50 Dreamer

I'm over 50 & have a dream to look & feel great

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  • Name: 50dreamer
  • City: Siloam Springs
  • Region: Arkansas
  • Country: United States

My Weight Loss

Height: 170.2cm
Start weight: 188.00lb
Current weight: 180.00lb
Goal weight: 155.00lb
Lost to date: 8.00lb
Remaining: 25.00lb

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01/12/2011 05:03

I'm BACK!

Yep, you read it right...I am BACK!  I've been away for a long time, but decided to come back.
 
Let me tell you, I am still overweight. Nothing has changed. I still dream that one day I will be thin, feel good and in better shape.  But I don't want it to be a dream anymore I want reality.  I am almost 53 years old and there are a LOT of things I want to do now before it's too late.  I love to eat, (don't we all?) but I also love my life, I love my family, I love my friends and I love the wonderful things given to me (and all of us) from our Creator, God.
 
So, I'm starting over. When I stop writing this post, I will go to bed (it's almost 10pm now) and in the morning I am starting new.  I will wake with praises to God and I will stay focus on my life, my reality, my dream to one day be fully awake and no longer dreaming, but I will be living my dream.
 
 

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01/25/2010 02:45

:)

The past week went really well.  I'm staying focused and feel like I'm doing a great job at being a Watcher and not binging.  I've been reading and re-reading some things over and over in the Martha Beck's 4-day Win.  I love learning about Not Always So. 
 
I've been keeping using my mini stepper which gives me some exercise time while watching TV or reading!  I even worked out a bit at work.  Some of the teachers are getting together on Tuesday and Thursday after work and using a DVD to work out.  I did it on Thursday, but I'm much older than the rest of the teachers, which means with age comes health issues.  My shoulders, back, pelvis (that's arthritis from a car wreck 18 years ago), and bum knee.  So, when I did the DVD I had to pay attention and "listen to my body". 
 
On a personal note...
 
Was so happy to visit with my family yesterday.  We usually get together for Christmas, but since this past Christmas the weather was so bad, we ended up getting together yesterday.  Boy I was so homesick, too.  I guess there were about 30 people present at my mother's.  Quite a few had other plans or were sick and they weren't able to be with us.  I enjoyed our time together, as always.
 
Well, it's Sunday evening and I suppose I should be getting off the computer and get things lined up for the week.  I'm looking forward to another 4-day win.  I'll beginning a new one tomorrow. 
 
I hope all my EP friends are doing great!  Hang in there and keep working at losing those extra pounds! 
 

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01/15/2010 14:01

Another Week

This has been a FANTASTIC week! 
 
My friend, Michelle and I are doing GREAT with our 4-Day Win.  We are on our third day of the second 4-day win!!!  With the help of our Lord, we are applying the skills that Martha Beck teaches in her book!  Michelle and I met last night for salad and talked over our progress and we are on track!!!
 
Also, this week...
 
+Back at work, and back on a schedule.
+Doing every morning the mini stepper.  I found that if I read the Martha Beck 4-+Day Win while stepping time really FLYS!!!
+Finished working on a dress I've "updated" for my daughter.  It was an 1830's style and now it's an 1836 style!!! 
+Began and will finish tonight a period dress for me!! 
+AND Got rid of the Holiday weight!!!
 
Tomorrow evening my husband, daughter and I will be attending a dinner.  The year for this dinner - 1836.  This is an annual formal dinner.  It's a very nice event.  Although, being the tight-wad I am, I didn't want to go, but my husband bought the tickets and we will have a nice time.  It's located at Ft. Gibson Historical Site. 
 
Well, that's about it for the week. 
 

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01/09/2010 14:55

One week later

I won't write much today.  Just a bit of updating, though...
 
Only went to work two days this week.  Monday - snow day; Tuesday and Wednesday, work and Thursday and Friday  - snow days.  At home I kept busy by taking down the Christmas decorations, re-arranging living room, sew just a bit and EAT, EAT, EAT!!!
 
