As I was typing that I realized that sosos...makes SOS. Sort of. I'm not throwing in the towel, but I'm not a superstar either. I realized I'm miserable in my clothes, having gotten rid of all the bigger ones. I still have the "belly constrictor girdle" type thing that I wore after surgery and I've put those on to keep the muffin top from spilling over...but clothes and those just aren't comfortable. I can honestly remember what it felt like to put on a pair of pants and have them slide up effortlessly, and button or snap w/ no problem.
I have worked out on the elliptical roughly every other day minus a couple. I have purchased frozen veggies and stocked both the freezer at work and the freezer at home. I have low fat/low cal veggie soups at work for days I forget to bring a lunch. I've gotten a new phone and d/l the WW app onto it so I can always track no matter where I'm at.
I want to be a size 10 again. I want to be able to get my rings off with ease. I want to fit into all those clothes I bought last year. I want this to work for me again. I feel like I'm slowly clawing my way back...but it is so much harder than it was last time....There is a gremlin on my shoulder saying "Just one won't hurt"....I need to kick his little ass and get him into the next county or something!
I remember thinking this morning about that phrase...The time will pass anyway and thinking back to late August when I was feeling like I needed to get back on it....I'd be 10 pounds lighter now than I was then if I'd just buckled down and started back on plan instead of putting it off...See, the time did pass and I have nothing to show for it but extra pounds instead of less.
Thanks for hanging in with me. You are all the best!
Posted By: Franma
Comments to this post:
10/21/2010 09:58
don't give up
you were able to reach goal...unlike many of us. THe reason you reached goal in the first place was because you didn't give up!
You really can do it. You know how and you have done it before. I was so inspired after looking around your blog. Every day counts. Just make each one a healthy one and you will find your way back to your clothes and your happiness! :)
You're back on track now & can kick those 13lb to the curb by the year's end. Of that I am certain!! You need a fairy to sit on your other shoulder & remind you of the healthy options available when the gremlin is being naughty!! xx
Well I was sad for you as I read this post. I'm sorry to hear that you're having these feelings. I genuinely can empathize and I wish I could do more to help.
I guess the only insight I can offer is that you are trying to go back "on plan" and not back to a happy medium. A compromise may be what you need.
I've always been suspicious of the whole ball of wax regarding "on" or "off" plan. It's a tough situation. You will find your way, though, I mean you're smart enough to know not to give up. keep blogging. tomorrow is a new chance.
Wish I could do more to fix this for you. I guess I could buy you an all expense paid trip to the biggest loser camp....if I could afford it I would send us both...a girl can dream
big picture - you have done so well! i know my graph doesn't show it as it only shows what's happened since i was on ep - but i lost and then put on heaps of weight in the few years before i came on here (around 40lb) so i know how discouraging it is to have to get back on the horse. But we can do this! One day at a time - and keep on blogging because we are all in this together and if you don't blog we won't know how you are feeling xoxox
