Tomorrow I venture out on a journey like no other. No, it’s not the first time I have tried to lose weight, but it is the first time I actually feel disgusted in my own personal appearance. Could this be the motivator I so desperately need? All my life I have rode a roller coaster on the weight scale, anywhere from 155lbs in my early twenties to now over 300lbs.
My first battle was when I joined the Marine Corp. Listening to poorly given advice from my recruiter; I began to drink weight gainers to beef up. I went from 155 to 200 lbs in one summer. The kicker, in boot camp they made me come right back down to 155 in three months. I think the damage to my system was already done, since then it has been a war and the latest battle begins tomorrow morning.
I personally lose weight fast, initially. My first 15-20lbs should come right off, but I think the majority of people are like that. It’s that "Wall" that kills our drive and motivation. Last Sept. my wife and I joined the gym and religiously went every morning for an hour till about x-mas. I lost 20lbs from 300-280lbs.
In January her family finally left so our plan was to hit the gym again, but it was a bit difficult with the absence of her mother to watch our two year old in the morning, the gym offers day care but not until 8am which is too late for us.
Well, we never returned.
My wife left in April to live in Colombia, South America, and the separation is not easy for me, especially being away from my son. Alone, I thought I could get back into the gym now, two months after she has left I still haven't been once.
Being alone has done great damage to me physically, I know I have gained weight, how much was I was not sure till about ten minutes ago. I'm depressed not so much for being alone, but because of the condition I have let myself get into after knowing how much hard work I put into losing the weight a few months back.
I work roughly 15-20 hours a week, so I have plenty of free time that was used with my wife and son, now alone it has been spent doing things around the house that I never had time to do. Now with those things out of the way I want to focus as much time as possible in the gym.
I think the time out will do me good, not only physically but mentally as well.
GOD PLEASE KEEP ME MOTIVATED, KEEP MY MIND AND BODY STRONG AND FOCUSED, PLEASE.
I personally lose weight fast, initially. My first 15-20lbs should come right off, but i think the majority of people are like that. Its that "Wall" that kills our drive and motivation. Last Sept. my wife and I joined the gym and religiously went every morning for an hour till about x-mas. I lost 20lbs from 300-280lbs.
In Janurary her family finally left so our plan was to hit the gym again, but it was a bit difficult with the absence of her mother to watch our two year old in the morning, the gym offers day care but not until 8am which is too late for us.
Well, we never returned.
My wife left in April to live in Colombia, South America, the seperation is not easy for me, especially being away from my son. Alone I thought, I could get back into the gym now, two months after she has left I still haven't been once.
Being alone has done great damage to me physically, I know I have gained weight, how much was I was not sure till about ten minutes ago. I'm depressed not so much for being alone, but because of the condition I have let myself get into after knowing how much hard work I put into losing the weight a few months back.
I work roughly 15-20 hours a week, so I have plenty of free time that was used with my wife and son, now alone it has been spent doing things around the house that I never had time to do. Now with those things out of the way I want to focus as much time as possible in the gym.
I think the time out will do me good, not only physically but mentally as well.
GOD PLEASE KEEP ME MOTIVATED, KEEP MY MIND AND BODY STRONG AND FOCUSED, PLEASE.
