rough couple days and turning it around I decided I need to make a plan of action. 

As I have shared with many of you..I was raped 5 years ago and gained almost 100 lbs in the year after.  In addition, I have battled anxiety and depression since.  My lowest time and memory is when my 3 yr old is begging me to get up off the couch and play with her and I literally couldn't.  I seriously can't explain how heart breaking it is to not be able to move and play with your child.  I would wake up make her breakfast..and just count down the minutes till I could put a movie on for her..and lay back down on the couch.  I hate even saying it in fear that I will be judged..but the truth is that IS being a bad mother!  I had tried several different anti-depressants/anxiety meds with no success.  And my weight made it even worse..with lack of energy...my yeast allergy..and getting tired so quick it all manifested into this useless..depressed..huge unhealthy blob called "mommy" on the couch. 

Well, I was up really late and yesterday when I woke up...I woke up to that dark time in my life where I felt so tired and had no motivation.  I made my daughter breakfast..and layed on the couch.  I only had 2 hours of sleep..and felt so drained!  I looked over at me daughter and she glued to to T.V...and I thought WTH am I teaching her!! I couldn't bare with going back into this habit..so I got up popped my Adipex..and as you see in my blog yesterday CHANGED the day!  I feel so good today to know that I DID what it took to make it better.  And all of you have helped me to see that!  This event right now means more to me than the lbs I've lost! 

So here is my plan of action!!!

The night before: To get in more quality time with the hubby I will go to bed when does.  And if for sum reason I can't I will be in bed by 11pm!

7:30 am: I will set  my alarm and force myself to get up and out of bed NO MATTER WHAT!

8-9am: I will either complete my homewrok for the week or clean.

             I will make and eat breakfast with my daughter.

By noon: I will do my Elliptical for at least 15 min!

By 1pm: I will eat lunch with my daughter. (Protein Shake etc)

2pm-4pm: Emma and Mommy time planned activity! Some fun whether it be drawing...painting..reading..make believe..cooking..sunthing!!

                  Have a snack!

By 7pm: Have dinner!!

Before bed: Do my Ellipitcal for another 15 min and try to go for a power walk with my work out buddy 5 times a week!

I've been doing this: NO EATING PAST 7-8!!

Go to bed and start over again..this a plan I can do..allows flexiblity and makes me feel better about myself.  In addition, I spend quality time with my loved one..which motivate me!

So this is my new plan for my new life!! Thankx for the suggestion Kate!

:) Kelli--soon to be new and improved!

AWESOME day!

Well..today started out kinda rough cuz I was up so late finishing a paper for school.  My daughter woke up kinda early I literally could not get outof bed...I was a couch potato for the beginning part and took my Adipex and got a surge of energy! Thank God!  When I have these kind of days I tend to get even more depressed..and feel like a horrible mother.  I need to get on schedule with my sleep and get up early to get stuff done! Anywayz..after my med I sprouted up and cleaned the house then I came across a neat web site called http://www.inthegym.net/ and they have a bunch of music you can buy for certain workouts.  Really cool! So I burned a new cd and hopped on the Ellipitcal..and I was only able to get up to 11 min straight the last couple days..today I did 17 MINUTES!!  And I felt great.  I had an awesome dinner huge spinach salad tom/peppers/onion/cucmber.. no dressing..green tea..and Salmon fillet!  Then I hoped back on the Ellipitcal for another 10 min and went for a power walk  with my workout buddy!  Got alot of exercise in today and I even make beautiful artwork with my daughter..we painted! I hope tomorrow is just as good!  I have my one week weigh in Thursday!! We'll see!!!!!

Kelli

Can't sleep...rough day!!

Yeah so it's like 3 in the morning and ya see who is wide awake...actually I am exhausted but just can't sleep.  I have been on the go all day..appointment after appointment...and then I foudn out that a Paper for school that I thought was due Wed was due today by midnight!! Mind you it's a 10 pg paper!! So I scrammbled to the liabary with my munckin...yeah NO place for 3 yr old she was running all over and on everything..absolutely nerve wrecking!  And..then I rush back home and start this paper at like 4pm...it's 3 and I jsut got done with it..and I have a horrible headache and realized all I hade to eat today was a protein shake and protein bar...so even though it is sooo late..I have to eat sumthing to get rid of this headache...eughh..I need to stay on track..eat during the day reduce my stress..and get sleep if I ever want to lose weight...hopefully tomorrow will be better..and my 3yrold will sleep in alil ..praying...ha ha alright night night ladies!

Kelli

P.S. I can't stop sweating either..ewwwwww

Hard work is starting to show!

So...I have been on my sugar/starch/carb free diet for two weeks and I just began the Phentermine on Thursday.  So I weighed myself this morning..and my husband was there with me and my SW was 234 and today I was 227!! That is 7lbs!!!!!! I stepped back and was like that has to be wrong and my husband was like get back on it will say the same..Honey..your working so hard and it is showing..watch get on the scale..so I stepped back on and after 5 attempts(lol) it said 227!  I feel great and I have learned to eat only when I am hungry.  Most of the time i realized that I am thristy not hungry.  I made an awesome salad last night..Spinach..Grilled chicken..Shrimp..onion..garlic..bell peppers. cucmber..squash..zuchinni..tomatoes..carrots..a lil cheese..it was SOO good.  I have been doing my new elliptical for 10 min 3 tims a day I hope to increase the time in the future but overall I am actually proud of myself!  Just wanted to let everyone know......I will NEVER be 234 again!! WHOOP WHOOP! :)

Kelli