1. Who is the most important person in your life, and why?
I would have to say that the most important person in my life would have to be my mother for the reason of the fact that she is everything to me... I have never really allowed many people into my inner circle, if you will... I have always been guarded and I can't really say why. I don't get attached easy but my mother is the one person who has never lied, never left, and has always loved. She is the only person I trust 100%.
2. What is the one dream for your life you most look forward to achieving?
I truly can't wait for the day that I reach my goal weight and can begin going after things that I have either not been able to or just haven't had the balls to with my weight on... I also look forward to moving to New York, it is a goal that I had dreamed of since I was six years old and I have every intention of doing the move when I gradate and I intend on moving when I am healthy, fit, and confident... Because I don't want to be one of the only fat girls in Manhattan....
3. Who has the capacity to make you angrier than anyone else in your life, and what in particular does he or she do to make you so angry?
Anyone that is fake or false with who they are or what they believe in. I don't deal well with weakness either. I try to make weak people be strong and I do so by pushing them, testing them and I don't enjoy what weakness can bring out in my personality. I have no idea why this is , I guess it has something to do with the fact that weakness was not tolerated in my family growing up, " you're a winner and losing may be accepted by others but we can do better." "Don't look for a fight, but if one finds you... finish it" so by this thought process I do not accept weakness or faults in other either. My fault is is my weight something that has always been a weakness of mine. Yet I still judge others that are overweight... a judgement that I have to right to commit.
4. Who has the capacity to make you feel loved more than anyone else in your life, and what in particular does he or she do to cause you to feel so lovable?
I don't reall have an answer, kinda sad I know but I don't really look at the world in that kind of way... I look at the world from a more tactical way then most people. I think it has to do with the fact that I don't trust easily, and you can't love or be love without trust...
5. How do you feel about yourself—physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually?
PHYSICALLY: Obviously since I am involved in this website I am unhappy with my current weight and physical health... that doesn't take a genius to answer that...
EMOTIONALLY: I think that this is also something that I need to work on in many ways. I have alot of insecurities and trust issues and I think that these insecurities have aided excessively in my issues with weight. I also think I need to start to deal with these issues as I begin to lose weight as to be able to actually keep the weightloss and changes permanent...
MENTALLY: I think that this is a area where although I will always continue to improve upon it I don't feel that is needs any drastic changes at the moment... Lamest terms ... I am smarter than your average bear...
SPIRITUALLY: This is always a hard area to examine because I am questioning alot of thing at my age... My mother always says there will be a point when something happens that shows me that God really exists... I don't know about that but I guess we will see...
