My daughter and I flew out last Thursday to visit my son and his family in UP Michigan. We arrived home last night. It's good to be home. I start back to work Friday, so I guess you could say, summer's over -- well, now to get the temperature convinced that summer is over would be great!
My last blog, I mentioned that I was going to to the doctor. Well, he was shocked to find my weight soared so high. He didn't recommend diet pills with my thyroid issues, but because of my migraines he did prescribe a medication for that (actually two -- one to take daily to prevent them and one to take as needed to abort them) and he said this type of medication will curb my appitite. Well, I've already lost some weight, but that could be from my trip, as the eating habits were different while I was gone. The medication I'm on is Topomax, has anyone heard of it and does it really help with migraines and appitite/weight?
It's good to be back home and hope to hear from everyone.
Thought I better check in. Went on vacation to Branson, then to my grandmother's 102 birthday, and tomorrow I'm off to see my son and his family in Michigan. So, I've been out-of-pocket and will continue to be so until next week.
I haven't done well at all on my weight loss, in fact I thought I better get on the scales and see the damage...I'm up to 178.5. Only 1/2 pound away from where I was at the beginning of the summer. A week from Friday 8/8 I'm back to work. I feel like a looser and I don't mean in a good sense. I get so depressed when I can't loose weight. I bought some clothes last week in Branson, and I can't fit into them now!
I am going back to the doctor today, for my thyroid and I'm going to do some heavy complaining about my weight. I sure hopes he offers some encouragement, support and at this point I'm wanting some PILLS!
I appologize for my bad attitude. Hey, fat does it everytime. I'm hoping the next time I update my blog I'll have some good news to report. I'm always dreaming, always thinking of ways I can look, feel and do better for myself. My plans don't always pan out, though, and it's then when I feel down-in-the-dumps. I'll let you know what the doctor says and if you don't hear back from me today, I'll be back next week.
Hope all my new friends out there are doing well. I'm going to stop writing now and go to your blogs and check on you all. It will be good for me to touch base with you.
-I suppose everyone get's to feeling discouraged at times -- well, my time is now! I really wish those around, the ones we love, would be more supportive. I went to visit my mother this past weekend and she just doesn't get the desire that I have to loose weight! Then I come home and my husband blames my migraines that I've been having for the past 3 days,on worrying about loosing weight and drinking water and tells me to just go ahead and eat whatever. Now I get up this moring feeling FAT and MISERABLE. I haven't weighed, but I'm sure it won't be a pretty sight.
I enjoy going to the support groups and visiting the various blogs. After doing so, I feel better. I know I'm not alone. Thank you to all who are out there ready to offer some encouragement!
I know I won't meet my goal of being in the 160's by the end of this month. So, I think what I'd like to achieve by the end of the month is a positive mindset, and increase my activity.
I was looking through a bunch of photos, and found this one taken of me three years ago (7/28/05) at my grandmother's 99th birthday. I had recently lost a lot of weight doing Atkins. Well in those three years, I've put on at least 34 pounds. The reason for my name 50dreamer is because, I dream of being this skinny again. My grandma will be 102 soon and I would love to be on the road to being thin again by her birthday when the family gets together. I know I won't be this thin by the 28th, but to at least be going in the right direction -- free of this junk food addiction, feeling good about myself and down several pounds.
Here it is Monday morning and I know, I must be accountable. I did real well as far as not eating junk, staying active and all. In fact by Friday morning I felt thinner (although, the scales only showed a 1/2 pound loss).
OK, here's where I have to be accountable. I did real well that is until...
We went out on the boat Friday and I didn't eat all that healthy. By the time we made it in town for the fireworks display, I was famished and ate McDonalds fish sandwich -- well I had no fries and of course the shake machine was broke, so I had lemonade instead.
Saturday was back to the lake and this time I wasn't so good. I ate junk. Here I did the packing and I chose junk food. My bad. I had an excuse (doesn't everyone?) I had a "guest" ...Mother Nature decided to call. I find it easier to give in when she visits.
Although, I was home most of the day on Sunday, I didn't do any better as far as eating and staying active.
Well, it was the holiday weekend (another excuse). But, now that's behind me, I'm hoping this week I will get back on track. I could sure use some suggestions for the weekends. It's just so easy to give in and endulge in the junk food, knowing I will hate myself later. I would love to be able to feel great about myself come Sunday night knowing I did fantastic all weekend.
I'm going to give this blogging a try, but not only that I'm going to get with the program and really work on loosing these unwanted fat cells!!!
Here's my plan...
1) Stay focused. This will take some help from Above.
2) No junk food. Sweets, French fries, potato chips, buttery popcorn ...
3) Stay active.
I have some medical problems, that I feel is keeping me from shedding these pounds. I take medication for thyroid and the medication, too can be a problem. I've complained before to my doctor about my concerns and I get no results from him.
I am going to start July off with REALLY working HARD on getting rid of these pounds. At the end of July I return to a different doctor regarding my thyroid and if what I've done doesn't show some great response on the scales and tape measure, then I feel I will have a legitimate reason to complain about being over weight!
I'm sick of being fat.
I'm sick of clothes that don't fit.
I'm sick of not feeling attractive.
I'm sick of feeling sluggish and uncomfortable.
I'm ready to LOOK, FEEL, ACT AND BE ATTRACTIVE!
So, here goes... I'll keep you posted. I WILL BE accountable.