I've gained! 
 
Also, this week...
 
Went to see Little House on the Prairie - the Musical.  Received a mini stepper, Wednesday evening and I've worked out on it two days, three times, ten minutes each time, (total Thur. and Friday 1 hour).
 
Oh, and EAT! 
 
What I've gained this week is weight.  What I've lost this week is self-esteem!  Presently, I'm pretty much down on my self. 
 
Let's see what the next 7 days will be like.  Hopefully, next week I'll be in better spirits about myself. 
 
Until then:  stay warm, stay safe.  We can all do this, Hey let's Lose WEIGHT!!!

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01/02/2010 16:58

Saturday

The day is beginning great.  I did 30 minutes on Wii Fitness and have been pretty ambitious with other things around the house, too. 
 
I'd like to run over and visit my father-in-law today then do a bit of shopping also.  It's suppose to snow this afternoon, so I don't know if we'll get around to doing either of those things. 
 
My 5 year old grandson went home last night, I'm already missing him.  He was here for about 2 weeks.  He lives about an hour drive from here.  I sure enjoyed him while he was here. 
 
Feeling very positive about losing weight.  Did great yesterday and I will stay focused and plan on doing great today too.
 
 
 

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12/31/2009 14:50

end of 2009

2009 is coming to a close.  As I type this, there are less than 17 hours left of 2009.  Every year I resolve to loose some FAT.  Well, here I am wanting to shedd all this blubber.  I am hoping that this time next year, I won't be dreaming of being skinny but I WILL be skinny. 
 
I learned alot last year.  Using Martha Beck's book 4-Day Win and having a super friend, Michelle, I was able to learn a bunch about my eating habits and what I needed to do to re-learn how I eat, as well as when I eat.  That book taught me a bunch.  But I don't know these last few months, has been difficult and I kinda "forgot" everything that I learned.  The weight, the attitude, the behavior has reverted back to where I was last year I'm afraid to admit. 
 
So much in my life I suppose I could place a blame on...WOW, thinking about it a BUNCH of stuff happened that I could point the finger at.  But, you know what?  I choose to NOT blame a thing.  I overate, I became lazy, I forgot about all the stuff I learned in the 4-day win -- I did it PERIOD.  Yes, I had a bunch of hurdles, quite a bit of stress and even tragedies, but I refuse to BLAME my "backsliding" on any of it.  Because I have a choice.  Everyone is faced with daily tragedies, daily crosses, daily stress, I'm not alone, I'm not the only one that has to deal with "stuff".  I dealt with my "stuff" in a very negative way -- I overate and got lazy. 
 
What do I do now?  Well, what I do is:
 
Number 1  Admit
Number 2  Accept
Number 3  Forget
Number 4  Start Over
Number 5  Do It
 
And that is a good thing about New Years and old years as far as that goes.  For today I will:
 
Number 1 Admit -- I admit that I am where I was this time last year.  FAT. I worked hard on the 4-day win with my friend Michelle and I admit that things in my life caused me to over eat, not just over eat, but BINGE and What I did to myself (binging) caused me to become lazy on top of it all and I gained any weight lost, back.
 
Number 2 Accept --  OK.  I accept what I did.  I own up to what I did.  I will not place the blame on anything or anyone.  I accept my behavior.
 
Number 3 Forgive -- The Lord instructs us to forgive one another and I believe that even means ourselves.  After all we are suppose to love our neighbor as ourselves.  So...I forgive myself.  I am sorry, and I forgive ME.  I did it, I admit it, I'm sorry and I forgive and now that forgiveness has been given to me, I forget it, wipe the slate clean, move on.
 
Number 4 Start Over -- Beginning NOW, not tomorrow.  But NOW, I start over.  The slate is now clean and I'm ready to move on.  I will, as soon as I get off the computer, get moving.  Starting over means, forget about the past.  I know what I want, I know what I need to do, I know what I long for -- this leads to the final...
 
