08/06/2011 19:17
Hawaii day 6 and counting or 82 days counting down to Hawaii
So do I count down or do I count up?
Just another question that has to be answered and another discussion to make. It is like making a choice do I eat this or do I eat that.
Only it doesn't really matter which way you count but it does matter what you eat.
I keep thinking I can do this.... I need to do this..... I WANT to do this. Then I ask why when it was going so good did I give into temptation. I am trying no to eat after 7:00 PM and I find myself opening the fridge only to ask myself are you really HUNGRY or just thirsty or even maybe tired and then I make a good choice and close the fridge.Well last night my Dad who is 80 and in poor health asked me to make him an apple pie. I went to the store and bought the things I needed to make a low sugar Dutch apple pie. Now I looked at the single serving tin pie plates but chose the larger one with the ready made crust. I used Splenda because he is a diabetic. When the pie came out and cooled it sure did smell good when I cut him a slice and added no sugar vanilla ice cream. So here it is 10:30 PM when I am getting his pie and I thought I will just cut 1/2 slice for me and only 1 teaspoon of ice cream. Well whoever said Nothing tastes as good as Skinny feels was wrong as far as I am concerned that pie tasted so good I even ate the other half.
Then then cycle starts all over.... Beating myself up asking WHY when I knew the answer. I went to bed thinking tomorrow is a new day start over.
This morning starts with Coffee then flaky home made biscuits with apricot jam, potatoes O'Brien with country gravy and a 3 egg omelette with mushrooms, onions and ham. Halfway thru I was full but I kept eating and now I am stuffed.
I will not beat myself up because I over ate again and did not go for my walk with my sister that is why I am writing now before I go change my cloths and do my work out and do my shopping for the weeks groceries.
Two pound is ok but not what I wanted and not what I am going to work for this week.
Even though I don't write here every day I will be writing in my Personal Journal.
I talk with my sister who lives in a different state who is also walking at the same time. At this time she keeps me motivated.
If one of us is late the other on has to do push-ups untit the late one is out on the road.. and neither one of us likes to do push-ups. 
heart rate up to 111during the walk. 
After Loosing my Mother at the beginning of the year and caring for my Father for the last nine months I have deceiced that I don't want to have the same health problems that he has . Congestive heart failure, diabeties, water on his legs that form into big blisters. He is short of breath and can hardly walk..
So here I am and I really want to make this work. I will need help along the way