Number 5  DO IT -- In order to start over I must just simply DO IT.  Get off the computer and DO IT.  Do what you may ask?  Well, What I mean by Do it, I mean... Keep busy.  Don't get lazy.  Eat less, move more.  Whatever it takes, make lists, set goals, call Michelle, just DO IT. 
 
I will be making a new post at least once a week. 
 
Good luck to all of you in the New Year.
 
 
 

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07/24/2009 15:03

TGIF

No weight loss to report for this week.  That's OK, though as there is no weight gain to report either!!
 
My daughter got her cast off her arm this week.  She's happy about that.  The foot doctor said she's coming along well after the surgery one week ago.  Her walking has gone from hardly moving to a limp.  She hasn't had to take but a 1/2 pain pill in 3 days!  But because the stitches are still in place, she isn't able to get her foot wet yet.  So, no swimming. 
 
Next week my husband will be taking off work for vacation.  I'd love to take a trip somewhere.  You know, the kind where everyone is excited about going.  Packing and loading up the car is fun.  And where nobody can sleep the night before the trip, so instead of sleeping the trip begins at 2 A.M.?  Well that ain't happening.  I'm the only one in the family that WANTS a vacation!  So, should I plan something and make everyone go along for the ride?  Do I try to make everyone happy, by planning stuff for their interests (this usually leaves out my interests, though) OR should I say forget worrying about it and be like them and do nothing?  If I chose the last we will stay home and look at each other saying to one another, "What do you want to do?"  "I don't care, what do you want to do?"  and we won't do anything.  or my husband will go fishing and leave me and my daughter home just like everyday of the summer.  There's a few  things to consider about planning anything for a vacation:
 
We only have one week
My daughter's foot (no white water rafting, water parks, or alot of walking)
We aren't wealthy (I've already checked into airlines, who has $500+ per person for that???)
 
So, for now, I must run and do up some laundry and get the house picked up.  I'll let you know what I decide and I'll be watching my blog for feedback from y'all.  Check back later.

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07/22/2009 16:28

Wednesday Morning

I've been feeling a bit discouraged this week.  So, I opened up and read some blogs this morning and I feel encouraged again.  Number one, I find women out there with the same problems I face and Number two, I find new ideas to keep me motivated.  Thank you!
 
I know now, I can do this!  I would love to lose a significant amount (you know, the amount where people will come up and say, "Wow, you've lost some weight") by the time I go back to work mid-August.  I think I can if I really work at it.  But I know, too that it's not about losing weight by a certain date, it's about being happy (and thin) about my body for the rest of my life and that takes time.
 
On a personal note:
I have just a bit of laundry to do this morning.  Then I will begin construction of new historical clothing.  I've been putting this off everyday.  I love to sew, but I hate getting started.  I also have a new project I'm working on, if the weather is nice I'll do that as well today.  I'm painting canvas, making an oilcloth floor covering for historical re-enacting purposes. 
 
I take my daughter to the doctors this afternoon.  One will be a post op visit with the foot dr.  She's been doing really well, in fact yesterday was the first day where she didn't need any pain medication!  Then right after her post op visit, we go to the orthopedic dr. to check on her broken arm. 
 
Have a great day. 
 
 

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07/17/2009 14:20

No real news to report

I've been exercising 30 minutes every day.  I write down my food intake and stay within the 1,300 calories.  But no weight or inches loss this week.  That makes a person really discouraged. 
 
I do have a weakness and that is nuts.  I began this week by adding MUFAs with each meal, my only problem I don't add just one I add several.  Like several servings of nuts.  So, I have to work at controlling that.  In fact, all the walnuts, almonds, sunflower seeds and olives I woke to feel the old enemy back...swelling.  My rings are so tight and my midsection feels huge today -- yikes!  I was doing so well, too.
 
Speaking of doing so well...have you ever noticed that when you start doing well, eating the right foods and feeling thin and then you go and brag about it that BAM, your back to your old habits or things start to increase again???  I was talking to my friend Michelle the other day and we both agreed this happens. 
 
I am laying off the salty foods today.  No nuts PERIOD.  I will drink plenty of H2O.  I will keep my 1,300 calories.  and I Will limit my food intake to only meals.
 
OK.  confession time...I did blow it a bit yesterday.  Yesterday I was out of sinc with my routine.  My daughter had to have surgery on her foot and we had to be at the hospital by 6:15.  So that meant no morning exercising.  My eating routine was different as well.  So I wanted to snack all day it seemed.  So, maybe it wasn't the nuts and olives that I've consumed from Sunday through Thursday.  Maybe it was the snacking I did yesterday.  Oh, I did manage to do my exercising although it wasn't 30 minutes, more like 20 minutes in the late evening. 
 
I will do SO FAR -- Stop.  Open (take some deep breaths). Forgive (write down what I do right) Accept (what I did or didn't do). Return (I'm back on track).
 
I'm off to do some journalling.  Hope everyone is doing great.  Hang in there the weekend is upon us. 
 
PS  My daughter's surgery took an hour.  We we home by 11:30.  She is resting.  She is able to put some weight on her foot and will be wearing a special shoe for 8 weeks.  The doctor loaded her foot up with pain meds. So she wasn't in pain yesterday or last night.  Today may be a different story, though.

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07/13/2009 17:06

Wooo Hooo!

I am feeling thin!  I haven't weighed today, I'll wait a few days for that. 
 
This week I'm working on the 4-day win about Trashing the Treasure.  Now, this is a hard one for me.  I was raised to eat everything on my plate.  Well, not this week.  I also find it hard to have a snack just because it's in the house, and I don't want to be wasteful.  No more.  In Martha Beck's book this really makes sense, when she says, "Throwing away food when you're too full to eat it is not wasteful.  It is wasteful to eat that food, thereby causing yourself to become a fat dead person."  That is so true.  I will not be wasteful toward ME.  I see myself as making the most out of my life, by being a healthy and energetic person, who eats the correct amount of right foods, exercises and has a positive attitude.
 
For the past 2 weeks I've increases my exercising.  I exercise for 30 minutes everyday except Sundays.  Now, what I'm adding is to work toward my dream, I believe I mentioned earlier, and that is to backpack.  So, my plan for this week will be to wear my backpack which is partially packed (tent, sleeping bag, stove, water purifier and a few other items weighing a total of 20 lbs.) around the house doing daily chores.  I figure start small but START!  I will call my brother, who will be backpacking with me, and make a date for our first event. 
 
I am writing down everything I eat and trying to eat 1300 calories a day.  Although, I think I ate a bit over that on Saturday and Sunday, but I practice SO FAR (another Martha Beck inspiration), so I'm not really worrying about the over-the-limit during the weekend and I'm getting back on track and moving on with my goals. 
 
As for other things in my life...
My daughter's boyfriend is back around, (he left for awhile to "try out the Navy").  That stresses me out!  I Pray she will make good choices and stay true to The Lord and herself.  She has such dreams for her future.  She is only 15 and knows she wants to become a physical therapist.  She figures next year when she's a junior she can go to Vo-Tech and work toward getting her CNA.  Use that (her CNA) and work while attending a university to get what she needs for physical therapist.  Plus what she learns studying for CNA all the medical, will help with her physical therapy studies.  She has a good head on her shoulders, NOW if boyfriend doesn't fog it up and turn it to mush!  He, I thought had a good head on his shoulders.  But my opinion of him recently has changed.  I think he may be a loser from a couple of bad choices he's made and some of his comments about his future.  Prayers are needed for this situation.  My friend opened my eyes to Phillipians 4:6,7 it has really helped me and I will use this verse often, especially where my daughter's well being is concerned. 
 
I still have my grandson.  I will be taking him home this week, hopefully before Thursday.  Thursday, my daughter is having a foot operated on to straighten out her toe (bunion problems).
 
Have a great new week.  I'll get back and post in a day or two.

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